LOSING A WHOLE YEAR
(Jenkins,Cadogan)
Losing a whole year
I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
Losing a whole year
Hiding in your room we'd lay like dogs
The phone would ring like a a joke that's left unsaid
Rich daddy left you wiyh a parachute
Your voice sounds like money and your face is cute
But your daddy left you with no love
You touch everything with a velvet glove
And now you want to try a life of sin
You want to be with the down and in
Always copping my truths
I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used
Now I realize you never heard
One goddamned word I ever said
Losing a whole year
Took your stuff, put it in the basement
When I found out what the smile on your face meant
I've seen you pop that check
Craning your neck at the car wreck
It always seems the juice used to flow
In the car in the kitchen you were go to go
Now we're stuck with the tube
A sink full of dishes and some aqua lube
And I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
Losing a whole year
And if it's not the defense you are on the attack
When you start talking I hear the Prozac Convinced you found your place
With the pierced queer teens in cyberspace
When you were yourself it tasted sweet
But it sours into a routine deceit
Well, this drama is a bore
And I don't want to play no more
I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
Losing a whole year
NARCOLEPSY
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
I'm on a train but there's no one at the helm
And there's a demon in my brain that starts to overwhelm
And there it goes, my last chance for peace
I try to keep awake
I try to swim beneath
But still I find this Narcolepsy slides
Into another nightmare
And there's a demon in my head who starts to play
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday
And I hold my breath till it's more than I can take
And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake
I read Dead Russian Authors
Volumes at a time
I write everything down except what's on my mind
Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound
And then I know that I will never get back out
And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink
In a crowded room where the glasses clink
And I'll buy you a beer and we'll drink it deep
Because that keeps me from falling asleep
How'd you like to be alone and drowning
How'd you like to be alone and drowning
Still I find this Narcolepsy slide slide slides
Into another nightmare
JUMPER
(Jenkins)
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand,
The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain,
You know you don't belong,
You're the first to fight, You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light, On a burial shroud,
I know something's wrong,
Well everyone I know has got a reason, To say, put the past away,
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand.
Well he's on the table, And he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they are doing here,
And your friends have left, You've been dismissed,
I never thought it would come to this, And I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons,
Maybe today, We can put the past away,
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...
Can you put the past away, I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
I would understand...
GRADUATE
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
Can I Graduate,
Can I look into the faces that I meet,
Can I get my punk-ass off the street,
I've been living on for so long,
Can I Graduate,
To the bastard talking down to me,
Your whipping boy calamity,
Cross your fingers, I'm going to knock it all down,
Can I Graduate,
Echo fading, We can't let go,
She goes walking by in slow mo',
Sell your Heart out for a buck,
Go on, Fade out, Before I get stuck.
Talking to somebody like you,
Do you live the days you go through,
Will this song live on long after we do,
Can I Graduate.
Can I look into the faces that I meet,
Can 1 get my punk-ass off the street.
Won't die on the vine I want to knock it all down,
Can I Graduate,
Echo fading, Candle blow,
Did you flash out long ago,
Cross my fingers, I don't know someone poked you down below.
Can I Graduate,
Can I get my punk-ass off the street,
Can I look into the faces that I meet,
I'm not waiting here for you to die,
Will this song live on long after we do.
HOW'S IT GOING TO BE
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore,
Before you take a swing, I wonder What are we fighting for,
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder,
Is there anything I'm going to miss,
How's it going to be, When you don't know me,
How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there,
How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to about,
How it's going to be, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be,
Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match,
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch,
A silence I can't ignore,
Like . . The hammocks and the doorways we spent time in, Swing empty,
don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me,
I guess that is how it's going to be.
Want to get back in again,
The soft dive of oblivion.
THANKS A LOT
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
It's all in your mind, She said the darkness and the light,
The clock, it bleeds for you but you never got the time in right,
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence,
And we laughed in the night, And I felt allright.
All hands on deck boys 'cause this ship was made to sink.
Your swabber salutes you now, but I know what he's thinking.
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence,
And we laughed in the night, And I felt allright.
Thanks a lot,
The clothes she wears mis-fit, and she's nervous when she speaks,
Her zombie mom and dad live in a separate house of freaks.
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence,
I'm the one for you,
'Cause I know all the dirty things you like to do,
I'm the fear in your eyes, I'm the fire in your flies,
I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head.
Thanks a lot.
BURNING MAN
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
The rise and fall of my sloppy love, The smatterings, and splatterings,
They'll get you.
I'm not the one you were thinking of,
Maybe you thought I'd call, Instead of crashing down your hall.
Hold me down, but I'll find out.
You know you will never get what you need,
Blue Diamond strike 'em anywhere,
First we caffeinate, then incinerate,
We'll get you.
