You're all I think about,
When I'm staring into space.
All I can see,
Is your gorgeous face.
All my thoughts,
And daydreams too.
I can't help it,
They're all based on you.
Giggles at night
Gentle sighs
A warm embrace
From my lovers eyes
A single touch
A little smile
Makes each day
So worthwhile
The whispers of
Her heart's true beat
Touch my soul
I am complete

Across this vast place, your fierce embrace, we stare to each others vacent dreams..
promising tries, failing lies, everone wants to be together forever
...all I see is you with me, and any other way is wrong
this emptyness in me, burning inside me, scaring around me, bursting beneth me...
corrupt intentions of cowardness...
I complain about what I want and dream about what I've had...
but whats really sad, is all the others beneth me....
I will stay empty untill love has controlled me...
blasting boasting about fading memories...All I want is you with me...
the mantle of emotions on me...screaming get the hell off me!...
where is she? why do the roots play with me.. show me purity! show me innosence!
Bull shit lust will reighn.....
but these violent feelings are only oppressive
in those who want the truth of everyone's misguided lives....
and sadly enough, all I want is....where is she?

Whenever I miss you,
It always brings to mind
The thoughts and hopes we shared
And our many happy times.

And the quiet moments, too,
I think of all the things
So unique to me and you.

And though the many smiles
Make it seem we're far apart
Warm memories like these
Keep you ever in my heart.

There's a rare kind of friend
Who knows just what to do
When to talk, when to listen,
How to be there for you.

A friend who inspires you
To grow in new ways,
A friend who'll be there
On both good and bad days.

There's a rare kind of friend
Who makes life worth living
By encouraging, praising,
sharing, and giving.
Am I that friend to you?

Do you know what you do
when you make me smile?
You paint my face
with a rainbow of colors.
You light a fire
within my heart.
You set off a certain twinkle
in my eyes.
You lift up my worries
and send them far away.

Do you know what you do
when you make me laugh?
You give me butterflies
in my stomach.
You set my troubled mind
at ease.
You give me chills
all over my body.
You make the sun shine brighter
in my life.

Do you know what you do
when you make my feel loved?
You set off a flame
that burns deep within me.
You give me the confidence
I thought I'd never have.
You show me the way
through life's endless maze.
You teach me
the most important lessons.

Do you know what you do
when you do all these things?
You give me new hope
for the future.
You give me more than
I've ever dreamed of.
You give me the greatest gift of all;
you give me yourself.

Beautiful soft spoken words, that touch
the very essence of my soul.
Embracing my private fantasies, transforming
them into reality.
Finding and releasing my hidden passions,
leaving my skin yearning for your touch.
Impassioned eyes, that sear into my soul,
and melt the world away.
Bestowing upon me a love, that with
every fiber of my being, I have longed for.
Filling this void, this emptiness, with your
everlasting presence.
Looking beyond the physical, and seeing
into the core of my spiritual being.
Amiable, loving memories that I locked
into my heart, to which you hold the only key.
This dear is what you have given me.

With this ring I promise ...
to give you love, honor and friendship.
I vow to be strong, no matter what the hardship.
To worship you ... throughout your life,
in good times and bad, through all of your strife.

With this ring I promise ...
to show understanding, compassion and care.
whenever you need me ... I will be there.
Throughout both our lives, I will light your way,
I will hold you my Angel, ‘til my final day.

With this ring I promise ...
to cherish our children, with a endless love
To love and protect them, by the heavens above.
To save them from hate, or bumps in the night,
to make them feel guarded until mornings light.

With this ring I promise ...
to respect, honour and adore.
I'll treat you as gossamer, ‘til I am no more.
I will hear and fulfill every want, every dream,
watch as you sleep, veiled in glistened moonbeam.

With this ring I promise ...
to embrace you as soulmate, as lover, as friend.
To give you my self, ‘til life's end.
To be basking, flawed and mortal, in your raptured glow,
as your angels wings envelope, may my time on earth slow.

With this ring I promise ...
to be valiant, fearless and true.
against all ... that may hurt you.
To risk life protecting your heart and soul,
for your love is the essence that makes me whole.

Star light star bright
Let me love you
With all my might

I'll make your wishes
All come true
I want to say
I love you

Just make a wish
Your wish I'll try to grant
Tell me that you love me
And take me by the hand

When I make my wish for us
I will find a star so high
Then send our love shooting
All across the sky

The Angels' must have looked upon me,
Saw that I felt alone,
And sent a special woman to me;
A love to call my own.

