Lyrics

As we trudge along through the mud.
And we tried to call it home.
But we weren't alright, not at all.
Not for one second.

Never have been one to write it down.
Now I think I can.
I know I'm stronger now.
Who's looking south.
Not me I'm not looking back.
I'm done denying the truth to anyone.
Cause I'm alive.

You showed me how.
You seemed to find a hole.
But I just laughed and smiled.
Begged and rolled my eyes.
Even cried and,
denied the truth to you.
Just like the truth to me.
Mostly lied.

I'm not going to look back.

White it out like glittering wax butterflies.

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Is it worth it can you even hear me.
Standing with your spotlight on me.
Not enough to feed the hungry.
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now.
In this sea of lonely.
The taste of ink is getting old.
It's four o' clock in the morning.
Each day gets more and more like the last day.
Still I can see it coming.
While I'm standing in the river drowning.
This could be my chance to break out.
This could be my chance to say goodbye.
At last it's finally over.
Couldn't take this town much longer.
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be.
Now I'm ready to be free.

So here I am it's in my hands.
And I'll savor every moment of this.
So here I am alive at last.
And I'll savor every moment of this.

And won't you think I'm pretty.
When I'm standing top the bright lit city.
And I'll take your hand and pick you up.
And keep you there to so you can see.
As long as you're alive and care.
I promise I will take you there.
And we'll drink and dance the night away.

As long as you're alive.
Here I am.
I promise I will take you there.

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From the way that you acted
to the way that I felt it.
It wasn't worth my time
and now it's sad cause all I missed
wasn't that good to begin with.
And now that I've started you're begging
saying things that you don't mean.
It isn't worth my time.
A line's a dime a million times.
And I'm about to see all of them.
Goodbye to you, goodbye to you.
You're taking up my time.
You call my name when I wake up.
To see things go your way.
I'm coughing up my time.
Each drag's a drop of blood a grain.
A minute of my life.
It's all I've got just to stay down.
Why am I still down.
I'm hoarding all that's mine.
Each time I let just one slip by.
I'm wasting what is mine.

I'm about to see a million things.
I thought I'd never see before and I, I'm about to do all of the things.
I've dreamed of and I don't even miss you at all.

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I still remember a year ago,
the times we spent.
I think that I'm happier now,
up from the down,
by all means
it's strange cause I feel the same way.
I think of what it looks like.
I think of what it tastes like.
I think of what it looks like.
I think of what it tastes like.

Same strange.
Said it's strange cause I feel the same.
Strange.
Same strange.
Said it's strange cause I feel the same.

Still remember what it tastes like.
What it felt like.

Makes me ill.
Really ill.

I think of what it looks like.
I think of what it tastes like.
I think of what it looks like.
I think of what it tastes like.
Same strange.
Said it's strange cause i feel the same.
Strange.
Same strange.
Said it's strange cause i feel the same.

Still remember what it tastes like.
What it felt like, felt like.

Ill, makes me ill.
Makes me ill.
Makes me, makes me.

What it felt like, felt like.

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The cup is not half empty as pessimists say.
As far as he's sees nothings left in the cup.
A whole cup full of nothing for him to induldge.
Since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up.

A singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere.
He gave heed to nothing, and all that he was.
Is just a tragedy.

So he voyages in circles.
Succeeds getting nowhere.
And submits to the substance.
That first got him there.

Than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one.
Is there a point to this madness and all that he was.
Is just a tragedy.

He feels alone.
His heart in his hand.
He's alone.
He feels alone.
I feel.

Then on that last day he breaks.
And he stood tall.
And he yelled... and he takes his life.

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You almost always pick the best times.
To drop the worst lines.
You almost made me cry again this time.
Another false alarm.
Red flashing lights.
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die.
I think I made it a game to play your game.
And let myself cry.
I buried myself alive on the inside.
So I could shut you out.
And let you go away for a long time.

I guess it's ok I puked the day away.
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way.
And if you want me back.
You're gonna have to ask.
Nicer than that.

I think the chain broke away.
And I felt it the day that I had my own time.
I took advantage of myself and felt fine.
But it was worth the night.
I caught an early flight and I made it home.

With my foot on your neck.
I finally have you.
Right where I want you.

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It's our time to shine through the down.
Glorified by what is ours.
We've fallen in love.
It was the best idea I ever had.

Today I fell and felt better.
Just knowing this matters.
I just feel stronger and sharper.
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing.

Do you want a song of glory.
Well I'm screaming at you.

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And it's all in how you mix the two.
And it starts just where the light exists.
It's a feeling that you cannot miss.
And it burns a hole.
Through everyone that feels it.

Well you're never gonna find it.
If you're looking for it.
Won't come your way.
Well you'll never find it.
If you're looking for it.

Should've done something but I've done it enough.
By the way your hands were shaking.
Rather waste some time with you.

And you never would have thought in the end.
How amazing it feels just to live again.
It's a feeling that you cannot miss.
It burns a hole through everyone that feels it.

Should've said something but I've said it enough.
By the way my words were faded.
Rather waste some time with you.

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You took it back.
How could you go and do something like that.
My fingernail phase.
Worst has got the best of you.
I ask you and I know I need to change.
You took it back.
You ripped my heart out of my then you put it back.
I'm pulling my hair.
I let you just a million times.
I love you even though it isn't fair.

Change.
Run we go around again in circles.
Play this game over again.

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Look in my eyes.
I'm jaded now whatever that means.
By sharing these things.
I rip my heart out.
It's worth my time.
Whatever that means.
Hard to see up.
My neck feels stiff until I wake up.
The orange I choked.
And back to my neck.
It's worth my time.
Whatever that means....so.

Share with me.
Cause i need it right now.
Let me see your insides.
Or write me off.
Cause I'd rather starve now.
If you won't open up.

Give it to me.
Give me all... whatever you want.
It's never been me.
To want this much from you.
I can see.
It tears me up.
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See all those people on the ground.
Wasting time.
I try to hold it all inside.
But just for tonight.
The top of the world.
Sitting here wishing.
The things I've become.
That something is missing.
Maybe I.
But what do I know.

And now it seems that i have found.
Nothing at all.
I want to hear your voice out loud.
Slow it down.
Without it all.
I'm choking on nothing.
It's clear in my head.
And I'm screaming for something.
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.

On My Own.

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Being faced with what I'm faced with I feel.
Like i can't rock.
Like a rock hit my heart.
Started to chain the day.
And exploded into pieces.

Marry me.
Stay the same.
Lie to me and try to say you never will.

I've got a feeling in my gut now fills me.
With so much hope.
Said I'm fine.
Dine and dashed.
The pianist peddled into morning.

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As of now I'm down straight up.
And I can turn to the box for some peace.
Or a box for a piece.
Or a box for a smoke.
But they're all gonna choke me.

You're so crazy.
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me.

For awhile I was cleaner than now.
Then I started to destroy myself.
With things that I love now the things that I hate.
Until it finally broke me.

Choke me.

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