"Oh my God..." she mumbled under her breath and she stared at the gold ring infront of her. I grinned, knowing she liked it.
"You like it?" I asked her, just to make sure.
"Y-yeah... of course... but... why?" she asked, in shock. She took the ring out of the box and held it up. She was amazed by it's beauty. I was amazed by her's.
"I just wanted you to know I love you... and I'm sorry for always being away from you. And just cuz I'm not around, I don't want you to forget about me." I told her with a smile.
"Nicky... I could never forget about you. Thank you so much for the ring, it's amazing." she grinned and wrapped her arms around me.
"Did you read the inside?" I asked her.
She looked confused and then squinted to look at the inside of the ring. Without a word, she put a hand over her mouth and gasped. I smiled again. Suddenly tears started pouring down her face. She didn't even care, she just started bawling. I hugged her so tightly, I thought I might suffocate her. She just laughed and pushed me away jokingly.
"Thank you so much baby." she repeated and slipped the ring on her finger.
I nodded. "I saw it at the store, and I was like 'damn, my baby would love it'. And then the lady said they do engravings, so I was just like, you know, it was perfect." I told her.
"Please tell me you didn't spend alot of money." she giggled, knowing I did. She wiped her face again and then just layed back on her bed.
"I don't care about money when it comes to you. I'd buy you the world if I could." I told her.
"I don't need you to buy me stuff, I just need to be with you." she smiled, "Now get over here." she finished and grabbed my arm.
I laughed and climbed on top of her. She grinned and then pulled my head down closer to her. She then took my bottom lip in her mouth and started sucking it, which also drove me insane. She moved her mouth to my neck and bit it playfully.
"Hey... you know you're driving me nuts, right?" I asked her.
"Who me?" she asked innocently. "What'd I do?"
"Oh c'mon baby... you know what you do to me. I just wanna-" I began, but she cut me off.
"Stop. Just kiss me." she demanded.
"Alright, that's cool too." I laughed and placed my lips on hers.
We just started kissing and everything was great for about ten or fifteen minutes. But I knew I got off too easily. But what Savanna did next was a surprise to me.
"Nick..." she mumbled through a kiss, and I didn't know if she was just saying my name, like she always did when we made out, or if she wanted something. I didn't reply, I just kept kissing her. "Nicky..." she said again.
"What's wrong baby?" I asked her.
"N-nothing's wrong... I just wanna tell you something." she told me, pulling back.
"Alright, what's up?" I asked her.
"I just want you to know... I love you too. I'm sorry I didn't say it yesterday when you said it. I was just a little shocked." she smiled. I grinned.
"I actually kinda shocked myself yesterday." I laughed. "Wow... I'm so happy to hear you say that. This is so great." I smiled again and kissed her lips softly.
"I can't believe it, you know?" she asked. I knew what she meant.
"I know. This is big, this is huge... we love each other... we're in love... wow." I repeated it outloud. She nodded as tears formed in her eyes again. "Oh, baby, don't cry again." I let out a laugh.
"I'm sorry Nicky, I'm just... so happy." she told me.
"I know, so am I. I've never felt this way before. I've never been in love." I admitted.
"Neither have I." she agreed. "But I'm really glad I'm in love with you, and no one else."
"So am I." I finished.
Without another word, I layed back down on top of her and kissed her lips again. If I could do one thing for the rest of my life, it would be to kiss Savanna. She is the best kisser. Now that I've kissed her, I wouldn't want to kiss another girl, ever.
Ok, I'll admit, about ten or fifteen minutes later, things were getting a little out of hand again. My shirt had been thrown across the room somewhere and I was very tempted to get hers off. I tried not to, but... let's just say my hands had a mind of their own. So I just decided to put my hands up the back of her shirt and rub her back.
Just as I began doing that, she moaned and then pulled away. "Nicky..." she mumbled.
I wasn't sure if she wanted me to stop or if, you know, she liked it. I stopped, to be on the safe side, and whispered,
"Sorry baby..."
"No, it's not that..." she answered, and I sighed happily. "But... I think we should talk about something." she finished.
I should have seen it coming, I really should have. But for some reason, I didn't think she was going to say what she said.
"Ok, what?" I asked her, a bit confused. But I got off her and layed beside her.
"Just... you haven't really told me... so I wasn't sure... and I thought I should know..." she blabbed on and on. Why couldn't she just get to the point?
"What Sav? Just ask." I asked stupidly. I really should've have known what was coming.
"Nick... are you a virgin?" she asked straight out.
I just about died of shock. I hadn't been expecting that. I knew I had to tell her the truth, but now just didn't seem like the right time. I took a deep breath and looked her right in the eyes.
"I know you want me to say yes... you expect me to say yes..." I let my voice trail off, basically giving her the answer, without really saying it. "But..." I continued, but couldn't say any more. I just broke down and covered my face with my hands. I didn't want to see the look on her face after that.
"Oh God, Nick... it's ok... don't worry about it. I didn't expect you to be... baby..." she told me, wrapping her thin arms around me, trying to comfort me. It didn't work. I didn't want to look at her. I didn't think I deserved her anymore.
"It ain't ok, Savanna. It's not. I lost my virginity when I was 17-years-old! I was a fucking idiot! I met a 20-something-year-old chick at a party and just did it. It didn't mean shit, but I didn't care. Then I met another chick awhile later and we dated for like a month, right?" I paused for a second, still looking down at the floor. I couldn't look into her eyes. "We slept together four times! It didn't mean anything, at all. I'm just stupid... fuck!" I screamed.
"Nicky, you're not stupid, and you're not an idiot. You were just a young, horny guy, ok? I forgive you... you ain't like that anymore, I know you... and I love you." she finished.
When I heard her say those words, I knew two things. I could now I could look at her and not feel bad and I knew she was the girl I was meant to be with, forever. There was no doubt in my mind after that. I looked up and into her eyes. She was crying, and so was I. She knew about me now, finally, she knew everything about me. I didn't even have to ask her if she was a virgin, I knew she was.
"I love you too." I answered, and then I grabbed her face and softly pulled her into a kiss. "I can't believe you didn't flip out, and, like... break up with me..." I mumbled as I held her close to me.
"I'll never break up with you, no matter what you do." she told me. I grinned and wiped my face.
"No matter what?" I asked her with a laugh.
"C'mon Nick, you know what I mean. I'd only break up with you if you cheated on me... and you wouldn't do that." she stated plainly.
"You're right, I would never. I could never. I love you too much. Did I tell you that I can't even talk to any other girls without feeling guilty?" I asked my girlfriend.
"Nicky, I don't want you to feel guilty about having other friends that are girls. I don't want to be one of those bitchy, controling girlfriends." she told me. I smiled.
"You're not controling." I let out a laugh, but she didn't get my joke until a minute later.
"Are you calling me bitchy?" she asked back.
"I'm just joking, baby..." I whispered and put my hand up to her face again. "God, you're so beautiful." I continued, looking her right in the eyes. But then I looked away and felt tears in my eyes yet again. God, I hated crying.
"Nicky..." she leaned in close and whispered in my ear, giving me a shiver. "I love you... and... I don't care about your past, about when you were younger. I just care about right now, us, ok?" she asked me.
I looked back at her and nodded. She got ahold of my bottom lip again, with her mouth, and started kissing me like crazy. A second later, I realized what she had really said. I pulled away from the kiss and asked,
"What are you saying?"
"Nicky, I want you to be my first." she said plainly.
