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Welcome to the minds of our visitors. The Lost Hideaway Dedicates this Gallery to your creativity and raw talent. In the middle of the night I was haunted by these words, these short stories, and emotion...So once again thank you for taking the time to submit these amazing works of art.

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"CHAIN"

By: Danny Roberts
( Lead singer from an up and coming band: Staggers )
Created 1999

Broken Glass and a heart attack
A blazing fire and a Choir
For all the things I see
And she still haunts me

In fetish and poverty
The sun burns unconditionally
I fended for your hungers
I kept all of your poloroid pictures

And this Chain never breaks
It just keeps on linking
And this Chain never breaks
It just keeps on restraining

Casted stone and a goddess thrown
Chanting lips and dirty finger tips
If you tell me how your feeling
I might stop searching

And this Chain never breaks
It just keeps on linking
And this Chain will never break
It'll only keep on breeding

And this Chain never breaks
It just keeps on linking
And this Chain might never break
If you keep on breathing

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"FALL APART"

By: Jeremy Mathews
Created 1998

A bittersweet harmony led in water colors
A mastermind behind a mute
A small child rambling the woes of the world
There's so much beauty in the darkness of a Fall

It seems
You've led me in broken times
It seems
So crazy I just can't hide

And I Fall just like the many times you stabbed my hope
And I fall just like the lonley times you kissed and smashed my heart
Yes I fall just like the little toy soldiers in childhood pasts
And I fall just like the times I held on to yesterdays thoughts of you

It seems It's always in a dream
It seems I get closer to the truth
It seems the voice inside of me has fadded
As it seems I might overcome memories of you

And I fall just when I thought I had a hold
And I fall just when I feel my grasp has grown strong
And god dammit I fall just when I think I have made it without you

It seems I'll never stop thinking
It seems I'll never stop breathing
It seems I'll never stop falling
Again for you

And I fall just when I picked myself up
And I fall just when I balanced my steps to the future
And I fall each time I stand tall without thinking
Of falling all over again for you.

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"NIGHT DREAMER"

By: Sonia Buenitez
Created 1995

I have this dream each time I lay my body down
That there is God and his wife making love
Without sin
Without sound

I've had this dream since I was a little girl
I sang it to my grandfather one night
He passed away telling me
I was a night dreamer

I have this dream each night I lay myself to sleep
That Lucifer swallowed his pride and sat down with Jesus
They set a table for eternity
And only crossed each other before passing down a hall

Grandpa used to sing in his voice box ways of the world
Songs upon the dead
He cleared his throat and lifted up his head
"You're the Night dreamer" he said

I have this dream each night I lay my body down
That the war is over
That the night turns to joy
The moon dripped life into our eyes
And our peace was made as simple as a newborn with a brand new toy

Granfather used to cry as I slept
With his barrowed time inside my own lungs
From time to time I could hear him tell me
To be a Night dreamer is a secret kept
In his passing I hear him communicating in Night dreamers hums.

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"EDIT"

By: Marry Anne Saunders
Created 1997

Stripped away
It's not going away
It's not going to happen
Anymore

Picked to the bone
Sleeping alone
There's no real time
Commited the pride of Crime

I'm withering in the sand
Snapped at demands
Smiled
With shaking hands

Aint got no love to hold
No shelter to grow cold
Aint got no heart
Apart

It's not what I thought
When I decided
Delighted
The do's and dont's I taught

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"LIVE WIRE"

By: James Greyson Kessler
Created 1999

Carve your name into my chest and take a breath
Kisses like Ice and nails like glass
Space and time, Space and downtime
You bothered me now kiss my ass

Cuz you told me you were walking out on
Your other half
Said you were done with cling
Served me a line of shit and everything

You said you were finished with walking numb
Told me that part of you was dying young
Traded one Evil for another
And celebrated being a real fucker

Now i'm left with the very smell of your lies
I've become the Masters Bait and couldn't believe my damn eyes
Wondered where the hell you were going in the first place
I didn't have to ask with a look like that on your face.

Poor Pitiful you despite all of what you put me through
Oh poor poor pitiful you
There aren't words to describe this kind of madness
When you're taking what I'm giving and me
How foolish.

Well I'm sorry my love I think I've become sick with you now
Become wise to you now
Realize I'm still understanding you now
I'm still pissed with you now

Loving you is like a live wire
Exposed to danger
Ready to get burned
Always waiting for another turn.

