*Tired*
Im so tired,
the world is spinning around me,
it shall never stop.
Im so confused,
I dont know weather to keep it in or let it out.
If someone could just help me.
I need some one to cry on,
when somthing goes wrong.
Will you help me through my pain?
just dont laugh at me and say I'm insane.
so please just hold me close,
and forever shall we be.
*Depressing Love*
These tears that I dare shed are not tears of joy or happiness,
but instead of depressing love
Would you help me think rite now?
Will you help me think all?
would you catch me when i fall?
Or wont you even be there at all?
With these tears that i dare shed,
are not tears of joy or happiness
but instead of depressing love
*Untitled*
While my blood falls to the ground will you even care even at all?
If i break down and cry would you even help me through?
Would you cry if i wouldnt make it,
would you even care?
As my blood swirls around me all you would do is stare
I wish you would give me love
instead of coldness from your heart,
When my blood has reached the ground
would you even care at all?
*Waiting*
While I sit here in the coner awaiting your arrival,
I think of things to say to you when you have come
I have been waiting long times now,
Will you come to me?
Or will u never show and laugh at me?
As I sit here and wait for you
I start to feel like I’ve been tricked
Was this a funny joke?
I don’t understand how I always fall?
While I sit here and wait for your arrival
I sit here and wonder if u will ever be here at all.
*Lonley Road*
The empty road is all alone, no cars to pass it by.
the tree stands tall and still, as his arms reach to the sky.
No one knows of this empty road, but the wind and the sky itself.
I am alone also, and no one cares the same.
*Unloved*
As the knife cuts the soft skin,
the blood comes pouring to the floor.
She does not cry, she does not flintch,she only watches it puddle to her feet.
She just wishes someone could care, some one to help her,if only she had a friend, but now its to late-
she is gone. The slits on her wrist have never healed and no one cared.
For now she is gone, and no one will know, no one will notice until they relize she was ever there.
*Girl in the mirror*
Who is this person I see in this mirror.
She does not look like she really is.
I looked deeper to find myself it was me.
I did not understand how this could be,
I am a different person inside of thy.
But to my surprise I can now see
The truth to thy beauty.
I still do not understand, the figure seems to be wrong
I only see a girl-blonde hair brown eyes and scars on herself she can not reveal
But I shall wonder no more
For I shall ruin this “person” in this mirror who seems to be me
But if I ruin her in the mirror I would ruin me on the outside as well as in.
So I leave this thing alone and hope that when I look back this person who looks like me,
Looks better then before.
*Pain*
You cant run away from all the pain
But you can run away from people....
sometimes pain comes from people and the pain is still there
I wish this would go away
and never come back again
Im sick of this pain and I need a way
to get rid of it all.....
So instead of standing there making it worse
Come help me through this shit and help me get better.
*Miss you*
When I look up into the stars,
I try to remember the better days,
The great days.
The ones where I would spend endless hours with you laughing,
Thinking it would never end.
Maybe we took things to far,
Or maybe I did some wrong.
But whatever be the case,
I know I miss you more and more each passing day.
*Untitled*
Dont bother me theres nothing wrong
I just need some time alone
to think my thoughts,
is that so wrong?
I want to be with day and night,
because this seems so very right.
I cant not love you
theres no hope in that
cant you see?
The love you have is not for me,
but for someone else I can not see.
Why do I always play the fool,
You look past me with those eyes,
Im just standing there at the side,
It seems so cruel
and so unfair,
but lets just face it,
I really care.
*Love*
When I finally come around,
dont leave me standing,
Im not a shy one anymore,
I want to talk with you.
Ive finally got the courage,
for what I've been meaning to say,
But when I come near you,
You just turn away,
I wish I didnt love you,
but I cant help what I'm feelin',
I need to be with you,
no matter how I feel,
and I still long for you to care,
but ive now learned,
That love doesnt always come as you want it,
So I'm feeling like I'm giving up,
but is this "Love" or is this "Lust"?
Could you not seem so cold,
It makes me feel empty and so alone...
So tonight is your last chance,
before I leave the cold war path.
So look at me,
and hear me say,
what I have so longed to say,
I love you more then life its self,
and tell me what you think of me.
So I can know and forget the past,
for this must be "Lust",
it will not last
*Day vs. Night*
Darkness of night comes to day,
tears of life destory my way.
Softly rolling down cheek and nose,
to ever ending sadness.
