Distraught

Confused and misled
Not knowing how to prevail
Lost from the goal to succeed
Never finding the way to come out on top
Forever stuck in last place
So long spent at the bottom
Winning, and obscure option
Only hoping with imaginary fabrications
The life I have failed
Tormented by all other achievers
Silently mocked by everything I want to be
So much control, of me
Unable to harness the direction of use
Wasting away
Unable to find my reason
Insecure, given up on myself
Fearful and distorted
Diluted by fantasies and dreams
Wanting so much
Impossible to my abilities
Sick of the wishes
Angered by self annihilation
Realizing the loser that I have become