My Poems
These were poems that were added before May 31st. =) But a lot were written recently. I have the dates somewhere. =)
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*TIMES OF SILENCE*©
In those times of silence
So many words could have been spoken
Those times that were spent
Where hearts were broken
Dreams were scattered
Tears flew wild
Hopes were shattered
Faith was mild
Things could have been said
Maybe to cause a smile
So much blood was bled
Even for just a little while
But no words came out
They were on the verge of being reveiled
but at the last minute came no sound
Lips were sealed
Maybe if something was said
During all those silent times
Truth would have been fed
Instead of the lies
things would be different
Things would be changed
But now those silent moments are spent
Dreams are hanged
Never to be here again
Still no worlds are formed
Just wish something was said
Because when words come now, no one is home
*THE ONE I LOVE*©
Blow away my fears
Hide my face
Dry my tears
Take me to a different place
Just any place but here
Hurry, make haste
I don't know how much longer I can stay
Too much pain is around
Forget everything, let's just run away
In the middle of the night, let's leave without a sound
I cannot go alone
You must come along with me
Find a new home
'Cause this one can no longer be
Take hold of my hand
And I'll take yours
No one will understand
but we have to close the doors
Tell me you love me
And that you're mine
Tell me that you see
And that we'll find
I'll tell you that I love you
And you're all I need
I'll tell you that it's true
I'll tell you what it all means
But for now
Let's indulge in happiness
With you, all my pain falls down
You blew away my fears and lonliness
I love you
*SORROW OF MY HEART*©
The lights were on
I could see
Then the lights became silent
Now I'm blind
Left to grope in the dark alone
Then I feel a hand take mine
It's still dark
But I know I can find
I smile as I'm led through the narrow tunnel
Then I see a dim light in the distance
Your hand lets my hand go
The light in the distance fades black
The walls start closing in
Silent screams fill my head
I fall to the ground
Covering my ears
No more, please
Please, stop screaming
Who's screaming?
It's dark
So dark
I realize who's screaming
Whose cries of pain fill the night
Mine
They're mine and they won't stop
I'm all alone
Then the walls stop
The lights turn on
I take a look around my room
I wipe my eyes
Nothing changed
It's all the same
The lights flicker
Once again, the pain in my heart starts
Here we go again
*ONLY WAY*©
Eyes set on the ground
Just keep on staring
Vision blurs with tears
Keep on staring at the ground
Voices calling
Eyes not looking
Those who stare down at the ground
Never get hurt
Caught in the rain
Taxicabs drive by
Dirty water splashes
Drowning away those tears
Just gotta keep on looking down
Looking up causes too much pain
Keep the head down
No more holding hands while crossing the street
Just staring down at the feet
Car horns honking
No more crying
Those who hold on tight
Lose the fight
Let go
And it will all be fine
The only care left to have
Is to not look up
Because walking these streets alone
Is the only way to go
*SEARCHING*©
I can't find the answer
To my heart's desires
Barefoot and broken
Scarred and bleeding
Screaming and crying
Lonely and alone
Why can't I find
The answer to my heart
Longing and hoping
Praying and waiting
With an empty hand
I explore these deserted lands
Searching for my heart's answer
Where can I find?
When will I find?
How will I find?
Blistered and bruised
Heartbroken and heavy
It's too late to turn back now
It's going to be a long, hard journey
Got to keep on driving
Stare straight ahead
Even if it's the hardest thing
I've ever done
Just got to keep on driving
Alone and forgotten
*DEAR LORD*©
This actually made my dad cry...
Dear Lord,
I have my prayers to ask
And I know You may not answer fast
I say this prayer every night
Knowing that it will take flight
And I know that all the dreaming that I do
I can always count on You
I hear the soft whisper of Your voice in my heart
And no matter where I go, we will never be apart
I must take every day at one time
And soon, all my dreams will be mine
Seeing the twinkle of the star
I know that You are not very far
And those tears that I cry
I feel Your hand wipe my eye
No one understand how I feel
But there is nothing that I fear
Because You are on my side
And, in You, I take pride
I hear the echoing off the wall
Your hand uplifts me, not allowing me to fall
I must not worry
With You, I have everything
Everything will come true
Everything, because I hear You
You know my prayer
You will always be there
Please, keep Your promise
I need this
Thank You for listening
Just keep on whispering
I always hear You
No matter what I do
I wish You good-night
Thank You for this life
It's a treasure
That will go on forever
Wait for me tomorrow
I pray for this in Your name for days to follow
Amen
This is basically the only happy poem that I have written. So, be happy for this one =) Enjoy it while it lasts.
