The day I left Florida I had tried getting a job as a DJ for a radio station called KISS FM. They said yes the minute they talked to me. I was SO proud of myself. A few months later I was learning how to work everything in the station when my stomach started to hurt. They got me to the hospital and in about 2 minutes the doctor made his conclusions. I was pregeant. When asked who was the father, I told them a guy I knew in Florida. So May 1st of 1998 I was 2 months, due on November 27th, 1998. I worked through it. The BSB came to WI in August. I told the radio station I was sick and couldn’t get an interview with them. When Krissie called me, I told her I wasn’t feeling too good and couldn’t go. I watched award shows and always saw a blonde with Brian. One day I saw a close up of her-Leighanne Wallace. I took that as a clue not to tell Brian about my child. I worked at KISS for as long as I could, then took maternity leave. I had my child holding my dad’s hand on November 26th, 1998. I named her Leslie, that would always sound good with Littrell if I chose to tell her. On October 8th, 1999 the BSB came to WI on their Millenium tour. No one could get an interview with them, they were too busy. I wanted a raise so I called Krissie and asked if she could give me some time. I ran into my bosses office and told him, I got a pay increase on the spot. I drove to the Bradley Center and got backstage. No one was able to take care of Leslie that night. I took her with me, I could always lie to them! I knocked on the door and heard Krissie walked toward it.
“Nicole, Hey” She exclaimed. She looked in my arms and saw Leslie.
“I didn’t know you were married” She mumbled.
“I’m not” I replied.
“Sorry” She insisted.
“NAH, I’m having the best fun in my life, she’s great” I replied. Krissie smiled. I walked in and saw Katie and Nick on a couch. AJ and Howie on one and Brian and Leigh on another. Kevin walked toward me and gave me a hug.
“Hey there” He said to Leslie taking her from me. He spun her around a few times while she giggled. Brian looked up at me, not able to say anything. In his eyes I had moved on with my life, when in truth I loved him more than ever.
“I just have to ask you guys some questions, even though I can probaly answer them all” I joked. Kevin laughed and I put a recorder in front of them.
“What do you guys have in store for next year?” I questioned.
“Well, after this tour we’ll be having another one in Feb. Then we go back to the recording studio and make another album” Kevin replied.
“That must be a big step for you guys” I responded.
“Very big step, more than we could have ever hoped for” Nick exclaimed.
“Do you guys have girlfriends?” I questioned. AJ laughed.
“Of course, we’re 5 guys, except nothing serious” AJ replied.
“AH, I see” I joked. Krissie hit me and Katie threw a pillow at me.
“Where do you see yourselves in 5 years?” I asked.
“I myself hope to have a family, some kids” Brian replied staring at me.
“First you gotta get a wife” Nick joked.
“Same with me” Kevin joked. They all basically answered that question the same.
“What was the hardest part of 1998 for each of you?” I asked.
“Well, Brian and I lost our grandpa, we left our record company, Brian had his surgery which scared me a lot” Kevin replied.
“My parents moved to California which meant I see them less than I get to, which is almost nlich” Nick said.
“I saw my father for the first time” AJ mumbled.
“I lost my sister Caroline” Howie cried.
“I had surgery and did a lot of stupid things, that in the end hurt me a lot” Brian replied. I sat quietly. Leigh’s eyes were on mine waiting for my reaction.
“Thanks guys” I managed to say. I grabbed Leslie and walked to the door when she started to cry. I placed her on the ground and she crawled over by Brian. It was if she knew he was her dad.
“How old is she?” Katie questioned.
“About a year” I replied.
“Can I talk to you for a second?” Katie asked grabbing my arm. She lead me into the back room and looked at me.
“It’s Brian’s isn’t it?” Katie snapped.
“What? NO!” I yelled.
“Brian told Nick what happened, you know Nick, can’t keep a secret from me” She replied. I looked at the ground.
“Yeah, it’s his” I murmured. Katie gave me a look.
“Why don’t you tell him? He loves kids” Katie exclaimed.
“Yeah, but he doesn’t love me” I cried. “If he did, he would have stayed, he wouldn’t have left a note, I loved him more, for some reason”
“Why don’t you tell him that?” She asked.
“Tell me what?” Brian questioned walking in the door. I stared at him. Katie turned around and left.
“Nothing” I whispered.
“Must be something” Brian hinted. I took a breath.
“All my boyfriends treated me like a princess all my life. My parents spoiled me, my brothers gave me everything, everyone gave me what I wanted. Then one night someone didn’t. It made me see how selfish I was, how horrible I treated people. How much I really loved you” I explained. Brian looked at me.
“I treated Leslie like a queen. She deserved it with a mother like me around” I said.
“Leslie is my daughter?” Brian asked.
“Yes, she’s Leslie Littrell” I replied. Brian looked back.
“I feel terrible, I still love you though” Brian explained.
“If you would have stayed, it would have been so much better” I cried. Brian put his arms around me. Leigh opened the door.
“Thank god, you two finally got back together” She joked.
“Aren’t you with Brian?” I asked.
“No, we’re just friends” I explained. I laughed and hugged Brian tighter. 3 months later we got married in Lexington, Kentucky. 4 months after that Kevin married Krissie in the same church. 3 years after that, Nick and Katie finally tied the knot. That’s my life, I hope you enjoyed it, cause I sure did.