(excerpt from "Dragon Heart" chapter 9 by Avendar Dragon copyright 1997)
Master Q once again woke me up in a dream.
"You are completely frivilous in this activity of dreams. It does not serve you one iota, although you think it must."
Before I could explain myself Master Q broke in.
"Do not worry about that, I understand something of your human ways. Take for instance the latest cult that has been in the news lately. The one called "Heaven's Gate". Now there is a case of human frivolity that has gone awry. They were so close to the truth, yet so far away from what the actual reality is. It is all very Freudian and Jungian in a Reichian sense as you will see and communicate to those who wish to understand. It is once again time to recapitulate the close encounter you had in the early 80s. Go back once again to that incident in your imagination."
I covered the details of that incident in my mind from the feeling of the twilight August early evening to the odd sense of no one being on the street when it was usually crowded. Then I felt the calm before the storm as the air grew electric around me just prior to the spaceship landing. As the spaceship landed and the light beamed into me Master Q instructed me to focus into the instance of light and extend it past the moment it lasted. As I did that the light beam drew me in and I was inside the spaceship. I met Master Q inside. He began to explain to me how it worked.
"First of all this is a timeship. It is meant to navigate not only space but time as well. The machinery is made from organic material and is almost alive. It is directed by the intent of those who perform the various functions to operate the ship. Look at the screen."
The screen showed us in flight over a desert.
"Yes, we are picking up fuel. Watch as the ship fuels up."
I saw the beam of light extend itself into the desert sands and make an impact. As it hit the sand it made an impact that caused the light beam to intensify. The sand was being converted to golden particles that were being transported into the ship.
"The light that was able to reconfigure your dreaming body also has the ability of converting the inorganic substance of sand into a highly unstable organic substance that can be used as fuel to amplify the intent of those who operate this ship. They are the UaRians that you have come to know in your earlier excursions into the Civilization Beyond Time. They are silicon lifeforms. As you evolve you will eventually pass through a phase where you will transmute the carbon basis of your biology into silicon and be able to navigate in hyperspace. Now let me show you the place where the ship is piloted."
Even though the ship seemed extremely small from the outside, it was extremely large inside containing many levels and chambers. I just followed Master Q as he seemed to know where he was going and I had no clue.
"Yes, just follow me. Soon you will learn to navigate and steer this ship. It is not so difficult as one might think but it does take some proficiency in awareness, intent and energy."
We entered a room with a central structure that housed a large crystal skull that looked like the Mitchell-Hedges one I experienced some time ago in Toronto. It was surrounded by a number of seats that were utilized by the pilots and navigators. I knew intuitively the number of seats varied. The chamber was fluid. It could support any number of seats necessary. At the moment therre were only two. One seat was unoccupied and the other was being manned by an energy body absorbed in performing the fueling function. As the fueling function came to completion and the energy body transformed back into the dreaming body, I noticed that it was Janyl. We greeted each other like old friends as we embraced. She was very excited. She wanted me to join her in the operation of the ship. I looked at Master Q. He nodded his approval.
"First look at the seats. They are unusual in their construction as they are important in their operation."
I was surprised by what I had found. I looked at Janyl's seat. There was a strange phallic protrusion. Upon my seat there was a hole. I felt the tecture of both seats and they strangely had a most sensuous feeling as if they were made of real flesh. I looked at Master Q and confided to him that this reminded me of some strange sexual apparatus.
"It is strange, but its intent is slightly different. The UaRians live within a non-ordinary sphere. You must make an adjustment here and it will not be easy. Your training in Sorcery has been to utilize ordinary things in a non-ordinary way. This is one example of how you are asked to adjust to an alien civilizations orientation."
I watched as Janyl sat down on the strange phallic protrusion. She seemed to go into sexual ecstasy. As she did she immediately shifted into the energy body. She sent out impulses to me to join her. Master Q instructed me upon the use of the seat.
"Yes, you must insert your penis inside the orifice. The only other instructions that I need tell is not to ejaculate. If you do you will not have enough energy to get anywhere."
I sat down upon the seat fitting my penis into the orifice contained there beneath me. As soon as I did I felt strange sensations flow through of a sexual nature. I was on the verge of orgasm and ejaculation when the crystal skull instructed me to raise and maintain the sensation by my intent. As I focused upon doing that I shifted into the energy body. My assemblage point became apparent as I utilized the energy that I felt between my hands to maintain the focus of energy. I felt the timeship move and take off as I focused my intent to raise and maintain the energy and awareness of the assemblage point.
The feeling of my assemblage point became clearer and more functionally appropriate to move the vehicle as I related to the crystal skull. It seemed to be a functional intermediary in that process. I watched as it split into three skulls. One maintained the center position, overseeing and accentuating all that occurred, while the other two shifted towards the two of us. One of the two shifted towards me and connected with my thymus gland between my throat and heart areas. As it connected it amplified my energy body greatly. It orchestrated a beam of light from my energy body and the assemblage point to the central crystal skull. I was seeing as the timeship was able to produce vision as we traveled through hyperspace towards the ends of the limited physical universe. I knew where we were headed. I shared the intent with Janyl and the central crystal skull. We were heading towards the Source of Creation. I could feel our destination as I could feel the changes in my awareness, intent and energy as normal changes in steering.
