I decided not to reply to what he had just said to me. I just smiled and looked away. I had alot on my mind lately, mostly Nick, though. Why wasn't I as happy with Fox as I used to be? It was all because of Nick.

We left Raspberries around 11:30pm, and drove back to my house. When we got there, I just gave Nick a quite hug and said goodnight. He asked if I wanted to stay up and hang out a bit, but I decided I shouldn't. With everything on my mind, I might have ended up doing something stupid.

Then next morning was a little weird. I woke up to the sound of music playing across the hall. But it wasn't until I got up and went to Nick's room, when I realized that it was our single, Here To Stay. I let out a laugh and knocked on the closed door. It opened just a second later and I saw Nick and both my sisters dancing around the room like freaks. I laughed again and stepped in the room. I walked to the cd player and turned off the music.

"Why did you do that?" Andie asked me, falling onto the floor with a giggle.

"Seriously... I'm getting sick of that song... well, actually, I'm just not in the mood to hear my voice." I said stupidly. Nick smiled and put his arm around me.

"I'm sorry." he whispered in my ear. I nodded, letting him know it was fine. "Uh, do you wanna go out today? Or... are you busy?" he asked me.

"I-I thought you were going home today?" I asked him, trying to make it sound like I wanted him to go. But really, I didn't want him to leave. I loved when he was around.

"Yeah, I guess I should. But I called the guys last night and they told me to stay as long as I wanted. I have until September 20th, before we going to the studio to start recording again. And... I think they are enjoying some time without me around. I guess I get annoying." he laughed.

"Oh..." I replied, smiling to myself. I was secretly happy that he didn't have to leave. "Well... I guess I should call Fox first, you know..." I said, making Nick almost frown. He hated how I put Fox ahead of him. But I had to.

"Yeah, you should." he replied. He didn't want to say that. He wanted to tell me to screw Fox and go out with him. Oddly, that's kinda what I wanted to do.

"Um..." I answered, not knowing what to say. "I'll go call Fox now and see what he's doing today." I finished. Nick nodded. I then turned and left the room quickly. I ran back across to my room and closed the door. I grabbed my cordless and dialed up Joey as quick as I could. She answered after just two rings,

"Hello?"

"Joe! Oh my God... I have a huge problem." I told her.

"Whoa, calm down Fay, what's wrong?" she asked.

"Nick..." I sighed. "He's here, and I don't want him to leave." I told her. I guess I sounded pretty dumb.

"What are you talking about? He's still there?" Joey asked me.

"Yes, and I don't want him to leave. I like him, Joe. I don't want to, but I do. I really like him." I was almost in tears by that point.

"Shit, Fay... you can't like him. You're with Fox, remember? You love Fox, too." she informed me. I was ready to scream.

"I know... but I can't control my feelings anymore. For like, a few weeks now... I just realized I like him. And Fox and I are kinda... distant, recently." I told her. She took a deep breath.

"Wow, this is not good. This is really not good. Fox is going to murder Nick." Joey almost laughed. But she didn't.

"No, Fox can't find out. I'm not going to tell him, or Nick, either. I just had to tell you. You can't say anything." I told my best friend.

"Oh... shit, Fay, you can't put that on me. You're in love with Nick and notyour boyfriend..." she said.

"I never said that, Joey. I just... I get this weird feeling when Nick's around now... I love being with him. And I don't feel that way around Fox anymore." I said sadly.

Joey didn't know what to say. What could she say? She just found out that her best friend has this huge secret and she can't tell anyone else. I wouldn't have wanted to be in her situation. But then again, I didn't really want to be in my situation either. I feel so bad, like I was cheating on Fox, although I haven't done anything with Nick... yet. I don't trust myself with Nick anymore.

But... what I didn't know what that someone else had found out my secret. One of the only people I didn't want knowing it. Nick had been passing by my room and stopped to listen to my conversation. He gasped and took off downstairs when he realized he had heard too much.

"I... don't know what to say, Fay. I mean, I think you should just forget about Nick. Seriously, he's just a guy that you've only known for like three months. And I don't think he deserves you like Fox does. You've known Fox over a year, and I truely believe that the two of you should be together forever. But... it's up to you." Joey told me.

"C'mon, Joey, please, don't do that to me. I don't want to have to choose. I mean... I really do love Fox. He's the best boyfriend in the world and I'll never find anyone else that I want to be with more." I said.

"Then, what's the problem? You shouldn't even be worrying if you love Fox that much. You'd never cheat on him." Joey told me.

"That's just it. I'd never cheat on him, with anyone... except maybe Nick. I mean, I don't trust myself with Nick anymore. Everytime I see him, I just want to grab him and kiss him. Why the hell do I feel like this?" I screamed.

"Fay... tell Nick to go home, and then get together with Fox, and forget about Nick. Please. If you don't, if you screw around with Nick... you'll regret it, believe me. You don't love Nick. I think Nick and you should just be like best friends... but nothing more." Joey told me. I knew that's what I should do. But could I?

"You know, Joe, you're right. I'm going to tell Nick that I have I might have feelings for him... but nothing is ever going to happen because of Fox... so I'll just tell him to leave." I replied. I almost felt Joey smile through the phone.

"Good. I'm really proud of you. You know not to screw up what you have with Fox. Most girls would pick Nick because he's rich and famous and whatever..." Joey said.

"That's not the reason I like Nick, though. I think I like him because he's alot like Fox. He's shy, yet he can be really outgoing. He's sweet, funny, sexy... and he really likes me. And that's exactly like Fox..." I replied.

"That's true. They are alot alike." Joey agreed.

"Yeah... well, I better go talk to Nick. I'll call you later, ok?" I asked her.

"Of course. Good luck Fay." she smiled and hung up. I put down the phone and ran out of my room. I was on a mission and I wasn't going to stop at anything before I told Nick what I had to tell him.