They made you true and kind,
you're wonderful and more;
That's how I knew you were meant for me;
That's how I could be sure.

I loved you right away,
I said I'd be your wife,
To cherish you forever more;
To share with you my life.

Together with our children,
our home will be full of love;
For that I thank the Angels
Who heard me from heaven above.

I pledge my faithfulness,
For Brandy you've won my heart,
From this day forever more,
May we never be apart.

I am tired. One only knows what tired may mean
Only when his spirit, his liveliness does not gleam.
I am in a place,
That I would not like to face,
For I am tired.
Priority calls in just ten minutes,
But an ever beckoning call reaches for me now.
A certain state I would love to endow
Upon myself right now,
For I am Tired.
A lost love;
A hopeless dream;
A love I not wished contained;
A dream I do wish obtained;
Unity I've sought, and unity I seek
Universe,
Endowed with matter,
I could gaze upon you every hour;
Your essence never turns sour;
Serene I've sought, and serene I seek.
Universe,
Reaching my chambers,
You've giggled your gladness,
And spoken your sadness;
Senses I've sought, and senses I seek.
Universe,
When you have touched me,
I quivered with exquisite delight;
My soul shinned a light so bright;
Feeling I've sought, and feeling I seek.
Yielding, I let you in;
And none were my chances to gain;
Upon myself I've inflicted pain;
Revenge I've sought, and revenge I seek.
Crowding the world,
If you were gone, 'twould only be me;
Oh boy, what a sight to see!
Islement I've sought, and islement I seek.
I think All and you;
My withered heart starts to rot;
It's All I want from the lot;
Junction I've sought, and junction I seek.
A lost love;
A hopeless dream;
In depression I'll stay for her;
Until she realizes my endever;
It's her I've sought, and her I once seeked.
Does love exist?
If love exists then
why is there so much deciet in marriages?
Man created Hate
Man created Love
I do not hate
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction
Why should I try to love?
I like friends
I don't have to completely trust
friends with my life
I don't have to adjust my life
to my friends needs or wants
All I have to do is be a friend.
She doesn't exist
My "dream girl"
so, for the last time I've stopped
Someone helped me realize this
She can't be the one either
My life is like a crystal ball
reflecting everyone,
gleaming to all
trying to have the utmost fun
I lost controll, and I fall
Shatter in a million pieces
scattered far and near
the only pieces left of me
are the ones hard to see
so I'll spend a lifetime looking far and near
For the shattered pieces
that will again let me see so clear.

Like tatherd ends I'm tearing apart
im beginning to fall from the start
she mends my distant bleeding heart
our sweet love, never tart

How I'd wish to hold her near
my thin blood turns to clear
instilled trust, never fear
the lonly nights I shead a tear

I close my eyes to see her face
never to her will I disgrace
to the end of earth I would chase
being distant slows my pace

She whispers to me in the night
she takes aways all my fright
she is the star that shows me light
now my noose is really tight

the tears boil from my head
I give onto her all I've said
she is my wine and my bread
God help me now, without her I'm dead

I am sitting here,
just thinking of you.
I'm still so excited,
this relationship so new.

I look at your pictures,
all over my room,
remmebering as I look at them,
how you saved me from doom

The hell that I knew,
that I once called "life."
Before you came in,
relieving me my strife.

Each day was regarded,
as another painful thing,
Lamenting the sorrow and loneliness,
I knew tomorrow would bring.

Then you came along,
speaking words of a similar nature,
and together we formed a bond,
that only grew in stature.

Friends we started out as,
later our relationship deepened,
as we took the tentative steps,
and our hearts were opened.

We both new the downside of love,
pain was a constant friend.
But you and I found each other,
each allowing our hearts to mend.

Mystified by your words,
and enchanted by your care,
my heart called out to you,
loosing you it could not bear.

So I asked if you would mind,
traveling alongside of me,
and to my astonished surprise,
you said how happy you'd be.

Someone who will watch out for me,
and help me through trying times,
as he pledges his life to the same,
and waits for us to combine.

To join in that special way,
as only true loves can do,
that physical, emotional, and spiritual love,
that we share through and through.

My journey is now looked upon
with anticipation instead of dread.
And my life will be spent with yours,
until my heart is stopped dead.

So now I will bask in the glow,
of the love that is shared between,
and forget the journey ahead for awhile,
knowing that upon you I can lean.

For our love is to large for words,
between us much crying and laughter.
To delight in the fairy tale love we share,
and how we'll live "happily ever after."