*STARING EYES*©
I am standing there
Staring into eyes that just stare back
I don't see any life anywhere
I smile, in hopes I get one in return
But in answer, a tear falls down the cheek
I reach up and wipe it away
I lower my own eyes
I look back up and see the eyes just staring
I see unhappiness
So many tears flow, like a broken dam
As they are doing now
I see the heart in those eyes
Empty and hollow
They are only happy sometimes
But it is always replaced with sobs
There is a need and hunger in those eyes
For love
Now tears are streaming down the face
Falling to the ground and becoming nothing more
I stare deep into the eyes
Getting lost in a world beyond all worlds
Then I realize I am standing in front of a mirror
Staring into my own eyes
*ANGELS*©
I hear footsteps behind me
I turn around
All it is is a leaf crumbling in the wind
I keep going on down the lonely sidewalk
My body against the cold wind
It's all so deserted
Almost like my heart
I feel so alone
I hear another noise behind me
I do not look
Knowing it is another leaf being ruled by the cold chill
I keep on walking
Hands in my pockets
Head hung low
Coldness all around me
I cry
But the cold wind drys them before they fall
Noises behind me
I turn around this time
All that stands is me and nothingness
chills run through me but I am oblivious of the cold
someone was there
Or something was there
I trudge on despite of all my questions
I do not know where I am going
But wherever it is, I will get there
Someone is waiting for me
So I must go on
Footsteps
I do not look
I keep on going to the land of somewhere
*JUST A DREAM*©
So many feelings way deep down inside
And I try to hide
Curled in the corner of the room
With the lights off
And the tears turned on
Silence is broken with my whispered questions
And nothing comes when I wait for the answers
I'm lost inside a deep, dark hole
Of emotions
The walls, too steep to climb
Then I see it all
But then when I open my eyes
All of it fades away
My happiness disolves into another memory
I'm inside a glass box
and on the outside is my angel
You feel so close
but I realize it's only a dream
Just a dream
With the lights still off
The coldness inside me
If my happiness doesn't come to me
Please, just let me die
the corner has become my home
Tears are my friends
but happiness is all in my dreams
Just my dreams
*EMPTY WISHES*©
I never thought that I could ever love someone as much as I love you
I never thought that loving you would ever bring so many tears
I never thought a person could be as beautiful as you, inside and out
I never thought that I would spend so much time sitting there, spent in my thoughts
I never thought that I would ever lay down my life for someone
I never thought that I would stare into someone's eyes and see everything I've ever needed and wanted
I never thought that whenever I would hear someone's voice, it would send shivers through me
I never thought I would give anything I have for someone
I never thought that my heart would long so much for someone
I never thought that feelings could be so strong and demanding
I never realized love was so painful, until I started loving you
I know that I will never hold you in my arms
I know I will neverbe able to call you mine
I know I will never enjoy life, if I can't share it with you
I know you will never care for me the way I care for you
I know these tears will never stop flowing
You are my angel, and the angels up in Heaven look upon you with envy
If I had one wish, it would be for you to love me
the only way to fill in this need, is to have you
But, I fear that wishes never come true, and that I am only wishing empty wishes
*SAVE ME*©
My Lord,
I know I'm not anywhere near being perfect, for I hurt You everyday with every time that I sin. I beg for Your forgiveness.
I need You to hear my cries, my Father. I am all alone right now in this world and in my life. I feel like I have nothing. I even feel
like a stranger to my own mind and body. What must I do to help rid of this? I need Your strength and Word to fill me up until
my cup runneth over. That closeness I used to feel...what happened to it all? I opened my eyes one dreadful morning and it
seemed to be gone. But, for forever? I need Your hand to guide me. I'm so scared that my love will not find me. That his eyes
will pass over me in the crowd and never return. Home is where the heart is, right? So where's the heart of his that I long so
much for? Not here. Not anywhere that I can find. Therefore, I have no home. I'm a nomad wandering from heart to heart and
not finding any warmth. Not finding any happiness. He holds my happiness in his hands, and my heart in his heart. Until I am
with him, that happiness will not be unleashed. I know I ask for so much but if there is only one thing that I could have come
true, it would be to have him and finally have his love fill my soul and heart. Let the tears of pain and fear and sadness turn to
tears of happiness, joy, and love. Please, God, make it stop. The pain. Oh, God, it's killing me. Help me, please. Wash away
the blood that I bleed every day. Clean my open wounds. Please give me my love, my life. I need him to live. Please God. I'm
dying in the time I have to wait. Soon, I'll be nothing more.
I love you always and can never thank You enough. Please, hear me and answer me, my Lord and Savior. Save
me.
Christi Bickart
*WISHING ON A STAR*©
As I lay my head down to rest for the next day
I wish upon a star, that's so far away
I wish so many times upon that twinkling spot up in the midnight sky
And maybe tomorrow, it will come alive
Before sleep surrounds me
I take a chance to see
If my deepest hopes and desires will come true
And that it will come soon
I wish that you will see
That you will realize you don't have to worry about me
You must have faith
For no longer can I wait
Time passes by, and we can't go back
We must move on every day and make it last
Rest my heart, and give me peace
And tell me that you believe
Please, star, let all my dreams come true
I rely on you
As sleep pulls me in
On my mind is only one wish
That everything will come my way
Including that special day
*COLORS OF THE HEART*©
Every time the rainbow appears in the sky
It was God's promise to us
And now, it is my promise to you
Whenever the rain glitters the earth
Sprinkling it with drops of pureness
The collage of colors appear
Setting the sky on fire
With beautiful colors
When the rainbow is put in the sky
It means my love for you has grown 100 times
It's a glowing symbol
That I will always be there for you
When you need someone to hold on to
I will always care
I will always be there
Until time stands still
Even though, you've let me go
You still have my heart
And even when the rainbow stops shimmering
You must never forget my promise
*WHISPERING A PRAYER*©
As I gaze up at the sky up ahead
Your face swimming around in my head
I pray so many times
That one day you will be mine
Then I see the stars in the sky, twinkling
It looks like He took glitter in His hand and sprinkled it over everything
Over me and over you
And up in the sky that's always blue
then I hear the whisper
But maybe it's the wind because it's getting colder
I catch myself saying a prayer
That I know will get me somewhere
Because a promise is made to be unbroken
and I know when I hear those words spoken
It's not the wind
But my best friend
Telling me the truth
that my dreams will come true
And meeting you is a fact
I can promise you that
I hear that reassuring voice
That everything I do will be my choice
But that I'll never be left alone
Even after accomplishing everything my dreams have ever known
So, seeing you is in my plans
But after that, all I can do is take your hand
and smile up above and whisper another prayer
Because I know with each prayer, I will get somewhere
All Poems by ©Christi Bickart
Please do not copy.
Thank you and have a good day/night=)
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