Chapter 14

The bus came and I paid the fee to get on. I sat by myself in the corner of the bus.
I watched a couple sitting by each other near the front of the bus. They cuddled by each other and held hands. When they talked they looked each other in the eyes and every once and awhile they would kiss each other. Not only two hours ago, that could have been Brian and me.
Tears stung my eyes again started to fall down my face as I thought about the fight. I was blaming myself for everything, yet I tried to remind myself that he was part of it also.
This is the reason I never went out with guys. Every time you break up with a guy, one tiny piece of your heart breaks apart and is lost forever. Every time a piece of innocence is taken. Your never the same. Many people say that can make you a stronger person, yet I can’t see the positive side of it.
It was fun and romantic as it lasted, the single month was the best time I had in a long time. I thought he was “The One”, but the bitter breakup at the end made all the memories turn sour.
I cried the rest of the way home and for weeks after that. He never called, not once. I miss him so much.

sunnyj-Hi Cindy

 My friend Janel said two weeks after the breakup. Janel was a good friend of mine who moved away after high school. She wanted to go to college in France and she liked it so much that she stayed there. I sometimes envy her for having a future. My future looked lonesome and bleak.
We were talking on ICQ. I was telling her my relationship with Brian, and the breakup.

sassy- have you ever heard of the Backstreet Boys?


sunnyj-are you kidding?


sassy- no, Brian is a member of that group

sunnyj-you were dating a Backstreet Boy? Do you know how many girls are obsessed with them? If I were you I would say sorry fast! I have heard he is one of the nicest guys.

sassy-yes he is nice, I miss him so much, but I feel betrayed.

sunnyj-why didn’t he tell you about the Backstreet Boys thing? Didn’t you know who they are?

sassy-I’m only aquatinted to their songs, not each individual member. Plus they aren’t as popular here as they are in Europe. He told me that the reason he didn’t tell me was because he wanted me to get to know the real him.

sunnyj-He probably gets girls liking him for being a BSB, not really him. He was probably going to tell you when he thought it was perfect time to. Why don’t you go tell him sorry, then you can be together again?

sassy-I’m too stubborn, I don’t fell that it is my place to say sorry, I didn’t do anything wrong.

sunnyj-yes, but couplehood is a joint effort. At least talk to him, promise?

sassy-ok, promise, I got to go, the phone is ringing, see ya.

sunnyj-bye, I hope the next time I see you is on a MTV special featuring the Backstreet Boys and their present girlfriends.

sassy-lol, bye

 I got up from the computer and answered the phone. “Hello”.
“Cindy!” It was Christine. “You’ll never guess what happened.”
“What?” I asked excitedly. Christine was usually never this energetic.
“Dan asked me to marry him!”
I was shocked. I could barely say anything. “Congratulations!” I told her really excited for her. “Will you be my brides maid?” she asked. “Gina is my maid of honor since she is my sister.” “Defiantly!” I told her. We talked for the next hour, I was suppose to help her with all the wedding details. With all the excitement I forgot about Janel and the promise I made her.
Chapter 15

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