November 16th
1965 10.00am Euston Station, London
ÒCall me and IÕll come
and pick you up,Ó Paul said, smoothing JaneÕs hair.
ÒDonÕt be silly,Ó Jane
replied. ÒThe train gets in at half past six in the morning. IÕll get a taxi
home.Ó
ÒNo, I want to,Ó Paul
protested.
ÒPaul,Ó Jane gave him a
levelled look. If she were wearing glasses, sheÕd be looking over them at him
now. ÒI know what youÕre like. You wonÕt go to bed til three because youÕll be
working at the studios, or in some nightclub, or writing a new song all night.Ó
She smiled and kissed him gently. ÒHonestly, IÕll be fine.Ó
ÒOkay,Ó Paul acquiesced.
ÒI justÉ It feels like I havenÕt seen that much of you lately, and now youÕre
going away againÉÓ
ÒFor less than a day!Ó
ÒOvernight, still.Ó
Jane took his hand. ÒYes,
I know. WeÕve both been preoccupied,Ó she said gently. ÒWhen I come back weÕll
do something together, okay?Ó
ÒOkay,Ó Paul said begrudgingly.
ÒDonÕt look at me like
that,Ó Jane said.
Paul put his head on one
side, ÒIÕm sorry,Ó he said. ÒThings have been hectic, Jane. But IÕll get them
sorted out.Ó
Jane sighed, ÒNo, IÕm
sorry, Paul. I know youÕve been going through it all lately.Ó Paul looked away,
out of the side window of the car and put his hands on the steering wheel. Jane
leaned over to him again, ÒIÕll have to go or IÕll miss the train,Ó she said,
kissing his cheek. ÒIÕll see you tomorrow.Ó
ÒTake care, love,Ó Paul
said, distracted as she got out and slammed the door behind her. Paul watched
her until she disappeared in to the station then started the engine. At first
he was going to go home. Perhaps back to bed for a bit. But then another idea
occurred to him.
Jane had gone to a
theatrical funds raiser in Brighton. She would only be gone for the night, but
it felt like another nail in the coffin. It was already as if they were living
apart. She would be gone in the day, and some nights too. Paul would be at the
studio or somewhere. He hardly saw her, and when he did he was rarely in a good
mood. All the tension and hostility between him and George, and yes, even him
and the other Beatles was taking its toll, and Jane had already, unfairly, been
PaulÕs vent for his anger more than once.
Paul drove there almost
without realising it, going over Ð rehearsing Ð what to say in his head. George,
we need to straighten things out. ItÕs driving me up the wall, so it must be
you tooÉ
Paul arrived at Kinfauns,
and finding the gates unusually left open rolled his car slowly up the drive to
the house, killing the engine and letting it roll to a standstill near the
garages.
He got out and let his
car door slam to. Everything was silent except for the birds singing. It was
still early and it occurred to Paul that George might not even be up yet. That
nearly gave him an excuse to get back into the mini and Ôleave it til laterÕ, but instead he took a deep breath and forced
himself to march confidently up to the front door, ringing the bell twice,
demanding to be seen.
He was answered two
minutes later by Grace, wearing a dressing gown, her hair messily tied back.
ÒWhat do you want?Ó she asked curtly.
Paul grimaced inwardly.
He had hoped that by some chance Grace wouldnÕt have been there. He wanted Ð
no, needed - to speak to George on his own.
ÒI need to see George,Ó
he said.
Grace looked Paul up and
down, ÒWell, you canÕt,Ó she said flatly and went to close the door on Paul.
Paul put his foot in the way and stopped her, obviously surprising her, as she
gave him little resistance as he pushed his way past her and into the house.
ÒGeorge? George, itÕs
Paul. I need to talk to you,Ó Paul shouted as he went from room to room.
Grace caught up with him
in the kitchen. ÒI told you you couldnÕt,Ó she said obtusely.
ÒWhere is he?Ó Paul
demanded.
ÒHeÕs out. On business.
