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Chapter Forty-Nine:
Don't Cry


*3 Days Later; Friday*


"Wow! We're going to a cherity basketball game in a hour!"

Cher yelled excitedly, as we pulled into the hotel parking lot in Detroit, Michigan. We were staying for two nights, my first hotel visit on the tour. Everyone else stayed in a hotel in New York City, when I went home. It was now 10am, and we had to be at the building, where the game was going to be, in an hour. We had a soundcheck for it, and then the game started at 2pm. We were so pumped.

"I know! This is great! Aaron's so excited about it, too!" Joey agreed, standing up. We were getting ready to get off the bus.

We still hadn't talked to Luke, Tony or Fox about what Luke said. Fox had been trying really hard to let me know that he didn't agree with Luke, but I was just so mad about the whole situation. I didn't actually talk to him much. I really missed him, though.

Ten minutes later, we had checked in to our rooms, and were in the elevator going up to find them. Fox wrapped his arms around me from behind. Yes, I had gone in the same elevator as him, Luke and Tony. Just the four of us, what a stupid thing to do.

"Fox, don't, please..." I whispered to him, but he didn't let go. He wasn't going to give up this time.

"Baby, c'mon, don't be pissed at me." he whispered in my ear. I said nothing. "Fay, please, don't do this." he whispered again. I shivered as he breathed on the back of my neck. I wanted to turn around and kiss him. But of course I didn't.

"Sorry, Fox, we can't do this here." I told him, pulling away from him.

The door opened a second later and I quickly walked out. I practically ran down two long hallways, until I saw Joey and Dare, and I ran to them.

"What's wrong, Fay?" Dare asked me right away.

"Fox... he was trying to hold me and kiss me..." I mummbled.

"Um, well, he's your boyfriend, so why is that a bad thing?" Joey joked, knowing I was still upset about what Luke had said. I'm not one to drop things very quickly.

"Let's just get out of here. I can't take it." I said, and pushed them both into the hotel room, and closed the door.


*An Hour Later*


"JOEY!"

Aaron screamed as we entered the large building. He ran over to us happily.

"Hey buddy! Did you do your soundcheck?" Joey asked him. He nodded.

"Yup, we're going to have so much fun today!" Aaron replied.

We did our soundcheck until about noon, and then we all got to hang out for the next couple of hours while everything got set up and ready for the game. Christina stayed in Toronto for today, to do a live TV special. Rowdy were coming, but they weren't part of the event.

The game went by too fast. During half time, Aaron sung his song called That's How I Beat Shaq, which is about a basketball game. After he was done, we sung Here To Stay. No, we weren't getting sick of that song, we still loved it. Kevin, Howie and Brian from BSB and Ken from soulDesicion were on the same team, with a bunch of other guys. Nick and AJ from BSB and Trevor and Dave from soulDesicion were on the other team, with a bunch of other guys. It was alot of fun, and in the end, Nick's team won 78-60. We raised, I think, $300, 000 for a children's hospital in Detroit.

It was just after 5pm when we got packed up from that, and were heading back to the hotel. We didn't have a show tonight, we just got to hang out and rest and we had a show tomorrow night here. As we were leaving, we heard,

"Girls!"

We turned around and saw Nick and Aaron, yelling to us. We all smiled, and waited for them to catch up to us.

"Hey girls!" Aaron giggled. "You did awesome today, it was fun, huh?" he asked. We all nodded.

"Yeah... Nick, you really are an awesome b-ball player." I told him with a smile. Right now, I really missed Fox and wanted to talk to him. But Nick looked so good, he was just a little tempting.

"Thanks..." Nick laughed, blushing a little. "Do you girls have to leave?" he asked.

"Uh... yeah, we're just going to hang-out at the hotel..." Marce replied.

"Too bad we're staying at different hotels." Aaron said a little sadly.

"Yeah..." Joey continued.

"We better go, girls. I need to talk to... someone." I whispered to Joey. She nodded.

