Realization

I waste my time and think
And contemplate my life
The depth to which I sink
Rips through me like a knife

I’m drowning in my hate 
And running out of air
My actions chose my fate
And it’s too late to care

I’ve ruined my one goal
My single chance to live
I’ve departed from my soul
I’ve nothing left to give

And standing on this edge
And gazing down below
I’ve lost my fucking edge
I shall kill my greatest foe