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"GATES"

By: Lilly Harrison
Created 1994

Follow me down the steps and take my winter hand
It will take some time to get the point of what I understand
I will take care and be the keeper of what you see
It's cold if you open the gates with me.

Some say this is only an illusion wrapped up in occult theories
You will see what I see unfold like a series
Take my hand and follow me down that way
Hold on tight and say a prayer because this is time to pray

You are not the first to see misty figures and unseen voices
You won't be the last to encounter desperate forces led by uncertain choices

These are my gates
I open as I please
These are my gates
Setting me at ease

Isn't this the way it should be now and then?
Isn't this the way it should become down here in this darkish den?
I will be there for you as you watch my friends unfold
As you feel the ice tingling up your spine so cold

Never thought this was possible but it is so
The ways of the other realm and how they go
These are my gates as you can see
This is the most uncertain home that can be

These are my gates
Where they lead is up to you
These are my gates
Opening to the selected few

Follow me down these steps and whisper if you dare
About how you don't believe in such nonsense - that you don't care
Tell me after seeing these things that force you to your insanity
That these gates are only for the crazy

Take my hand and stay a while in my den
Feeling the other realm every now and then
These are my gates as morbid as they come
These are my pleasures and soon you'll grow to want some.

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"NEVER KNEW I WAS LIVING IN THIS STATE OF MIND"

By: Geminiah Ericson
Created December 22, 1999

Look out cruel man here I come since you didn't seem to care
Pushing pills and justice since you didn't seem to care it only seems fair
Since you didn't seem to care I wanted none of this. Since you didn't want to
Here I come. Since you didn't seem to care what I do

Now before I enter your world let me tell you a little story cruel man.
Of a girl minding her own business. Of a girl staring at her hand
Let me prepare your place at the table of fate cruel man. Let me serve you the same line of shit you fed me
Let me wine and dine you cruel man. With the notion that YOU didn't make ME a woman.

The darkness in your eyes invited me cruel man. Into the house of taking. Into my mind in the making
Since you decided you would devour me cruel man. I'd like to serve you just as you did for me
Now before I let you swallow I think it's only fair cruel man, sometimes you should let alone and leave be

Muffled my lips and traced my skin with your dirty finger tips
Covered my eyes and gave me a surprise cruel man. Before you ever so violently spread these thighs

Since you didn't seem to care I think you should be aware
Of the nocturne flavored drink you've tasted. A good man gone wasted cruel man
Since you didn't seem to care when you violenly invited yourself in my temple. Beware

I thought I lost everything cruel man. I thought you took my soul that night
I thought my time was up cruel man. Die? I thought I might
Now before I silence you I think it's only fair you know it too
This is your redemption cruel man. Since you didn't seem to care

Sleep as tighter than the night you welcomed yourself in me
Since I don't care where you've came from. What hell you were raised in. I want you to remember
Every last feeling you feel at this fate. Feel the fury fire. Every last ember
Since you didn't seem to care what you did cruel man
Lie down with your destiny cruel man. I'll fix you up a plate.

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" JUST A TOUCH"

By: Luke Masterson
Created August 13th, 1999

In dreams I see you dancing through the silver tinted windows
We are dressed like the Millennium
You smile at every gentleman
I walk through the doors and smell your scent

May I step in and look into your eyes?
May I allow myself to be tranced by your free spirit

It seems like another era
It seems like another life
I'd give up my soul to have you

Is it any wonder that I can't sleep
You turn me away and you don't even know it
It's not your fault really
How else can you show it?

I close my eyes and want too much
I can't sleep
All I have is thoughts of you and I
I can't sleep tonight my beautiful drifter

Just a touch is all I wanted
All you had to do was reach out and know I'm there
As we danced hand in hand
You make me a mad man

Run away with me tonight sweet drifter
Let me know you want the same
I've lost myself in you
Just a touch and run away with me my beautiful drifter

Other lovers leave
You stay behind and leave me helpless
Just a touch is all I wanted
Nothing more then to see your green eyes
Your silence makes me a mad man

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"LIFELESS"

By: Abbie Gloyd

My soul is burnt
My heart is made of steel
I want to love
I want to feel

This pain brings me down
To the depths so low
How will I function
How will I grow

I misread feelings
Mistakes that make my heartache
I want to feel a tender touch
Each morn when I awake

Rejection is expected
I live with constant pain
I love and then I hurt
Nothing will I gain

This is tourture
Punishment at most
The rejection, pain and grief
My soul has become their host

" BLACK BOX "

I'm surrounded by blackness
I live in a little black box
No glimmer of light
No glimmer of hope

My hand, held before my eyes is unseen
I feel around for the walls
Walla that close around me tighter and tighter
I feel so cramped, I feel so lost

I search for a ray of light
I find instead my heart, On the floor, In pieces
My soul, Beside it,Turned into dust
What has happened? Why am I here?