And sparks will fly in the summer air,
Did you pull out of your stall,
Maybe I'll see you after all.
Say we don't. Know who we are. We say no,
I live my life like the burning man,
Like a burning man,
Like a burning man,
And I won't get enough 'Till my legs are broken,
The stars they shine. In an empty void.
Life is not to fear, life is to enjoy,
He'll get you.
Mr. Death catches all someday.
Baby I thought you'd call.
Or leave a light on in the hall,
Hold me down, But I'll find out. We say no,
I live my life like a burning man,
And I won't get enough,
till my legs are broken.
GOOD FOR YOU
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
Hey, will you stay awhile.
My smile will not misleading,
Cause I've been alone, And my faith turned to stone,
Still there's something in you, I believe in,
Close to the pierce,
I go wild and fierce,
Still I let you be,
I feel you next to me,
'Cause outside I feel,
A wind it starts to blow,
I'm taken in your undertow.
Everything is fine But I'm lonely all the time,
All I want to do is be there for the things that you're going through,
Is that good for you,
Is that good for you.
You haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go,
Is that good for you,
Hey, child please stay awhile.
My smile will not mislead you.
And roll me out.
I go wild with doubt,
I grab at you,
I can't stop grabbing at you,
Cause I feel you cross my mind in disarray, intoxicated ricochet,
There's nothing wrong,
just don't take too long,
All I want to do is be there For the things that you're going through.
Is that good for you,
Is that good for you.
You haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go,
Is that good for you.
LONDON
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
Through the satellites, I fight with you,
That local brew is spillin',
I know just how you spend your time.
I want to get my hands on him,
Somebody's party in a London flat,
You're where it's at and I know,
You want to see me loose my mind,
I'm tired of chasing after you The is jealous,
See me on the dark side of your mind,
I want to get my hands on him,
To a club that's pounding in the London rain,
The world could end We wouldn't hear it.
I know just what's on your mind,
I see the way your face has changed,
We're no good for each other,
You tricked me into coming here, So let go,
I don't want to go to London,
I told you I don't care,
I don't want to go to London,
To live there,
I don't want to go to London,
All your friends afflicted,
I don't want to go to London.
She's addicted, I saw you with him,
I know where you've been,
That nose is broken wide open,
Your way has got me out of line.
I want to get my hands on him. You're so sick just to make me prove, It takes a fight
to move you, I know just what's on your mind. It's been this way a thousand years, We
torture each other. So why the hell did you call me here, And you know,
I don't want to go to London,
I told you I don't care,
I don't want to go to London,
To live there,
I don't want to go to London,
All your friends afflicted,
I don't want to go to London.
She's addicted.
I don't want to go to London,
I told you I don't care,
I don't want to go to London,
'Cause you're not there.
Even when I see you, You're somewhere else in London.
I WANT YOU
(Jenkins)
I've seen suckers loose themselves in the games they learn to play,
Children love to sing but then their voices slowly fade away.
People always take a step away from what is true,
That's why I like you around,
I want you.
Yeah you do... you make me want you.
An open invitation to the dance,
Happenstance set the vibe that we are in,
No apology because my urge is genuine,
And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine.
Here I am and I want to take a hit,
Of your scent and it bit,
So deep into my soul,
I want you.
You do you do, you make me want you.
Send me all your vampires,
And I can't get enough,
And I can't get enough,
The village church yard is filled with bones weeping in the grave,
The silver lining of clouds shines on people Jesus couldn't save,
You want to know how deeply my soul goes, Deeper than bones,
I want you,
And I can't get enough.
After we did it by the window sill,
Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky,
presently in the quilt that your mother made,
And a candle burns to fight off the gloom,
I said to live in this way is not for the meek,
but you talk real soft and kiss me on the cheek.
And like a jazz DJ you talk me into sleep,
There will be no regrets when the worms come,
And they will surely come.
You do you do, I want you,
Send me all your vampires,
I want you
THE BACKGROUND (Jenkins, Cadogan)
Everything is quiet, Since you're not around,
And I live in the numbness now.
In the background.
I do the things we did before,
I walk Haight Street to the store,
And they say where's that crazy girl?
You don't get drunk on red wine, And light no more,
'Cause I don't see you anymore,
Since the hospital,
But the plans I make still have you in them,
Then you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do,
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you,
I only know this cause I am, Way back down,
In the background.
Words they come and memories all repeat,
I lift your head while, They change the hospital sheets,
I would never lie to you, No
I would never lie to you, No
I felt you long after we were through.
And the plans I make still have you in them,
Cause you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do,
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you,
I only know this cause I am, Way back down,
In the background.
MOTORCYCLE DRIVEBY
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
Summer time and the wind is blowing, Outside in lower Chelsea.
