I found myself looking more and more for an outlet for all of the added stress of adolescence. As many kids do I began smoking cigarettes. At first it was a casual habit, but soon it spread out of control like a wildfire until all of my thoughts were consumed with nicotine, and when I was going to get some more. Soon after smoking became an addiction I needed to move onto something more to replace the stress. I started to get drunk a lot. I would come stumbling into my house all of the time. Totally unaware of how my actions were taking their toll on all of those around me. Well it wasn't long before alcohol turned into marijuana. I started slow with weed because I was afraid of what it might do. I mean this was totally illegal, and a little bit of my common sense held me back. Well, soon enough, I was consumed with getting high, and was living from high to high.

Soon, with all the adding of all the problems, and no solutions I found myself slipping behind during school. I was so tired from being out all night all of the time that I would skip school to simply go and sleep. As time went on my truancy problem became a real big issue in my life, and probably robbed me of my future. I sit here right now, totally alone wishing that I had a chance to get these last few years back to do them again, the correct way. It has gotten so bad that my parents have just accepted it. I feel that I am a pitiful excuse for an adult and I need to get some help, but I don't want to give up this life style? Do you believe it? I don't want to let go of the things that are destroying me. Maybe it is for the better. I hope that I can hang on long enough to finish high school, and make a little bit of a success out of my life. Well, I guess that I won't bother with anymore of your time. So with the completion the next sentences I am going to take a few hours to try and decifer what I have done with myself. I will see you guys later.