Let's take a breather here for a minute and just think about everything I have said so far. Is it all sinking in? Every bit of my life is like some fairytale, maybe not the good ones with the happy endings, but a fairytale none-the-less. Music, Love, Happiness, Sex..... well, or lack there of. All the things that had happened in my life were, magic! The first time I'd ever kissed Kim, I knew I loved her in some way. She was everything that I had ever wanted, and more. If you ever listen to stories of 'Fallen Angels' and all that kind of stuff, you'd think some people were crazy. Hey, don't feel bad, I was right there with ya! But when I met Kim, I knew there was something strange about her, like she'd belonged in Heaven at God's side. I'd never fallen so deeply in love with someone so fast. It was almost like drowning and there's no one to save you, but you hold on so tight, you're afraid of losing your grip on reality. Everything seems fragile enough to break into tiny pieces, yet strong enough to bend with whatever gets thrown at you. Yup, that was how my heart felt. Like it was surrounded by so much feeling and love, that things just all seemed so unreal. It's not a bad thing, I hope each and every one of you, get to feel the same way about someone, someday. But if you do, hold on..... because it'll be the ride of your life! Well, let's get on with it. Where were we? Oh.... yes.
I knew Kim would have no problems with my brothers' and I moving to New York, it was my parents I was worried about. My mom didn't exactly like the idea of 'her baby boys' leaving the nest. But ya know, we were all old enough to decide what was best for us. Ike and Taylor didn't seem worried about telling them, but hell, I was scared enough for all of us. I knew the first thing out of my mothers' mouth would be, 'Why New York? Why can't it be somewhere closer to home?'. Mark my words, things would probably get ugly!
"So? Did you think of how to approach this? Or am I the only one shitting bricks over here?" I sighed as Taylor chatted away aimlessly on the phone with his girlfriend.
"Zac, stop worrying so much. Mom's gonna be fine! It's not like we can't fly back here to see them, or visa versa." Isaac reassured me.
"But Ike, mom never liked the idea of us moving out of Tulsa, let alone half way across the country!" I fisted my hands into my hair and closed my eyes. I had a headache, a really bad one. I rubbed my temples with my thumb and forefinger, hoping the pain would lessen, at least a little. No such luck! I wasn't sure what we were going to do, but I knew that I couldn't change my mind. My life as I knew it, was threatening to be taken away from me in an instant, and I couldn't let that happen!
"Taylor, will you shut up for a second and come over here. You can talk to her later!" Ike gritted his teeth and pounded his fist into the bed.
"Yeah Ike, jeez. What crawled up your ass?" Taylor asked as he hung up the phone.
"My fist is going to be upside your head in a minute. Now think, how are we going to break this to mom and dad? Zac is over here scared shitless, and you're babbling on about who misses who more!" Ike hollered.
I was expecting at any moment, for Ike's head to spin a complete 360* and pea soup to spew out all over Taylor. The look in my eldest brothers' eyes was enough to make me wanna crawl under the bed and piss myself from fear! He was scared too, but looked more pissed off and annoyed! I was just glad I wasn't the only one who was afraid. Yet he always had to be the voice of reason. And I was grateful for him, because he was always the one that reassured me about everything.
"I got it, we be honest!" Taylor smiled. "And the truth shall set us free."
"God Taylor, are you sure mom didn't drop you on your head as a kid? Honesty is good, but what do we tell mom when she starts freaking out and begging us not to go?" I asked rolling my eyes. Taylor was seriously way too happy all the time!
"Well, like I said........ just be honest! We really can't do anything more than that."
"Taylor, you're not as stupid as you look." Ike laughed. The mood before seemed to have disappeared. Thank God, I was afraid I was going to have to get out a cross and some holy water! Ike was kinda..... scary when he got mad! Well, what's done was done, and now my parents and Kim would have to hear our sudden need to move! I wasn't sure I could look Kim in the eye and tell her what was wrong..... but she deserved to know! And I loved her enough, that if she decided this was all just too much, to let her go. I just hoped that it wouldn't come to that! I looked over at the door to my room, and inside my head was trying to psych myself up......
"Ladies and Gentlemen, let the fireworks begin!" I mumbled and got up off the bed. Ike and Taylor stood next to me, waiting for me to move....... but I couldn't seem to lift my feet. I shook my head and opened the door quickly, running toward the stairs and taking them two at a time. I jumped off the bottom step and walked toward the kitchen. Sure enough, there they were..... my parents and Kim.
"Kim, mom, dad. We need to talk." I started.
"Ok Zac, sit down and we'll talk." Mom smiled. I hesitated, but pulled a chair out and plopped down into it.
"What is it Zac?" Dad asked, looking up again as Ike and Taylor walked into the kitchen.
"Things need to change a little bit dad." Isaac said from somewhere behind me. Then I felt him put his hands on my shoulders.
"Boys, what is going on?" mom asked.
"Mom, Ike, Taylor and I have decided that we need to move to New York. And before you say anything, let me explain. Lauren, you remember who Lauren is, right?" I asked looking up at her. She nodded slowly and continued to stare at me. "Well, she said some things about Kim and I, and I think it's best if we move to New York. To be with Kim if she needs us, and we could finish up working on the new record there."
"Before we say anything to this, we need to know what was said." Dad said looking at me again.
"She said that......." I swallowed, suddenly my throat felt dry. "She said she's gonna kill Kim."
"What?" Kim asked.
"She saw our picture on the internet, and she wanted to date me apparently, but when I met her I wasn't ready for a relationship. I told her no, that we couldn't be together. Well, she called me while we were out at the movies, and told me that she wanted to kill you. I'm so sorry Kim, and I'll understand if you never want to see me again, I'll understand." I sighed heavily.
"Zac...... I don't want to break up. I love you! I knew things like this were probably going to happen. But are you sure moving to New York is a good idea?"
"Yes Kim, we all agreed on it and we're going to do it!" I looked back up at my mom and dad. They just sat there, not saying a word.
"Mom, dad...... say something." Taylor whispered.
"Well, do what you have to do. You boys are old enough to decide what's best for you. You know we love you, and support you no matter what." Dad said grabbing mom's hand.
I breathed out slowly...... that was easy! Almost.......... too easy!
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