Floating
(Directed to my friend M)
Do you think that it's possible that some people are just meant to be alone? Like, it doesn't matter if you are desperatly in love with someone, you will never have them because you are meant to be alone? I'm starting to think this is true for me. I mean, maybe, if you get into that whole soul mates, every one has a specific person who they are meant to be with thing, do you think it's possible that some people (like me) weren't made for anyone and no one was made for me? Maybe, just maybe, I messed fate up with my suicide attempt. Maybe I wasn't supposed to live through that and die young so there is no one out there for me? Like the fates cut my fate line when I took those pills and it was already to far gone for them to put back together by the time it was certain I wasn't going to be brain dead or just dead and now I'm just kinda floating? Because, I think, you and K, you are meant to be together. There's just this vibe. But I don't know about myself. I think maybe I'm not here for a specific purpose or person. That I'm supposed to be dead. So what is going to happen to the rest of my life? Will it be one big nothing? Or will it be only what I can make it be? Hell, maybe I should just join the convent now and get it over with. I mean, gods, my first real date will probably be in the after life. It's like I shouldn't still be here, in this body. And because I screwed this up, will something not happen? Like maybe I was supposed to be reincarnated as the next Albert Einstein and perfect cold fusion and stop world hunger. And I'll just be here. Floating. A bum with no life and no direction. So, is fate my friend? Or did I mess up and now I'm just here. Just Floating.
Mourgan Diana
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