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Admiration carries on into my love
Grace and beauty I see in you, lovely
The best I’ve known, the most I’m alone

Ink of my tears splash down the page
Relentless self-beating, my pain, hate, and rage

I wish unto my mind a poison, erasing my life
Magnitudes of my hate, amplified by my admiration 
Of your perfectness

I realize how I am not worth much, not much at all
Rejected from you, is death worth a call

If no way is your way, then I guess I’ll say no
I have no choice, fill me with the painkillers
Sleep is fucking drugs
As I make it go away I want you today
No way, my pay, you forget me everyday

Linger my mind repressed into time, alcoholic rhyme
The blood from the wine, the cut is defined 
I’m losing my mind, I can’t leave behind, destroy my unkind

I love you so much 
You don’t want to know
I can’t make you care
I can’t seem to go