September 16
Wow, it's been a long time, hasn't it? Hm. Well... time certainly has not been standing still over here. Things have happened and rules has changed. Depression has been laughing in my face, leaving me numb with a black hole where my soul used to be. I'm positive it's turning around now. Slowly, ever so slowly.

There are just too many things. Too many... A friend of the family lost his battle with cancer last month. A friend of my mother died unexpectedly. He was young and had his whole life ahead of him. Other friends has fallen into the shadow, or despair. It's getting harder to cope with every loss nowadays, when everybody seems to be dying both to the right and left. I've been thinking of death way too much. I can feel the thoughts weighing on me, in me. I long for the sun, yet autumn has come. But that's ok. *s* I love the autumn. The leafs, the cold, crisp air... What's there not to love? The rain? The wind? Nah. Always had a weak spot for bad weather. You can dance in the rain and you can fly with the wind. It takes you to places never known before, never visited but in your imagination. *sigh* Yeah. Love autumn. Really do.

Perhaps there is a reason to smile and stop being gloomy.

*heh**looks guilty* I've been reeeeeally bad with answering my mail this month. I've been going back to school after years of absence. The thought is I'll work myself up to an honorable degree and continue further with the studies. To read more history mayhaps, or to move on to gender studies and world societies. Uhm; -back to the 'why-I've-not-been-answering-my-mail-properly'-explanation! I've been buried in homework. It's as simple as that. I hope you'll bear with me. I'm not being rude, I'm just getting used to the studying thing again, and it's gonna take some time adjusting to it all. So remember; if I reply late-late-late, it's not because I don't like you or something bad like that. It's simply because I've not had the time. Well. That and my broadband is acting up a bit every now and then.


What's happening right now:
LOTS. The swedish Xena con is on its way! The swedish fanclub Northern Realms are working on it. We're planning the event and are looking into different locations and figures. It will be a professional affair, with splendid sound, lights and possibilities. The project is called Norse Con, but it's been dubbed the IQ con because of the preferences set up by us all.

The swedish fanclub's periodical is almost done. The first issue, that is. The swedish xenites have expressed a need for a Xena magazine that can rival Lucy In The Sky, since the latter isn't concentrated on Xena, but Lucy. The fans named our new zine 'Valkyria'. It's appropriate, don't you think? *s*

It was election day in Sweden yesterday (Sunday 15th) and so I walked up to the school where the voting was held in my district. It took me two (!) hours to find that place. We vote every fourth year and I've only been living where I live for three years now. Ironically I've never been on the other end of this suburb. And that's where that school was situated. Heh. Waaaaaaay far off into a godforsaken part of the place, up on a hill. :)

Fun reality soap: Fame Factory! A bunch of young people wants to become artists. Very funny and enlightening. Are we really that desperate to be known to the outside world? So eager to be seen that a reality soap is our medium? Of course. If you have a dream, you'll want to fulfill it. Man, I feel so sorry for those who sing false at those auditions. The jury talks so much shit behind their backs, it's a profanity in itself... Some of the coaches are good, though. And the kids are really good. They haven't lost hope. That's a rare thing these days.

September 11. It was a day of remembrance and contemplation. All affected by the WTC event were on my mind. The losses, the angst, the fear. You must need mental strength when dealing with something like that. I can't believe it's been a whole year.


What's happening right now with the site:
Different things. I'm working on the Cast section. I'm realising that it's impossible to make personal sites to each and every actor/actress in XWP. I'll have to make smaller info pages, concentrated on the most important. There will be many links, to creata a more effective service.

The infamous TN update: Walls relating to T Novan. Like MP, Soul Searching, Exposure...

Cover Gallery: Yep. I'm making one. The first covers should be up by now, linked from Pictures and Art. The rabbit cover is old. The others are new. Why did I do it? It's not like there's no other cover artists out there. I just wanted to try.

Joke pics: Page 20 of FINfools, another JFA page and some uber pics are on their way.

Quotes: You've probably noticed the quotes are coming up. I'm currently working on season two.

The 2003 Subtext/UBER calendar: I'm still taking suggestions and tips on which ubers to make wallpapers from. If you have an idea and/or think that your fave uber would make a superb wall; -mail me!


Uninteresting and boring stuff that's happened:
I'm growing a cold. *s* I'm gonna crawl into bed soon. It's much warmer than in the rest of the apartment. I need to sleep anyhow.

I've been getting these 'do fakes, do fakes!' kind of mails. I'm gonna answer with this;
-No. I don't do explicit pics. This is simply because I respect the actors with all my heart and know that I'd feel really awkward if I dropped by a site and saw myself eating one of my best friends... You know?


This week's "To do"-list:
Get some sleep. Need it.
Do some graphics for a web page.
Write the fourth episode of Krogen.
Re-read the Roman empire.
Do some Updates!!! (As always.)
Write the end of Vintersjälen. (I must do this! I just forget!)
Continue writing Mörkrets hjärta and Lost, found and Confused. (I'm working...)
Study.