And I don't know what I'm doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes,
it crashes through the windows, And I'm sleeping on the couch,
When I came to visit you,
That's when I knew, I could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still I'm feeling stupid,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,
Cigarette ash flies in your eyes, And you don't mind, And you smile,
And say the world doesn't fit with you.
I don't believe you, You're so serene.
Careening through the universe, Your axis on a tilt, Guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you,
And there's things I'd like to do that you don't believe in,
I would like to build something, You know it's never going to happen,
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive,
And there's this burning, There is this burning.
Where's the soul. I want to know, New York City is evil.
The surface is everything, but I could never do that,
Someone would see through that.
And this will be the last time, We'll be friends again.
I'll get over you and you'll wonder, Who I am.
And there's this burning, Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive,
I go home to the coast. It starts to rain, I paddle out, On the water Alone,
Taste the salt and taste the pain. I'm not thinking of you again,
Summer dies and swells rise, The sun goes down in my eyes, See this rolling wave,
Darkly coming to take me, Home,
And I never been so alone, And I've never been so alive.
GOD OF WINE
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
Every thought that I repent,
There's another chip you haven't spent,
And you're cashing them all in,
Where do we begin. To get clean again,
Can we get clean again.
I walk home alone with you, And the mood you're born into,
Sometimes you let me in, And I take it on the chin.
I can't get clean again. I want to know, Can we get clean again,
The God of Wine comes crashing through the headlights of a car that took you farther
than you thought you'd ever want to go,
We can't get back again, We can't get back again,
She takes a drink and then she waits,
The alcohol it permeates,
And soon the cells give way, And cancels out the day.
I can't keep it all together,
I know...I can't keep it all together.
And the siren's song that is your madness,
Holds a truth I can't erase, All alone on your face.
Every glamorous sunrise, Throws the planets out of line,
A star sign out of whack, A fraudulent zodiac.
And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room, You let me down, I said it,
Now I'm going down, And you're not even around.
And I said no...
I can't keep it all together,
I know...I can't keep it all together,
And there's a memory of a window, Looking through I see you.
Searching for something, I could never give you,
And there's someone who understands you more than I do.
A sadness I can't erase. All alone on your face.
TATTOO OF THE SUN
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
(Not included on Third Eye Blind)
I believe everything you say
Cuz your not frightened
the way I've been so
So I follow you
Just in case you lose your way
So glad you let me stay around
The chain link fence you climbed
To make forbidden lakes our own
Your's and mine
And with ease of the sea gulls
We cut the engines and cruise high
In the summer sky
Now I could speak to everything
But there's no room for my voice
When sweet feed back is
Jumping through the hoop of your ear
Ring there goes the phone
And then you're off again
On what the caller brings
So I went and trashed myself at the bar
Confused for nothing thinking you'd be there
I'm so embarrassed cuz it's you
Who comes to take care of me
Shambling home again with you to lead
And it's not the way I want to go
And I'm mad at you and I'm mad at me
Talking endlessly, not a kind word to say
Till your amber beads of wisdom come
And I want to write it down
Just the way you said it
So I could keep it always
I can't forget the smell
Of summer trees at midnight
Bending backwards to please the wind
You touch the tattoo of the sun
On a warm belly that once carried a baby for a while
Then let that crackled leather jacket round you fold
Red face saints monogrammed in gold
And in this beauty I would not go any further
Cuz I suddenly remembered
We can't live this way forever
Idle daylight
I've never caught you in a lie
Not until now
I feel somehow
The passing of these days gone by
What will you do when the feeling
That you have is through
I need to know
Cuz I'll never stop hanging on to you
And it's times like this that I dread
When there's everything to say
And nothing left
To be said
And it makes me sad
HORROR SHOW
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
(not included on Third Eye Blind)
Since I was a little kid I tried to get out of my head
Trapped on the playground I would stare at the sky
I didn't even know why
But daily life it took an evil shape
Some conformed And some tried to escape
And those are the misfits that I have known
Like a sock in the eye They feel it to the bone
It's a joke that we all know
We're the bait in a horror show
We are all alone In a horror show
Banish me and mine to outer space
I'd shoot there in a second
Just for the breathing space I'd put the punks on the moon
For head-room Mods rule the galaxy
That's the way I think things should be
The creep in you is the creep in me
Gravity presses down like a lie
We want wild sex But we don't want to die
Do you feel there's no where to go
We're the bait in a horror show
And we're all alone in a horror show
Yeah we are all alone in a horror show
If I spoke in words of only hate
Tell me would you now Could you relate?
And I, I wish I met Lou Reed Out on his darkened sea
'Cause I felt it when his blood would flow
But it doesn't take a thousand years to know
That ship burned a long time ago
And we're all alone in a horror show
We're all alone
We're on our own In a horror show
