My Poems
These were added on July 5th, 2000
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Written June 24, 2000
*THE WORLD THAT SHOULD BE*©
I wish someone would just tell me how to feel
I've been through every emotion
After all this, nothing seems to be real
I wish life was like a fairy tale caption
Full of wonder and happiness
And the only tears cried
Are from joy and peacefullness
And the promises spoken aren't ones that are lied
And every corner of the world is green
And alive
No one is cold hearted and mean
No one is lost and deprived
That every hope ever made
Become a hope and wish no longer
That all doubt fades
And hearts grow fonder
But a place like this doesn't exist
Not in me, not anymore
The life that was once sun-kissed
Has become an infected, open sore
Day dreams used to buzz around in my head
But now tears stream down my face
Sometimes, now, all dreams are dead
Gone, taken to a different place
Where they're in no reach to me
There are times when I find it hard to smile
Wondering if it's at all supposed to be
In my mind, thoughts roam for a mile
Searching for a place to confine
I pray one day to find the answers
To step from this thin line
From this unchanging disaster
Written July 5th, 2000
*ONE WAY*©
My life is like a one way sign
Follow it and what do you find?
Maybe you look for happiness and laughter
Or hugs and kisses filled with love
Don't go down the street
Looking for more than you think there is
Don't look for me in a state of joy
Disappointment will only find you in its course
The road to my heart is a one way street
Once a spot reserved for you and me
Everywhere you walk
Darkness surrounds you
How can you say it'll all be fine
When you're the one that cries?
Stop signs inudate me
Everywhere I turn is a red light
Never turning green
I'm living on borrowed time now
I can't afford to buy more
But I can't afford to lose
As you travel down this road
Try to understand, to realize
That my life is like a one way sign
And at the end is a dead end
Written July 5th, 2000
*BELIEVE*©
I wish I could say I believe
I wish for a you and me
Don't you wish the same thing?
I cry for someone I love
For someone who doesn't know
You don't hear my pleas
You can't feel or taste my tears
But do you hear my longing?
I wish I could say you do
I wish you could say you believe
Stop looking and start finding
The moans at night aren't caused by the wind
They belong to me
Let me in
I let you in and now I have to pay
Pay full time in pain
I tremble in the dark
Shivering from these feelings
Poisoned feelings
That I must always drown in
I want to move on
But my heart doesn't listen
How can I say good~bye
When I haven't even said hello?
Unless we find a way
I must forever live like this
I can't take it
I won't take it
It will all end unless you save me
Don't let me die
By myself and because of myself
All Poems by ©Christi Bickart
Please do not copy.
Thank you and have a good day/night=)
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