I toss and turn, my mem’ries boil
Crackle and burn in midnight oil

My dreams fall soft upon the bed
And dance so oft inside my head

The visions come to play with me
Most often one that cannot be

My distant love, and future plans
A picture of divine romance

So far away but yet so near
Your heart must stay and so I fear

Though in my heart we are lovers
Society warrants other

What fools we were to ever think
Their hate and fear would ever shrink

So back to sleep, to dream of you
And softly weep a tear or two

And wonder how our world might be
If fate smiled down on you and me.

I know you
I knew you by that look in your eye
I have all ways known you, my dreams never lie.
What we have is more than blood or stone
Stronger than space or time
But again our paths have parted
And you are once again commended to my dreams
Never to finish what we started
Doomed to memories it would seem.
There are no words for what you were to me.
There are no words worthy of your memory.
More that friendship, more than love
A kinship forged somewhere above.
I will remember you until the stars die,
But for now all I can say is goodbye

Simple Words
have come to amaze
to keep your love
to block your gaze.

Simple words
to win your heart
to keep us together
to keep us apart.

Simple words
to marinate your soul
to seduce your senses
to simplify your role.

Simple words
so you'll stay here with me
to make you dream
to make you fly free.

Simple words
to complete your mind
to show you that
Love is blind.

Simple words to awake
a new morning you will make
to the path you wish to take

Sleep is not my friend.
I lie awake and alone.I
bite my lip to keep from screaming.
Pain stabs me like a hundred knives.
Aching pain coarses through my veins.
Leaving nowhere untouched.
Replacing the substance of life With a desire
to just give up and cry Repressed screams
escape my lips,But does anyone hear them?
Pain shocks my every nerve Like millions of
lightning bolts. I taste the bitter salt of
tears on my lips. Exhaustion crashed over
my body like a tidal wave.Cursed to relive
this nightmare forever, Or until eternal slumber
sets me free...No, sleep is not my friend.

Sometimes it's hard to say
exactly how I feel
all of these emotions
I just cannot reveal

Sometimes it's hard to find the words
even though my heart longs to speak
all these feelings bottled up
inside my heart I keep

But when I take my pen in hand
the words just seem to flow
all of my feelings and emotions
on paper now they show

Everything I couldn't say
I can now reveal in ink
my heart is now an open book
my sadness becomes extinct

Could you take just a minute
from your busy world
to listen to me
I need to be heard

If you'd take just a minute
and listen to me
you'd find out I'm not happy
with things as they be

I'f you'll take just a minute
and read between the lines
you'd find out that everything
is not just fine

If you would take just a minute
and hear what I have to say
you'd find out I want something more
and not just for today

Could you take just a minute
and listen to me,
I want something more than this
can't you see?

There's a voice in my head
and a voice in my heart
These voices are slowly
tearing me apart
The voice in my head
tells me it's wrong
the voice in my heart
is the feeling so strong
The voice in my heart
the voice in my head
the battle goes on
till all is said
Then the voices are quiet
it's time to decide
the voices have spoken
I can not hide
Who will win
the voices of my head or my heart
right or wrong
be happy or be smart

Broken promises
and shattered dreams
Life is not always the way
we want it to be

Broken hearts
and wounded souls
Life can be tough
lonley and cold

Tear stained faces
eyes that have cried
Life is hardly
an easy ride

So keep your chin up
and hold your head high
hearts can mend
and broken wings heal to fly

Broken promises
and shattered dreams
now a part of the past
and all that it means

I see the world
through misty eyes
my tear-stained face
shows I've cried
My heart, my soul
taken from me
through misty eyes
the world I see
Through misty eyes
all looks sad
remembering a love
I never had
Through misty eyes
the world I see
remembering a love
that could never be

It comes again and drags me down,A hopelessness in which I drown.
My heart gives out without much fight, And I'm lost again in a starless night.
The pain is deep without an end, Throughout my soul it does extend,
A knot that twists within myself, A quick, sick dread that spreads itself.
Now comes the quilt on lead filled wings, And everything with which it will bring. Racking sobs and tears are lost, In pillows deep for silence cost.
with throbbing head and swollen eyes, Still I muffle all my cries.
The house sleeps on, Am I alone? For this pain, am I to blame?
And of this shame, can I complain?
For others still have suffered more, And truly, I am not so poor.
And so again I fake my laugh, A bitter show on my behalf.
They know not what I feel inside. I am too good at what I hide.
And if within I am afraid, Then without, it's not portrayed,
So as I cry inside outside they see,
Only a bright and cheerful me.

