Okay, its called a writers block. Sorry for the
delay, but I was so busy working on all my fics, and A World
Beyond Ours, that I practically forgot about this one! Silly
me! This is the last chapter, people! Tell me I Know The Meaning Of Pain Chapter 6 A Turn of Tides Tomine snapped quickly awake, and found herself lying against
a tree amidst the shrubbery of a forest. It was late at night
and the moon was hanging gracefully in the black midnight sky.
She found an Her brows furrowed. Where was Ishiro? The last thing she remembered
the
last thing
her cheeks flushed pink. But he had been there.
Where had he gone off to, she wondered. At this late at night,
there were ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ What good was it to destroy the Card Mistress anyway? What
good would it be if she ever returned the Sakura Cards to Clow
Cards? They knew that was what they had to do since the beginning,
as if it was Clow Reed had never intended to use them to regain the Clow
Cards. Ishiro and Tomine were merely using their advantage of
power to take revenge. She remembered her first purpose
to
protect Sakura. Clow Like a doll, who is now reduced to nothing but rags blowing in the wind, ever so softly Shotoku woke slowly, his eyelids seemingly heavy as he lifted
them. But they werent the same human eyes as before. They
were slightly duller, the color of a will-less soldier, sent
to battle, which he was. He was They made their way out of the shrubbery and into a forest
trail. Shotoku followed soullessly behind her, his hand grasping
an invisible weapon. She knew what it was. The spear would appear
with his will. Until She found her allys tracks in the soft mossy ground, and followed them easily. But then she came to a clearing and stifled a scream. She walked over slowly to the tree trunk with a sharp jab
of bark sticking away from it. But that was not what she had
been afraid of. As she reached out her hand, she broke a piece
of wood away from the shark For what she saw on the wood, was red. The red of blood. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Slowly Ishiros eyes opened but they closed quickly as
the light from the sun pierced through the darkness of the cave
directly on to his face. Stifling a mutter, he sat up with aid
from the wall, and stood up. The He cringed and slid against the wall again, regaining his
balance and suppressing the knives that were cutting through
his back. Step after slow step, he made his way over to the fire,
where his shirt lay folded, He half-slid, half-stumbled near the mouth of the cave, wincing
as the light hit his eyes. But he opened them and stared at the
floor, slowly adjusting to the brightness. And he almost had
one foot out of the cave He turned around, and found himself staring into the emerald
green eyes of the Card Mistress. The other Cardcaptor was still
in the back of the cave, sleeping in the corner. Ishiro glanced
at him in the darkness, "Please stop. Youre hurting yourself, and youre
hurting your sister, and youre hurting us. Tell me who
you really are, what you want, and well give it to you,
but stop hurting us." Her eyes started to water as she "No, no you wont. But I will. I still owe you one, Card Mistress, but you should have left me to die." Ishiro narrowed his eyes. "Because this will be something I know youll regret." "But your sister " "Shes not my sister. Tomine is my friend. We were friends ever since we had been turned into the monster you see before you." "But you two seem so close do you love her?" Ishiro turned away. "Love is nothing but a weakness a scornful and petty weakness but " his voice suddenly became softer, "yes I love her, just like he loves you." He said, motioning towards Syaoran. Sakuras eyes dulled. "Hes been avoiding me I dont think he does love me anymore " "Stupid girl. Hes trying to protect you. I threatened him. I said that if he stayed away from you, you would come to no harm. Blind humans, you cant see through anything, can you?" Sakura forced her head up. "Wrong. I can see you. And I know that youre lying
through your teeth. This will not be something I regret. I will
help others even if they kill me the second I wake up. Because
if I leave them there
I
" she bit "Im hiding nothing. You talk nonsense, Card Mistress." "Sakura, why cant you call me Sakura?" "I dont know who Sakura is. I never knew her. I know who the Card Mistress is." Sakuras brow furrowed as she stepped a step closer.
Ishiro noticed, but paid no heed. "I dont want you
to know who the Card Mistress is. I want you to know me, Sakura,
because I am the one who helped you, not "I have to go." Sakura watched him leave, not a word coming out of her mouth, until Syaoran stirred and woke up. Then she turned, and ran into his arms, almost knocking him over. "You were only protecting me, Syaoran! You do still love me!" Syaoran stared down at her, clueless. "How did you know that?" "Ishiro he told me everything. Syaoran, do you ever think that we and Ishiro may one day be friends?" Syaoran stroked his hand through her hair and looked up at the morning sky. "Perhaps but probably not." "I know hes a good person hes just unlucky when do you think hell forgive us for whatever we did wrong?" Syaoran smiled. "When Shotoku ever gets a girlfriend." Sakura pouted and hit Syaoran on the arm. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Tomine found her friend leaning against a tree trunk a distance
away, gasping for breath and clutching his side. She gasped and
ran in front of him as his face slowly turned upward. "Tomine
"
was all he said "What happened to you?" she whispered, while Shotoku stood emotionlessly behind her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Come on! We have to hurry! Onii-sans gone! Sakura
and Syaoran are gone too! Something must have happened! Lock
the door, grab your jacket, Himika! We have to find them!"
