~This following poem was added late because I did not add it before *duuuuuuh!* because I didn't find the paper. I was cleaning my room *WOW, I know lol. It's rare that I do!* and I found this paper buried under other papers! lol So, here is the 1 poem that I didn't find until today=)
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Written January 2, 2001
*I HAVE FAILED*©
I stare into the mirror
Red provides the background for blue and green
Saltwater falls from these colors
If only I could tell you why I was crying
If only you could understand
I try to gather up the words
To say the words I've practiced so many times
I've ran them through over and over
Perfectec them
Made sure every mistake was filtered out
But now when the time comes to say them
I open my mouth
Nothing comes out but a whimpering cry
I'm a failure
To everyone
To life
So many things I could have done better
How different everything would be
I failed so many
I tried to cover it up with a lie
A lie to myself
That it's all okay
That I did everything I could
Lies
Nothing but lies
Why have I failed so many times?
In so many ways?
Now someone else has come to me
And I shall fail again
Run
Run before I fail you, too
Run and hide before I make the same mistakes
I am a failure
Of everything I've done
And of who I am
I'm a failure of me