As far as I go
There's something I'll always know
As far apart
From end to start
As far away from you
No matter where I am
There's something special, magic
Something that brings me
Drifting back to you

As far apart
Never deeper than my heart
Something I hold dear
I wait to be near, you
As hot as fire burns
My heart yearns
To be closer
To yours
How much more
Must I give?
How far do I have to go?

Anywhere I go to
Anywhere I come from
No matter where I am
I know that you will
Be there waiting for me
Something deep inside
Something we can't hide
Something that brings me
Drifting back to you

Drifting back slowly
Something holy
Something sacred
Sometimes my heart aches
But I know
You are there
Something magic with you
Something I know you feel too
Something that makes us whole

I'll come running
Leaping, flying and crawling
But in the end you know
I'll just come
Drifting back to you

Don't you know you're special
Like a captain to vessel
That lights the fire inside
At night when I'm alone
I scream for you
I dream of you
I only want to be with you

As far apart
When all equals not
I'm not afraid
I have no fear
Because you'll soon be near
When I come
Drifting back to you

Laying in your arms in the light of dawn,
I hear you breathe,
Feel your warmth on my skin
And I just watch you
Your face is so solemn now,
But I know the way you cry,
I know a thousand ways you laugh
And more and more, i know why you cry,
Why you laugh
I know the noise you make when you're about to say something
First your lips will part
As they're doing now,
So I kiss them
And you hold me closer in your sleep
And you might mumble something,
But I know what you meant.

Whenever I miss you,
It always brings to mind
The thoughts and hopes we shared
And our many happy times.

And the quiet moments, too,
I think of all the things
So unique to me and you.

And though the many smiles
Make it seem we're far apart
Warm memories like these
Keep you ever in my heart.

There's a rare kind of friend
Who knows just what to do
When to talk, when to listen,
How to be there for you.

A friend who inspires you
To grow in new ways,
A friend who'll be there
On both good and bad days.

There's a rare kind of friend
Who makes life worth living
By encouraging, praising,
sharing, and giving.
Am I that friend to you?

Sometime later, when the rain slows
to a soft whisper,
my heart stills too.

It is the dawn and the sun
glistens through the raindrops
on the windowsill.

I feel warm and calm,
like the puddles after the storm,
like ripples of windbreath
making their images quiver and pulse,
like a mirror on feelings
that well up in my singing eyes.

Sparkles of lightning
whisper distantly
and I sigh my love as I lay
melted under you.

It's not the gifts that I receive
that end up meaning the most to me;
It's the joy it brings, the special thought,
With which the gift to me was brought.
It's not the gifts that can be bought,
that become life's little treasures;
It's gifts that come from the heart,
the ones that can't be measured.
It's the gifts of friendship, tried and true,
that become life's gifts of gold;
these gifts of kindness can't be bought

Here we are together,tho I'll see you soon
on this our special day, it's a little after noon
I love you more than ever, missing you is true
I love you more than I can say, Im on my knees for you

We've stayed together,
distance couldn't keep us apart,
joined together by love,
joined together at the heart.

I don't care what others may think,
I know now you are the only one,
you are my evening moonlight,
you are my morning sun.

I love you for who you are,
and not for what you've got.
I love you. Full stop.
No matter what.

I just want you to know,
(and pride does come before a fall),
that I love you now and for always,
and I know that our love will conquer all.

It sneaks upon you while you dream
the whispered words "Je taime"
it creeps inside like a ghost
its thrown away when needed most

Puppets that have short strings
what always counts are the little things
and we accept what fate will bring

two lonly hearts, took day by day
never will either of them stray

They are for each other, never another.

 

Live your life in fear of what I might say because
you'll never know if I'm there on your wedding day
holding in my hand a ring that beared no trust Screaming
out in rage, Your wife is filled with lust! So much
meaningless bullshit that you contain. Dosen't it
cause a forceful strain? Fret for bullshit and Fret
for your hair.Everyone fucking loves you, fucking
everywhere. If you don't scream your bullshit loud
enough that we all won't hear.If you don't have your
bullshit to thrive on, your life dissapears. You have
so many problems, don't we all care. It's not enough
that some are looking, they all have to stare. You
have to feed off others, so that you think your
importance means a shit.When you realize that we
all hate you, you just might throw a fit. I'm not
really sorry I hate you, it kind of makes me feel
nice.I'm not sorry your nothing, and just a bullshit device.