Kirin yelled as she ran down the "Kirin! Slow down! Theyve just been gone a night, they may have lost their way and camped out, this happens a lot around here!" Himika yelled. Kirin shook her head vigorously. "Himika, theyre not just the same ordinary kind
of people! Im not the ordinary kind of person either! Theres
a lot we havent told you
" Himika grabbed her
shoulder and slowed her down until they were walking "What havent you told me?" Kirin hesitated, but in the urgent situation, she could do nothing but tell. "Sakura is the Card Mistress. She owns these cards that
have special abilities that can wreak any kind of havoc in the
world and come to life. But as long as they remain in her hands,
theyll be under control. "And?" "We killed ourselves." "NANI? ARE YOU A GHOST, KIRIN?" "Shhh! No, Im not! Somehow, we found our way back
again, but not as cards this time, as humans
Ishiro and
Tomine, I dont think theyre normal either, and theyre
hiding something they want to keep secret. If ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Im becoming so weak
weaker everyday, and I cannot
let this happen. Sakura
the Card Mistress should have left
me there, her heart is too big for her own good. Her sense of
righteousness sickens me. And I And this feeling that nags in my chest all day, ever since
I woke up to find myself still living. But then I remember, they
couldnt have killed me. Maybe in a coma, but they couldnt
have taken the breath out of I wished I was mortal. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "So we finally meet in battle, Card Mistress." Tomine
said, with a hint of annoyance in her usually cold voice. She
narrowed her eyes and faced the emerald-eyed girl standing at
the opposite end of the clearing, "Ill tell you what I told your friend. My name
is Sakura, not Card Mistress." Tomines eyes widened,
but they soon drained of all emotion quickly. So they had been
the one who had helped Ishiro
and yet they "So what weapon will you be using against me, your cards?"
They stared at her, as if trying to comprehend the hints she
was throwing at them. "They wont work. You wouldnt
dare counterattack what I send out." "Why not?" Tomine smiled, and with a slight jerk of her hand, a rustle
sounded in the bushes behind her. Quicker than a blink of an
eye, Shotoku stood facing them, his eyes drained and dull as
Sakura gasped. "Because of "Ill fight him." Sakura gasped and looked
at him with questioning eyes, but he leveled her look with one
of determination. She knew right then and there that she would
not be able to do anything. Tomine As quick as he finished thinking, the battle began. Shotoku attacked first, hard and merciless, not acting on
his own thoughts, but on Tomines. Thrust after thrust he
carefully threw at Syaoran, and each time, Syaoran painfully
blocked them. His forearms were Syaoran did try to kick Shotoku from under his feet, but he
knew that Tomine saw what he wanted to do, and told her slave
to dodge, and so he did. He jumped before every low kick, and
dodged before every Then he heard a high-pitched yell, and saw his sword being
thrown in his direction. Stealing one glance sideways, he saw
Kirin and Himika standing close by, apprehensive and afraid for
both combating friends. Each time Shotoku brought down the spear, Syaorans sword was waiting for it. With a weapon of his own, he was much quicker, and managed to put in quite a few slashes of his own. Finally one hit. Shotoku kept on attacking, but Syaoran saw the deep red blood
from the gash across his cheek. The eyes felt no pain, but Syaoran
had to make him fall somehow. Finally having no choice, he twisted
the blade Shotokus eyes were still closed, but they knew that
the dulling and emotionless eyes would be gone when they opened.
Kirin held her brothers head in her lap and his bangs fell
backwards as his head lulled to a "It doesnt matter, its gone." She proceeded
to dab Shotokus cut on his cheek with her jacket sleeve,
carefully and slowly. Himika knelt next to her, looking over
the little girls shoulder. Sakura and Syaoran, "Well, it seems Ive underestimated you, I am so
sorry." She spat out sarcastically. "But now youre
going to have to go through me." she said. And suddenly,
she collapsed on the ground, leaving Syaoran "Theyre battling in their minds. This is it, winner takes all." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "I will not loose, Card Mistress." "I am not the Card Mistress, I am Sakura. Why are you doing this, Tomine?" "Revenge." "Why must you get revenge, is it satisfying?" "I dont know yet, I havent gotten it." "But why must you get it! Cant you forgive who did this to you?" "Clow and his cards did this to me. He has plagued
us with eternal and never-ending life. Do you know how it feels
when you see everyone around you die? And a childhood friend,