I feel around, Desperatly, Looking for light
I need the light, I crave the light
It's so dark, So lonley, So dead
A single tear drips down my cheek, Onto the floor

I sit in the corner of my big black box
I cry the things I could have
I cry for things lost, For the things desired
I sit and cry, For there is no hope

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"NO SLEEP"

By: Teresa Marie Garberson
Created 8/10/2000

Sleepless nights are starting to get to me
Always thinking never being able to stop
Have never known how to just let go
It's all getting to me
Feel the floor of sanity slowly opening
Beneath my feet
Thoughts take over this time
Before I know It's five
Sometimes I laugh, other times I cry
I just don't know how to get back
To having peaceful and thoughtless nights

"KEEP SILENT"

Maybe it's not even fair
For me to reveal
Anything to you
But I can't keep things from you
It's not in me to do so
If I could, I think life would
Be easier
So if I need too
Keep silent, or just be quiet
Give me a sign
For I cannot
Read your mind

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" ARIS"

By: Walken St.Andersen
Created 8/30/2000

There's a lot of things that we should speak
Lot of things that we should come to know
A lot of terms to come to
A lot of what we already know

She doesn't even look like you
She doesn't feel jealous as so many do
She writes what she thinks
I can't say the same about you

Won't you let me free?
Won't you find somebody other than me?
I'm going to adore her Aris
I don't care if you can't forgive me

I see her smiling in the dreams we share
And all the secrets we tell each other
She's my favorite flavor
She's nothing like you
She's everything I've wanted and nothing like you

Her skin is soft and pale
Her eyes are cat-like green
She doesn't care about all that
She cares about human beings

I could tell you everything
I could tell you nothing at all
I just need to break away from you Aris
I need to cleanse myself in her dirty mind

She's a vision Aris
She's poetry in motion
She's nothing like you Aris
She's what I want right now Aris

Go off and refuse to speak english Aris
Go away and close your mind
Just fade away into the background
Maybe one day I'll make her mine Aris
Do you hear that Aris?
One day I'll make her mine!

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"CRUSH ME"

By: Elisabeth Ashton
Created 9/3/2000

When you think you know and there's nothing left to discover
I tumble in the rough
I've had enough
So what
Let it be and let it ride for I cannot become crushed when you're inside

Hide me in a picture
Uncover my eyes
Nerve in disguise
A universe so huge and frozen
And I don't want to be crushed when you're inside

Picture this and that when I'm alone and wishing for your taste
I'd call but Oh, that would be such waste!
And I don't want to be crushed while you're inside

A tale of two people living seperate lives
French kissing and rings promised to gold diggin wives
Am I next in line to be blessed or blissed with your lies?
I don't want to be crushed inside

In and out of the light where it's a fight ready to happen
I am sweet
I am worth the time to spare
I am sweet and addicting
But I don't want to be crushed inside

I promise I won't tell this sweet feeling this heat and fire
The way we leave sheets shredded and torn
You get under my skin when I make your toes curl
I'm sweet
Just another Girl
And I don't want to be crushed when you're inside

I only need you for a day
You can spare that can't you?
It's just a fucking day
For me to seduce your wicked game and open up after you come
But you know I don't want to be crushed inside

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UNTITLED

By: Natalia Victoria Gorbachev

The ultra media fasination with pain and mutilation
Continues
Moving away from arms and closer to the jugular
The crimson rip roaring rapids that pulsate that certain
Song
Pain-pump-pain-pump-pump out on the floor
Mixing up with pain and disease, Can't put it back into your
system
That now contaminated ooze of life will not do with last nights
potato ship remains
And all this winds up on some porn-smut film for the amusement
Of some fat fuck
He likes to watch as the thirteen year old runaway withers in
Pain-pump-pain-pump-pump blood and masturbated
Sperm
That is what society disolved into
This is why some people should never breed
This why, the very reason suicide was/is? Popular
This is the moment to block everything out and turn off the
Air supply
This is the action point to which life is taken
This is the end
With no morale
Attached

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