My Poems
These were added on September 4, 2000
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Written September 2, 2000
*GOOD~BYE*©
Saying good~bye seems like the easy way out
But the words never left my lips
Nor were they formed in my heart
I keep going on day after heartbreaking day
Wandering around, confused
Wondering what more I have to endure
Is there a way out of this black hole?
A place to climb these steep walls?
I'm on the inside of a box
Closed in with noisy silence
While the truth lies on the outside
Out of my reach
If I allow myself to cry one more time
I must be destroyed
Thrown down an endless pit
That I'm already falling down
Dying in a torndado of bundled emotions
Drowning in a river of failures
Unchanging possibilities corner me
In a world of fire
I make my way to the end of a cliff
A way out stares back at me
I lift my eys to the sky
And howl a prayer in pain
Is there really a way out?
Maybe saying good~bye is a necessity
And maybe my whole reason for breathing
Was blown away with the wind
And taken to a place
Where happiness no longer exists for me
Written September 2, 2000
*NO MORE HELLOS*©
Good~bye my love
Good~bye my sweet
Hello my pain
Hello my heartbreak
Good~bye my life
Good~bye my sunshine
Hello my sorrow
Hello my rain
Good~bye my happiness
Good~bye my smiles
Hello my tears
Hello my fears
Good~bye my angel
Good~bye my beauty
Hello my darkness
Hello my heartache
Good~bye my reason
Good~bye my joy
Hello my hell
Hello my cries
Good~bye to all my hellos
Hello to all my good~byes
That I thought we would one day share
Written September 4, 2000
*HEART OF STONE*©
Standing in a room full of unfinished greetings
You don't hear my hellos
And now I close my eyes
To shut away the pain that dances before me
But it pounds in my ears
Beating to a different rhythm
And now the rain falls down from the sky
Filling the room with salty promises
That the rain will never stop
And I long to hear you say
I need you to need me
I need you to love me
I've never fully been loved
Trust has been shattered
My heart has become cold
But I know that when you smile at me
My world dances in an endless frenzy
Of deafening laughter
Mocking my unfullfilled life
With a toss of your heart
And a tear from my soul
I know I'm alone to fight in this battle
Now I stand with closed arms
And a heart full of timid emotions
Will I ever be able to be loved?
Am I doomed to the life
That I fear the most?
The once heart of glass that belonged to me
Was shattered with the whispers of promises that
never became as they should
Stone replaced glass
Unbreaking stone that lasts all the abuse
Tossing in a sea of messy feelings
Your voice reverberates back to an empty body
Staring down a bottle of typical sorrow
Will my time ever come?
My heart of stone no longer has any more wishing to do
The flame has been blown
All Poems by ©Christi Bickart
Please do not copy.
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