Okay, maybe a lot of you are wondering "why" about me...or maybe not. I'm a NERD so ya know...well, maybe you are wondering why I write poems. Or, maybe why are they so depressing...?? Well, I won't ever go into a lot of detail. =) Believe it or not, I don't talk much about that! Wow! If you want me to shut up, then just bring that subject up. =) Guarantee you it'll shut me up. Lol. My poems are all based on like...kinda like "real life" experiences. Feelings that live in me...I write about them. For moi, they are like a therapy session. Talk about weird, I know. They make me feel some sort of release and like I can get a handle on the situation. I don't know if anyone can relate..=) I think I'm a freak of nature. I AM a freak of nature. In school, I am not me. It's weird but I can't be me...I am actually quite quiet and withdrawn at school and I know that people don't know me. At all. They've never seen me. Even my friends at school don't know ME. Does anyone understand? I feel inadequate compared to most people...lol, I've lost most of you, haven't I? My self-image isn't exactly "positive". In reality, it's the EXACT opposite. I have a lot of issues in my life that I won't ever get into. A lot of my close friends don't even know them or if they know, they don't realize the extreme of them. I am different; a freak of nature, as I said so previously. No, I am not popular. Popularity, to me, is like one of the most unnecessary things in this world that we can all live without and the world would be a mucho *Sorry, I mix up Spanish a lot with my English...I am one confused girl =)* better place. We should rid of cliques and clichés that live so unnoticably to most people. I am the type of person that likes to go against the flow AS MUCH as I can. I hate what people like and like what people hate. I wear what people don't wear, and I don't wear what people wear. Preppies are one of the biggest pet peeves of mine. This world is filled with an overpopulated amount. Another pet peeve of mine..best friends. Tell me, what is a best friend? Someone who's there for you through thick and thin, good and bad, hate and love? Well, let me tell you something, until someone finds a "friendship" like this, let me know. Because they don't last. The only thing I can call my best friend is my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Who IS there through any crisis that you'll ever have and who loves you for WHO you are because He made you. My sister and I are close, too. Apart from Him, that is the closest I'll ever get to a best friend. Many songs written so beautifully by 3 very talented and spiritual souls *I should hope most of you know who I mean..=)* I can toad~ally relate to. Many of their songs have become a part of me and I would not be me if I didn't have those songs to rely and fall back on. Doesn't make sense to most of you, but it doesn't make sense to me either. I can't figure myself out. =) And that's the honest to butt truth. I am a very opininated person; I will be the first one to ever admit that. My opinions have gotten me yelled and screamed at. Especially among "Fansons", as they like to call themselves. I am not here to piss the world off but I am here to make my mark in this world and I will not die without leaving at least a DENT in this world because if I don't, why live? Why be here? I wouldn't be unless I thought that there is a reason for my existance. I don't fit in in this world, but I don't stand out, either. Yes, that was taken out from a song that is like my life story. "I'm looking for a song to sing" and "Looking for a friend to borrow". I'm looking for my meaning in this world and my undefined reason, as of yet. I trust God completely with my life. Doesn't mean I worry because I do all the time. One of the MANY faults that I own. What I ask of all of you is that you DON'T change. Don't let ANYONE change you. Unless, that is, is if it's for the better. I don't know where I would be without God and that is the truth. I would probably be dead in Hell if it weren't for Him. Life isn't one big party, but it's not something you need to take so seriously that you can never crack a smile at something stupid. =) I believe in fate from God and I know He has a Will for everyone in this world and He has yet to give me my Fate but I know that when it comes that I will be the happiest person in the world. Love isn't something that comes easy for me. Love is hard to believe in 99% of the time. Love comes once in your life and when it comes, you have to seize it and not let it pass you by because it will never find you again, and I believe that in my heart. Well, I will stop babbling now. Most of you are probably completely bored outta your brains and most likely didn't make it here..=) Remember: you only live once. Make the best of it. Don't let the mistakes and bad things in life bring you down. Fight it and trust in God with your life. He knows the best for you. He gave it to you, right? Thank you for those you read this. =) My love is with you and so is my ever lonely heart...