He wonÕt be back til late,Ó she said.
Paul didnÕt believe her.
ÒGeorge?Ó he shouted again, marching back to the living room.
Grace followed him,
laughing. ÒWhere do you think IÕve hidden him?Ó she asked. ÒDown the side of
the sofa?!Ó
Paul turned to face her.
ÒWhere has he gone?Ó he said.
ÒIÕve no idea,Ó Grace
said, sitting down in one of the chairs. ÒTo the city.Ó There was a cocktail
glass beside her chair. She picked it up and sipped it. ÒNow, you had better
leave before I call the police.Ó She suddenly flicked her eyes up to Paul.
ÒItÕs me who should be
calling the police,Ó Paul said.
ÒAnd whyÕs that?Ó
A thought crossed PaulÕs
mind. He smiled. ÒYou think I donÕt know? I do. We all know. And as soon as I
catch up with George, heÕll know too.Ó It was a bluff and Paul was no
accomplished actor, but it seemed enough to convince Grace.
She said nothing for a
moment, and then taking another drink she looked at Paul and said, ÒHe wouldnÕt
care. George would understand. ItÕs a means to an end.Ó
ÒI wouldnÕt bank on it,
love,Ó Paul said, reeling inside, taking all his prowess not to show it to
Grace. It had been an idea that had crossed his mind more than once Ð that
there was more to Grace than met the eye. There was a plan behind it all. Now
she had as good as admitted it to him, all he had to do was trick her into
telling him exactly what.
ÒYou donÕt know George,Ó
she said, calmly. ÒHe loves me. He would do anything for me.Ó
Paul snorted. ÒIÕve know
George since he was twelve,Ó he said. ÒYouÕve known him a matter of months. He doesnÕt
love you. YouÕre just filling the void while he gets over Pattie.Ó
Anger flashed across
GraceÕs face and she launched herself from the chair, knocking the glass from
its arm to the floor and spilling the remains of its contents. Paul had to take
a small step back to steady himself against her weight, but he stood his
ground, catching Grace by her wrists. She made a strange half wail, half scream
and struggled to free herself. Paul tightened his grip. ÒItÕs true, isnÕt it?
And you know it! And heÕll be finished with you once IÕve told him ÐÒ
ÒNo!Ó Grace squealed.
ÒNO, he loves me. Everything else
is irrelevant. George loves me. We will always be togetherÉÓ
She continued to writhe
against Paul. Paul nearly lost his grip, but he held on to her, the muscles he
had developed from the years of bass playing coming into their own. He realised
he must be hurting her, but he didnÕt weaken.
ÒYouÕre a really fuckinÕ
crazy bitch, eh?Ó he said spitefully. ÒGeorge will be well rid of you!Ó
ÒNo, no, no,Ó Grace blubbered,
crying now, although Paul thought they were probably more tears of frustration
rather than anything else. He released her finally and she dropped backwards on
to the sofa. ÒYou canÕt tell him, you canÕt.Ó
ÒI can and I will.Ó
ÒIt would hurt himÉ You
would see George hurt?Ó
Paul shook his head and
turned to leave.
ÒWait!Ó Grace pleaded.
Paul looked at her.
ÒIÕll tell him. I will
tell him everything. Please, give me the chance.Ó
ÒYouÕre lying.Ó
ÒIÕm not. Paul, please.
Let me tell George.Ó
Paul didnÕt reply for a
moment. What choice did he really have? George, that birdÕs up to something,
but I donÕt know what. ThatÕs if
George would even believe him, and the chances of that werenÕt too great at the
moment. Still, he seemed to have convinced Grace.
ÒYou tell him then,Ó he
said. ÒBut you tell him now, today, or I shall, and then right after George I
will be telling the police as well.Ó
Grace nodded. ÒHeÕll
choose me,Ó she said, but Paul thought he could detect an element of doubt in
her tone. Choose her for what?
ÒWeÕll see,Ó Paul said and walked out; unaware of the wheels he had just set in motion.