told myself you're my only friend
tore myself in ways only you could mend
unbelievable this lack of understanding
in the end it was only pretend
mother told me i wouldn't be the same
mother scolded me, said to be afraid
but who was there when down it all came
in the end it was only what i made
tear your insides out and cause me to doubt
my intentions towards you...towards you
i only call to say goodbye
again you tell me not to cry
i tell you i have no strength to try
i only have the strength to die
the things i said and said
before and more, breathe and bore
but still you stuck with me
the things i said and fed you
the things i lied and led you to
the things i failed and meant to do
they're in me and i can't help it
cause for you, yes you, i'd die again