"Ok, we'll see you tomorrow then, right?" Aaron asked.

"Of course. And I'll give you a call tonight, Aaron." Joey smiled at him. He just nodded. We all gave them quick hugs and then walked away, back to the bus, where Fox was probably waiting for me.

As we got onto our big bus, we were greeted by Trevor and Jimmy, and then Jeffery. We saw Jamal sitting down too. I took a deep breath, and asked them all,

"Where... where's Fox?"

"He should be in his bunk, that's where I saw him go last." Jamal told me.

I nodded, thanked him and then walked down the aisle to his bunk. Without hesitation, I opened the curtain and looked at him. I was very shocked to see him crying, softly.

"Shit... Fay... leave me alone." he mummbled, covering his face quickly.

"Fox... what's wrong? Why the hell are you crying?" I asked him quickly. I was so shocked, I could barely breath.

"You..." was all he said, not letting me look at him.

I took another deep breath and jumped up into his bunk. Without another word, I leaned in and hugged him so hard. He hugged me back, tightly. It felt so good, and I was wondering why we hadn't talked in three days. I was wondering why I pushed him away every time he tried to hug me or touch me. Now, none of that mattered.

"I'm so sorry, Fox. I know that you had nothing to do with what Luke said. It just really upset us all, and I had to take my anger out on someone." I whispered, still hugging him.

"I know, Luke's an asshole. Me and Tony were so mad at him for what he did to you. I don't think you're any different. You're still the girl I love." he replied, looking up at me. I was still confused about why he was crying. I put my hand up to his face and wiped his tears.

"But Foxy, why are you crying?" I asked him again, feeling tears in my own eyes. "Oh gawd, Fox, don't cry."

"Everything. I mean, I don't get to cry very often, and I can't live without you, ever. I can't live with not be able to kiss you and touch you." he told me, running his hands through my hair. "It was like a million knives were stabbing me everytime you pulled away from me." he continued.

"I'm so sorry, for everything. I love you Fox." I replied. He finally smiled, and pulled me close to kiss him. It felt so good, I can't explain the feeling.


*A Few Hours Later; 9pm*


"Fox, we should... stop, you know..." I manage to say as Fox kissed every part of my face, and neck, and began moving down. We were in my hotel room (that I was sharing with Joey) alone, making out.

"No way, Fay... you told me we'd do it again... and we're going to." he said cutely.

"Yeah, we're going to, but not now." I replied.

He stopped kissing me and sat up a bit. I smiled at how cute he looked. He was only wearing his boxers.

"Why? We have all night..." he sighed.

"I don't know. But last time... I just knew that it was time to do it. I want to get that same feeling again." I told him.

"I know what that is... it's being horny." Fox laughed. "I get that everytime I see you." I smiled at him.

"You're so cute, you know that?" I asked, and he nodded.

Again, I felt this weird, awesome feeling. I swear my heart hurt because I loved him so much. I felt tears burning in my eyes, and I shut them quickly so I didn't start to cry. I layed down and burried my face in the pillow.

"Fay?" he asked, placing his hand on my back gently. "What?" he asked again, when I didn't reply.

I looked up, and he saw my tears pouring down my face. His first movement was to kiss me, which is what he did. Then he backed away, and just wiped away the tears with his thumbs. He wasn't sure why I was crying now, but he didn't ask. He knew it didn't matter. But I couldn't stop crying. I was so happy with my life. I don't think it could get any better. Most girls dream about having a life like mine. And I didn't want to lose Fox, ever.

"Fox, I- I don't want to lose you. Ever. I love you so much." I whispered, tears still pouring from my eyes.

Fox knew he didn't have to say anything, he just had to be there. But he took a breath and spoke sweetly,

"Baby, don't cry. I'm here... I'm not going anywhere."

I didn't reply to that with words. I wiped my tears again and pushed him down on his back. I just started kissing him. That's all I wanted to do. That's all I needed to do.


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