Daytime will come and bring a new thought, a new smile to face the world with.
Then the night returns to take over my life and ruin the bright day smile.
Maybe its more then just the night vs. day.
Maybe I need to come clean.
All I know is that the tears return with every passing day.
Someday these endless nights will come to an end,
leaving me no choice of path.
But I need these tears at night to cover and release my sadness of everything....
Help me night,
to destroy the things that haunt me at day...
*Untitled*
Terrified of what you think,
lonley with this self defeat,
scared to death about life itself,
living life as best I can, Not knowing when its gonna end.
Hoping thats its not real soon,
Because I have yet to speak to you. I feel as though im broken down,
Like a little toy a child has thrown.
Waiting for loves first sign,
to show me that you are mine.
Needing comfort with every wish,
Loving you is such a bliss.
*Last Breath*
Life is overwhelming me,
Its taking what I had and throwing it away.
Dreams once dreamed have gone
Nights once fun have turned upside down
When is my turn to grasp?
Grasp at the nothing that you have.
Holding out your hand that I'll never reach
Looking for something to hide me, to sheild me from this.
Its all a thought we think
Always looking for things that dont exsist
Breathing my last breath,no one notices,
Im sufficating in this life.
I'm drowning in your life,
You cant help me.
I'm falling down.
There is no bottem.
When will this life end?
Looking for answers that I cant find,
Looking for a way to end this.
So as I take my last breath,
and reach for your hand,
I give up and fall to the depths of blackness that will take over everything I ever had..
People will never understand the pain one feels inside
when they look you dead in the eye,
and you just know theres no place for you.
I looked your way today,
but you didnt see my glance.
You never do anymore,
and it makes me wonder if you ever did mean those things you said.
I cant bare to look you in the eyes anymore.
For all I can see now is coldness that I should have sensed earlier.
There was a burning pit in me for months on end,
maybe more but I didnt show.
I just want you to know,
the coldness you have for me,
will be returned as soon as I find out why.
So to you I say,
Goodbye coldness,
I have found the new...
*If you only knew..*
If you only knew how much I cared,
How much I didnt want to let go.
How much I still miss you,
Alothough there is nothing there for me.
If you only knew I would be there for you,
To guid you in the darkest of night.
But that was just the begining,
A begining of the end,
That I still cant not see.
I feel like theres no tomorrow,
Like theres no life for me,
Like I am nothing now.
If you only knew the life I would give,
and the pain I would share,
Just to see you once again.
The ends have been torn from my finger tips and I cant get them back.
They are for now only a blur in the shadowy distance,
And they move farther away each day.
This life I am living seems weird yet numb,
and I cant think of a better day then when I was with you.
If you only knew,
The prices I am paying for letting things go.
For letting things beyond my grasp to slip away to darkness.
But you dont know whats going through my head,
What thoughts are plain horrid,
and why this knife is in my hand.
You dont know the life I live,
The things I do,
and why, oh why I needed you.
And you wont know now,
because its all over and done,
the end has come for me,
But not as soon-
If you only knew...
*Fooled Love*
Winter coldness sends chills down my spine,
And I remember a time when I was happy to see your face.
Now the time has come and gone,
and I sit here and wonder if your thinking of me.
I doubt you are,
But just for a second I wish you were,
So I could remember us together, happy. But time changes,
And people change too. Love is a gift,
That is taken away just as fast too...
Dont be fooled by love,
It will make a fool of you too...
*Darkness*
"Darkness breaks and the sun fades,
A feeling inside me is changing the same.
I can not see the path before me
For I have to suffer on my own.
Darkness ruins my thoughts and dreams,
But brings new beginnings without a name. My time is shortened with a sweet savoring breath,
It’s not my last,
at least for now. I long to be there near you.
I long to guide you down the path.
I want you to be there for me,
When I take my last sweet breath,
Filling my lungs with your essence.
Now, I'm fading away into the darkness,
And I'm never looking back."
*Cold Heart*
"Ripped my heart from my chest,
dont regret it the least bit,
who else would have stabed it besides me?
Mixed up feelings I can not hide,
without a name or any sign..
I crushed a life and it makes me sick,
to think of nothing but myself.
I have no heart, no feelings to express,
Just a cold heart,
you must have known from the start,
I was nothing but bad,
But I guess I forgot to tell you...
about the life that I dont have..."