To your ear's you must lend I'll tell
you a story my doubtful friend
Must I Climb a mountain and slain
the dragon Swim a thousand seas searching
for what completes me To achieve this dredful
happy end? My heart must mend My beauity,
binded in a dream, that I long to kiss The
owner of this slipper that I truly miss-Under
the water where I can't go I reach out for
her swimming so distant and deep A princess
that a peasent wants to see Not even a
Genie can set us free I am too horrible
to love The beast I am, pushed away with a shove.

I open my drawer that hides my secret in life.
I look in the drawer and pull out my knife.

This time won't be like all the other times before,
Because now, I just dont want to live anymore.

The knife is against my small wrist; The metal is very cold.
In the darkness the knife looks almost gold.

I leave a note only addressed to one.
It says live your life well, don't regret it, mine's done.

I cut my wrist, the blood's so red.
It soaks my clothes, my sheets and my bed.

I would have given anything to you, but you just didn't care.
Now, I don't want this life anymore, if it cannot be shared.

The blood's now brown; The sheets are dry.
I hope, just once, you'll remember me, care, and cry.

As my stick cracks, dust will fly
stripes or big, my opponent does cry
I'm running the show, my victim's to late
In the side pocket, drops the 8

they asked to me, how is it so?
I replyed to him, hell, I don't know

I place the stick upon my hand;
with a forceful blow, all fifteen explode
A grid across the table, the geometry now shown
another I make, hearing my opponent's groan

I decide to relax my streak, giving them a try
but for some reason they miss again, my oh my
I set them up a shot, to easy to miss this time
oh for heavens sake, to miss that should be a crime!
Ok its time to play, ending all the pain
Once again the 8 drops, putting my opponent to shame

When I'm sleeping
When I'm alone
When I'm without you
I randomly Close my eyes
I can still hear your voice
Caressing my face
And bringing me to a shutter
Wanting to feel you
Close to me
Wanting to feel your warm breath
On my neck as you reach out to me
Your touch like electricity
Surging through my veins
Leaving me longing for more
Just to feel one more kiss
As my eyes close tighter
The image of you dancing in front
of my eyes
I try to reach out to you
But you're just out of grasp
As i imagine you here with me
Flesh against flesh
Your words echoing through my mind
And as i drift off to a peaceful slumber
I am safe in your arms
A feeling I never want to fade
true love

I look her, the precious one
so gentle fair and dear,
I can't get enough of her,
when ever she is near.

Her laughter brings my heart around,
to a place it longs to be,
when ever my sweet Angel face
comes to visit me.

The dearest thing I'll tell you
and it's oh so very true,
is to hear her joyous giggles,
at something that I'd do.

What more a noble thing
ever could there be,
than to make an angel laugh,
and share that laugh with me?

After talking with her I knew I couldn’t
sleep Visions of her beauty Were causing me
to weep Others may not understand How love
can make you cry But the tears are of elation
The joy I feel inside If this isn’t true love
Please lay my soul to rest For nothing can top
this feeling I have growing in my chest It pulls
me deeper daily Each moment that passes by She’s
so intoxicating And makes me feel alive Now I
am addicted For me there is no cure I’d walk across
this planet To get a dose of her. A vision of love
so real so strong,A vision of love to good to be
wrong,Touching and holding and tasting your kiss,
Still feeling the effects of an eternal bliss,Not
having to worry about what I should do,With my heart
in your hands its all up to you,As I lay back and
close my eyes,I hear you whisper you have a surprise,
It feels so good and it feels so right,Still feeling
your heartbeat all through the night,Like a luscious
red rose on a warm summers sun,Our two sensual bodies
are moving as one,You tell me you love me and I know
its true,Now baby come closer I love you too,The pain
and heartache has all gone away,Like the magical changing
of night to day,With a deep breath you say our love is
so real,I know in my heart you know how I feel,As I run
my hands through your soft satin hair,I can feel in my
veins we are almost there,Our hearts our now racing
and racing so fast,I know in this world we are destined
to last,Finally it happens two loves flow together,And
you are the one I'll be loving forever,The stars and
planets are shining above,While shes in my bed I'm
lost in our love.d

I dream of a day,
A day when you will be mine.
I dream of a life,
A life with you always by my side.
I dream of a song,
A song that is yours and mine.
I dream of a chance,
A chance given to many times
But until my day, my life,
My song, and no more chance come,
I will lay my head down and
I will dream.

I write and express to you
Just another thing I do
showing you whos on my mind
where and why the sun does shine

The confusion of this scattered poetry only helps portray the kaos that is around us all...read them carefully--and wait for more to come.

---------------Matthew W.