We were passing through photon belts of pure energy. In that photon belt I felt the basic component of all matter and energy, all molecules, atomic and subatomic particles. It gave off a strange opalescent glow. It identified itself to me as an "idgo". The information was being translated through the crystal skull and the feeling of the ship.
I understood that the scientists of Earth lived in a sterile world of their own reflection of puny intent as did the cult leaders. The substance of energy they knew was merely a theoretical construct. As it was a theoretical construct they could find a place for all sorts of elementary particles of matter and energy that really did make a constructive difference. This particle that called itself an "idgo" was completely constructive and informative as a basic constituent of matter and energy that made sense. It had intelligence that I could confer with and experience in a very intimate way.
I began to understand it as the energy of pure orgasm. It was an explosive energy located at the center of all things created at the Source of Creation. It informed me that it was teh synthesis of the sentient components of the Freudian abstracts of the id and ego. In orgasm, the id and ego fused ionically to form an "idgo", basic substance of orgasm. That was why the timeship was run on sexual energy.
As we came closer to the Source of Creation I began to know the energy body as the original physical body. It was composed of energy and matter, flesh and Spirit, that could easily fuse together and form idgos easily. As we came even closer to the Source of Creation all distinction of the timeship, myself and Janyl grew faint. We all became a cyclone of pure orgasmic energy. We could focus our intent anywhere as the physical body we inhabited was composed of pure awareness, unbending intent and unending energy. It was in this form that we made our way toward the final leg of the trip towards the Source of Creation.
As this composite being, the amplification of the assemblage point was indeed great. At the Source of Creation the assemblage point spread out as if to show what it had stored during its sojourn in time and space. Something very complex was being worked out here. Each light fiber was being distinguished in relation to all the others. They were being amplified, reconfigured and enhanced as well as compared. The mind that was analyzing all the information was touching mine. I was exploding in that touch trying to understand all the directions It was going as well as pushing me to follow.
A final explosion of understanding and I found myself back in the strange seat with an uncomfortable sensation that I had just ejaculated. Janyl laughed and asked me if I wanted to smoke a cigarette. I laughed as well. I noticed a strange thing about my perception. It filled the chamber up with the moving opalescent particles of idgos. It was like a light show around us. I asked Janyl if she was experiencing the same thing. She laughed in agreement. Master Q was standing there with an umbrella and a ironic smile.
"Yes, you will wake up from this as if it were a dream, but you would have experienced something more profound then as if you followed your poor msiguided brothers and sisters of the Heaven's Gate cult. Ones time upon the planet is very important. It is where you train to have such experiences. It connects with electro-magnetic fields of far greater things than can normally be imagined. It draws into its dreaming such things as teh comet to amplify ones intent into the extra-ordinary. Those external celestial events only mirror probable internal experiences.
Rest assured the Earth is still a significant place to come to develop and store new information. If there was any danger of destruction few Souls would incarnate in that capacity. On the contrary, because it is a safe haven for the processing of information and the momentum of evolution, enourmous amounts of such material can be actualized. Such processing of energy has been accelerated because the time is right for it to occur. New scenarios are being enacted in your environment. Soon this will be a wonderous world of such things all contained in their human envelopes of sentient experiential capacity.
So develop your spirituality as well as your sexuality in ethical and non-ordinary ways. Do not use it to hurt, harm or delude. Develop every aspect of yourself that you can. It will all come in handy when you make that final departure from yor home of dreaming to your real home home of dreaming at the Source of Creation, if that is what you choose. The Death Defier opts for something more unusual than that as have the UaRians. The UaRians occupy the sphere of hyperspace. They are your counterparts there. The Death Defier dwells very functionally in your world as well as in all other worlds. The Death Defier is a bridge to life in all its facets in an unlimited physical way.
The mistake is to kill oneself before soemthing meaningful can occur. Once somethng meaningful had occurred there is no need to kill oneself. The realization is just too broad to be so final as that. The idea is not to separate yourself from the world to make such extra-ordinary events possible, but to make such extra-ordinary events possible in your world. Then you can share them with others who choose to participate as you did weith Janyl. It is possible.
Human history is filled with events of creative ways of murder, suicide and unnatural sacrifice before something significant can happen. It is best to focus the intent to change that scenario into something more enlightened. It is best to change the course of human history to the events where something significant can happen without death or unnatural sacrifice. When you demonstrate that particular solution, the UaRians will join with you once again and you will be free to roam in hyperspace.
You ride in a marvelous timeship of dreaming. Your planet is exemplary in that function. Do not underestimate it or take it for granted. The Death Defier dwells there just for that intent as one world of choice. Learn how to navigate in that timeship and with that timeship in a similar way that you entered hyperspace in the UaRian craft. Your planet is bound for the Source of Creation as well, as it also swims in an ocean of hyperspace. All of you have incarnated here to experience that in the fullest way possible.
Maintain your existence there to the final breath. Even though your world might be rift with destruction, find new ways to maintain an integrated existence. There are many gateways that make that possible. Learn how to find those gateways and learn how to functionally use them to pass in and out so that you need not be contained in such a small aspect of the world as the one that will bear all the negative effects of the passage through the photon belt. There are many Scales upon the Dragon you ride upon."