may be whispering his last "Please stop this, youre hurting everybody." "Shut up. I dont need you to tell me what to do. You are weak and vulnerable. Have you ever thought what would happen if Syaoran ever left you?" " He wouldnt " "How do you know? You dont. Silly inferences made on what you think is solid observations. What if he did? What would you become?" " " "Nothing. Nothing at all. You cannot live without some other people to depend on. You cant be a loner, you cant survive solitarily. Weak, vulnerable, stupid." "No " "Other people dont like weak people, if they ever find out, theyre going to leave." "No!" "All your friends, your family, and Syaoran, all of them gone. What will you be then? A shell, a hollow shell thats full, full of emptiness. Do you like the idea?" "Never!" "Oh but its true. What would you be without your friends?" "No nothi " "Nothing." "No stop!" "Nothing at all." "Please stop!" "An empty shell." "Please! Tomodachi!" " what did you say?" "Please oh please please stop, Tomine please stop hurting me please stop tomodachi " "Tomodachi " "You are my friend Tomine friends dont hurt their friends " "I am not your friend." "It doesnt matter how much you deny it, you need someone too. What would you be without Ishiro?" "Tomine. Still." "No youd be what you say Ill be. A hollow shell full of emptiness. You are my friend why wont you realize it?" "How can I realize something that isnt true?" "But it is! My tomodachi! Believe me!" " Why?" "Because friends trust each other." " I dont have friends " "Ishiro. Do you love Ishiro?" " " "Do you love him like I love Syaoran? What would you be without him?" "Stop turning the tables on me." "Nothing." "I wont fall for this." "But you dont have to. We can stop tormenting each other. Call me Tomodachi " "No." "Am I your good friend?" "I dont know." "Why?" "Im confused." "Ill help you. Has revenge ever offered you
a shoulder to cry on? Has it ever kissed you, and wrapped its
arms around you? Has it ever kept you warm? Has it ever brought
tears of joy to your eyes? Has it ever "Weaknesses." "No, no theyre not. Has it?" "Never." "I would have offered you a shoulder to cry on. Ishiro would have loved you and kept you warm. Friends bring tears of happiness to your eyes a tomodachi will make you smile." "Stop it." "Do you understand." "Yes, but Im not supposed to!" "You do because you have a heart." "No " "You need a heart to love, Tomine. Stop what youre doing, youre hurting people that could be your friend. Just say sorry." "I never say sorry." "Then show it." " dont cry for me." "What?" "Just dont. Sakura am I human?" "What?" "Just answer." "I believe so." "Good." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Syaoran watched as Sakuras eyes opened slowly, and she
smiled. A scar appeared on her palm, probably from the lies and
pain Tomine had told her. It didnt bleed, a scar just appeared,
but it did hurt. Syaoran Too late. Sakura watched as Shotokus fallen spear flew
point-first towards Tomine, and she knew she would never be able
to get to her in time. Tomine mouthed the words, goodbye, before
she too looked up at Tomine closed her eyes, and she felt the impact pushing her
down to the floor. It took a little longer for the spear to pierce
through her skin than she thought. She smiled blissfully. Human.
She had turned into And her eyes widened. She didnt see the sky. And she suddenly knew why the
spear had taken so long. It had to go through one more body before
it got to hers, Ishiro. His face was twisted in pain, and his
eyes were looking reluctantly "You didnt think you could leave me here by myself,
did you? We went through so much already, might as well take
the end with you too." He said, before he rolled his body
off. She felt the spear being ripped She knew the damage had been done. She would be gone soon. Wait for me, she thought. She turned and looked up at the sky, before her eyes slowly closed too, thinking one last thing. The sky is so very beautiful ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ WARNING: Happy ending ahead. If you love sad endings, stop
reading right now. Im just too weak for happy endings,
so for those who are like me, the first epilogue is below for
your enjoyment. This is ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I Know the Meaning of Pain Epilogue Always (Bittersweet Version) Sakura stepped into the clearing, smiling at the little patch
of sunlight beaming down on that specific patch of grass. She
sighed and bet down, tracing her fingers on the dirt. She felt
tears run down her cheek, Dont cry for me, Sakura. "Tomine?" she asked, suddenly afraid and apprehensive. Dont be afraid. "But how " Some things are unexplainable like why Ishiro did what he did. "Tomine Im so sorry " Its not your fault. It was me who chose to do what I did. Dont be sorry and dont cry. But I have one more thing to say to you before really goodbye. "Whats that?" Dont forget me, Tomodachi. The voice slowly faded away, but Sakura knew that she was
listening. "I never will, Tomine." She whispered. And
Sakura could have sworn she heard someone smiling, though how
she could hear a smile, she ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I Know the Meaning of Pain Epilogue Always (Fully Happy Version) Sakura walked down the street holding Syaorans hand,
leaning her head against his shoulder. Eriol and Tomoyo had their
own things to do today, Sakura knew that they liked each other,
so she had not said a He spoke. "Hey watch it mister! Little kids are playing here!" A little girl suddenly ran up and waved her finger at a surprised Syaoran. "Yeah mister!" She bent down and helped the boy
up, who blushed and thanked her. They were no younger than nine,
which was the age that she had met Syaoran. And the boy was still
blushing furiously "Do I know you?" the little boy asked. Dark gray-blue
eyes stared at her though unruly purple hair, familiar
eyes
Sakura
stared back. She felt someone take her hand, and looked down
to see that it was the little She had piercing but friendly dark blue eyes, and long purple
hair, tied up into two little buns on either side of her head.
She looked up and smiled as if remembering something. She opened
her mouth and But her thoughts were drained out as the little girls statement hit her hard, but not painfully. "Does it still hurt, Sakura?" |