As the door opened I saw a young girl, maybe a year younger than me, grinning at me. She looked like one of those 'barbie doll' girls. Blonde hair, bright blue eyes and the perfect body. I shot her a cold look.

"Where's my boyfriend?" I asked her harshly, ready to push her out of the way.

"Oh my gosh, are you Fay?" the girl asked me immediately.

"Oh, so he told you about me?" I asked rudely.

"Of course, Fox talks about you all the time. I'm so happy to meet you. Come on in." she told me, opening the door wider.

"You're damn right I'm coming in." I yelled and pushed past her.

I saw my soon-to-be ex-boyfriend sitting on a couch in the living room when I ran in. He grinned and stood up.

"What the hell are you doing here, baby?" he asked, shocked to see me.

"Yeah, I thought you'd be surprised. What makes you think I'm still your 'baby'?" I yelled angrily.

"Huh? What are you talking about?" he asked. "I haven't seen you in, like, a week. What's going on?"

"Just because I'm busy, you think you can just move on without even talking to me? I mean, yeah, I came here today to break up with you... but it seems as though you've already done that. You're cheating on me!" I screamed, looking back at the girl who answered the door.

"WHAT?!?!?" Fox screamed, running over to me. He grabbed my shoulders and looked into my eyes, wondering if I was joking. "Don't you know who this is?" he asked me, looking up at the girl.

"I don't give a damn who she is! You're cheating on me with her. And... well... it's over between us, Fox!" I screamed again, pulling out of his grip.

"Fay! I'm not cheating on you! Why did you come here to break up with me?!?" he was more confused than I was. I didn't know who the girl was, but I was too angry to care.

"This girl answers your door... you're here alone with her. I know for a fact that your brothers aren't home. What else am I supposed to think?" I yelled.

"Fay! Please, calm down. Let me explain who she is." Fox tried to calm me down. It didn't work.

"No! I don't care! I don't want to see you ever again! It's over, Fox!" I screamed and then ran towards the front door again.

My plan hadn't worked at all. I was supposed to go there, break up with him, tell him I felt like we were drifting apart. We were supposed to hug and say that we'd always be best friends. But that wouldn't happen now. Not after this.

I opened the door and, without looking back, left his house. I ran back to my car and got in. I was out of sight before Fox knew what happened.

It was an hour later, and I was still driving around the city. I was just upset and confused. I didn't want to go home. I didn't want to talk to the girls. I just wanted to avoid everyone for awhile. I needed to be alone.

My cell phone rang while I was downtown, about a ten minute drive from my house. I reached into my purse and pulled out my cell.

"Yeah?" I asked into it.

"Fay? Where the hell are you?" the voice asked me. I almost mistook the voice for Fox, but thought for a second and realized it was Luke. I didn't feel like talking to him.

"Driving around. What do you want?" I asked, trying to not to be too rude.

"Fox told us about... well, you breaking up with him. I'm sure you don't want to talk about it, but I think he deserves an explaination." Luke told me, and I sighed.

"This isn't a good time, Luke." I told him.

"Don't you dare hang up on me. I'm not Fox, but I'm his brother, and he's in his room crying right now, because of you. He has no idea why you broke up with him. He says you accused him of cheating on you... with our cousin!" Luke continued.

"Your what?" was my reaction to Luke's words. I was in total shock.

"Our cousin, Julia. She's a huge fan of you girls... Cruel Sensation, I mean. She's visiting us for a week or so... from Canada. She was so excited to meet you. But now... she pretty much thinks you're a bitch." Luke told me.

I was speechless. I had no idea what to say to that. I had gone balistic on my boyfriend without even finding out the facts. Now I remembered Fox telling me that their 16 year old cousin was coming to visit and couldn't wait to meet me. What the hell had I done?

"Fay, you still there?" Luke asked, wondering why I hadn't answered after a few minutes.

"I'm... I'm here." I replied quietly. "I'm so sorry. I... I wasn' t thinking straight." I said.

"But Fay... Fox says you came to our house to break up with him, before you even saw Julia. Why?" he wanted to know.

"Luke... I just... I just used her as a better excuse to break up with him. We're drifting apart, and he didn't seem to care. I'm so busy, he's back in school now. We don't have time for each other." I said sadly.

"You're not telling me everything, are you? I know you better than that, Fay. There's something else." Luke pushed.

Not wanting to tell him, I answered, "No, I swear. It's just that. Nothing else."

"You know you can't lie to me. You're lying, Fay." Luke continued.

I took a deep breath. "Promise you won't tell Fox?" I asked, preparing to tell him.

"Of course. Just tell me." he urged.

"I'm in love with Nick." I blurted out.

"Nick... Carter?" he whispered, probably making sure no one would hear him.

"Yeah. He came to Jackson to see me, a week ago. I realized that... I mean..." I wasn't sure how to tell my boyfriend's twin brother that I'm not in love with my boyfriend anymore. "I'll always love Fox. He'll always be special to me. But when Nick came back, I realized how much he meant to me, too." I finished, feeling tears swelling in my eyes.

"Wow... I can't believe you just said that." Luke told me harshly. "Do you even know how much my brother loves you? He'd do anything for you. He'd quit school. He'd-" Luke could've kept going on.

"I don't want him to throw everything away for me. I don't deserve that." I started crying then, and Luke could hear me cry. "Fox deserves to stay here, go to College. I'll be travelling around so much, I'll never see him." I was still just making up excuses.

"You know that's not true, Fay. We are your dancers. We'll be travelling with you." Luke was getting upset with me. "And don't cry, Fay. That won't help the situation any. Crying won't help anything, you know that." he said meanly. But what he said next was even more meant. "You just want Nick because he's 'Nick Carter of the Backstreet Boys'. Fox is just a regular guy, who loves you with all his heart and more... but you're going to break my brother's heart and go cry to your new boyfriend.... who'll just use you. You know he will. He can't stay with the same chick for longer than a week. How long was he with Cher?" Luke asked rudely, trying to make a point.

"Don't bad mouth Nick, Luke, you don't know him." I said strongly.

"Neither do you. I guess you'll just find out the hard way." he said angrily. "But that's fine. Just don't think you can come back crying to Fox after Nick throws you away like yesterday's trash. After you pick Nick over my brother, we are nothing more than your back-up dancers."

"Please, Luke, don't say that. I... I think I need to talk this out with Fox. He deserves an apology from me." I said.

"You're damn right he does. But I'm not sure he'll want to talk to you anytime soon. And neither do I. G'bye Fay." Luke finished and slammed down the phone.

I pulled into an empty parking lot and turned off my car. I had no idea what I could do to fix this huge mistake. I now had not only Fox mad at me, but his brothers too. And I'd lost one fan, their cousin Julia. She'd more than likely never speak to me again. I started to cry, knowing, like Luke had told me, that crying doesn't help.