This Broken Heart
This broken heart was stronger then
You took me for granted
This broken heart was stronger than
Can't make this right, you see on my face,
This broken heart was stronger than
By: Something Corporate
You woke up, in pieces
From making these changes
And holding the ransom, won't write you an anthem
On the outside, I’m trying, 'cause inside, I’m dying
Now I can't stand to part with this
This broken heart
Now I’m changed, you haven't
It won't be so easy to sell me this feeling
The words I wish you never meant
This broken heart
That I’m not gonna be alright, not tonight,
You can read all my letters, but that won't mean
things are fine,
Not this time, 'cause you gave away all the secrets of you and I
Now I can't stand to part with this
This broken heart was stronger than
The words I wish you never meant
This broken heart
Chapter Three –
October 24, 2005
“Lane, where are you taking us,” Taylor called out to Delaney as she held his hand and dragged him to a small restaurant across the street.
“We can’t go up to my apartment just yet,” she said in a small voice. She just couldn’t let him up there yet. She wanted to save the surprise for later when she had kind of built him up for it.
“Why not? Delaney, I’ve got to go back tomorrow morning, we don’t have forever to just do nothing. We’ve got to get down to business,” he called out in front of him to Delaney who was desperately trying to block his words, but in all reality she couldn’t handle it anymore. At that exact moment she broke.
“Taylor! Why are you so cruel to me? All I’ve ever tried to do was love you while you just fought me. You have been my best friend for as long as I can remember and I have never stopped loving you. You are the one and only love of my life Taylor and I hate what you do to me. I know that at one point you felt the same way about me, but what about now? What happened that made your feelings change? Please, either love me or stop taking advantage of me. I hate you for who you’ve become and still love the person you used to be,” she said letting go of his hand and letting out a deep breath.
“Laney, I do love you, I do, I really, really do. It’s just so hard for me, because I know that I’d have to pull you into a life that I know you can’t handle. I’d love to spend forever with you if only you were able to spend it with me,” he said pulling her towards him into a warm embrace. The hug reminding her of how they used to be, he hadn’t just hugged her in so long, she missed the way his body smelt as he held her close.
“Don’t give me that line, Taylor,” she yelled making the other people that were walking look at the two. “You don’t know me anymore; you have no idea what I can handle. Haven’t you ever heard of sacrifice? I’d be willing to put away my pain just to be with you. And while we’re on that subject, you are the only person I’ve ever been able to be with and be completely numb to my own pain, but then you walk away and all the pain I’ve ever felt just returns with a crash,” the two of them were standing in the middle of the street and people had stopped to stare, but Delaney didn’t care. It had been so long since her and Taylor had stopped to share feelings and be open and honest with each other.
“Delaney, did you ever think that it’s hard for me to take on all your pain. The reason why all your pain goes away whenever I’m near you is because I take it all away. Have you ever once thought about somebody but yourself,” Taylor yelled. He didn’t really mean any of what he was saying and he truly did love her it’s just; he didn’t think she could handle life on the road. She hadn’t been able to handle it any of the other times, what made her think that she could live on the road?
“Well, I’m sorry Taylor that we were ever friends, seeing as, to you, our friendship was just a waste. You know what I think?” She asked him.
“What’s that? But, I’m sure you’re going to tell me anyways,” he said in that same tone that he had gotten with his brothers when they had been kids. Delaney had always hated that tone and now he was using it on her. She felt that when he talked to people like that, that he thought he was better than them. She absolutely hated that about Taylor. That was the one and only thing she had ever hated about him, was his attitude towards people whom he thought were less than him.
“I think it’s because of Isabelle,” she stated, bringing up a memory that she knew Taylor had been trying to avoid since it had happened.
“Don’t even bring her into this; you and I both know that it has nothing to do with her. I don’t know why you, first of all, only think about yourself, but when there’s something that’s your fault you try and blame it on anyone else. And most of the time, it was always me, until we found Isabelle, and for some odd reason she was a lot easier for you to manipulate,” Taylor said crossing his arms across his chest and looking towards the ground.
“Because I was afraid of her Tay, she terrified me. You’re going to hate me for this, but I was so glad when she died; there was no more reason for me to be scared of her any longer,” Delaney said softly telling Taylor something she had never told him before. Everything dealing with Isabelle Delaney had kept to herself, she knew Taylor didn’t want to hear it from her and Delaney never had anyone else to talk to except for Isabelle, and you can’t tell a person how you feel about them if it’s bad.
“How the hell did she scare you and you were glad when she died,” Taylor inquired putting his finger under her chin and raising her head so that he could look her in the eyes. He used that tone that he had always used with her to get her to tell him something.
“She was always the biggest threat to me when it came to you. Also, she was the only other person I ever talked to, beside you, and she used that against me, she used that to take you away from me. I hated her for that. But, I also loved her so much and I always knew exactly why you loved her and I hated myself for understanding. It’s just that she gave me so many mixed emotions that I hated her for making feel and I loved you for numbing the feelings again. It’s all just so confusing,” Delaney said sounding defeated, while pulling her eyes away from Taylor’s piercing gaze.
“Laney, I understand, because in all reality I felt exactly the same way. Only it was a little bit different, because I hated her for taking you away from me. I was so used to being your only confidant and then she came into the picture and there was someone else. I just didn’t know how to get you back, and then I became accustomed to you not always needing me and that’s when we started pulling apart. And here we are today, and I hate her for tearing us apart. But, I loved her so much for the way she made me feel. She always knew exactly how to talk to me and she knew where and how I liked to be touched. She just knew, but the thing that I never seemed to realize was that, you knew me so much better, it was just that she showed me better. And I hate her for the way she made you feel and I hate her for taking you away from me, I mean we could be the perfect couple today, but she took you away from me. I absolutely hate her for that. I’m so sorry for letting a stranger come in and change our entire relationship,” Taylor told his most trusted and loved best friend. He felt the hint of tears sting his eyes and he pulled away from Delaney. He never let her see him cry, because he knew she couldn’t take his pain like he could take hers and he didn’t want her to have to deal with that fact.
“Taylor,” she said, this time she was the one that made him look at her. “If you mean what you say and are willing to work on some things. I have changed a lot over the past year and I am willing to make more changes just so that I can be with you. But, I will not even begin to try if you don’t agree and if you don’t want us to be together, it’s just that I have something to show you that I think will make up your mind for you. Just if I’m going to work on us, please promise me that you will help me as well.”
“Laney, I have waited for this day my entire life, and I promise I will change and work on some things. All I have ever wanted was to be with you, just promise me that you can come back with me and we can live one life together,” he said once again pulling her to him.
“I promise, Jordan,” she said smiling a little bit to herself.
“Hey, I thought you were back to calling me Taylor,” he said kind of chuckling.
“Oh, I figured I’d do it just one last time for old time’s sake,” she said smiling.
“Oh, that’s nice,” he said to her using a strong sarcastic tone. “I love you,” he said bending down to kiss her.
“I love you too,” she said returning his kiss.
When they pulled away from each other and began to walk towards the restaurant they had initially been going to, the people who were watching began to clap.
“This is just like a romantic movie,” they both thought to themselves.
“I love you and that will never change,
Email: hshanson09@yahoo.com
Just please help me find yourself today.
I have finished my pattern,
The stitch is complete,
Now your life is only
One broken piece.”