How could she think he didn’t love her? His sweet Dee Dee? He held her to his chest as she cried for a moment, but he did not want her to believe a second longer that she wasn’t special to him. His oldest child, the one that has stolen his heart on sight.
“I love you Dee Dee, I could Never hate you,” he whispered into her hair.
She looked up at him with tears still in her eyes.
“But Daddy you love Leigh now,” she said with a sniffle.
“Honey, don’t you love Mommy and Me?”
She nodded.
“Then can’t I love all you, ‘little rascals’?” he asked with a teasing tone.
She smiled up at him before she put her head back against his chest.
“Do you know when I first felt love for you?”
If I had known about you from the start I would have fallen for you sooner, kid.
“No, Daddy,when?”
He sighed.
“When I first laid eyes on you. You were so small and sweet, with your hazel eyes like mine. You grinned up at me as you tried to talk but you didn’t know how so you smiled.”
She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand.
“I did?”
He nodded before he kissed her forehead, then her nose and wet cheeks.
“How about we have ice cream late tonight like we used to?” He asked.
Lately, Deanna had been Cassie’s shadow, while Cassidy followed them both around. He rarely spent more than a few minutes a day with the little girl. Though from time to time they still had their late night snacks, he had begun to think they were more his thing than hers. He had not known she even desired his company. No wonder she thought he didn’t like her anymore. He promised himself to make time to be with each child everyday. It’s what fathers do.
“Promise, Daddy.”
“I Promise Dee Dee.”

At the hospital, Cassie surprised Dean as she pulled him aside to talk privately with him. He pulled her into his arms with a grin.
“What’s up Honey?”
“You and I are going on vacation for a week, alone,” she said with a wide smile.
“What? How?”
She told him how Missouri had agreed to stay with the children. Since Dean didn’t start his job for two weeks it was perfect timing.
“But we don’t leave until this coming weekend. We are going to Cozumel. I know it’s not the best place but at least we will have time alone.
Dean couldn’t stop grinning. Time alone was unheard of for them. They hadn’t been alone since their honeymoon or maybe it just seemed that way with four kids.
“It sounds great how long have you been planning this?”
“Actually, Missouri set it all up for us. She thought we needed a break especially since we are getting two more little ones in the house now.
Dean had thought of that, he wasn’t positive Sam and Sara being in their home was going to work. But, until they were financially stable the brothers would have to room together even if things got a bit cramped. It was the way families stood by one another that counted.

They went back to the nursery window to ooh and aah over the babies with everyone else. Missouri took snapshots to take home with her. The children pointed and smiled. Deanna pushed her nose against the glass to take a closer look at her cousins. When she walked over to Dean she had a frown he knelt down to her level.
“What’s up?”
“Daddy they ain’t pretty,” she whispered in his ear.
Dean smiled at his daughter but he didn’t correct her English this one time. He realized that he spent most of his time reprimanding her for small things and inquiring about the other children. She was too young to be in charge of anyone let alone her siblings. She was still a baby herself; he and Cassie needed to begin to treat her as such. He hoped to talk to Cassie about it later that night.
“Everyday that you see them they will look better,” he said as she hugged him before she went back to the window.
“K daddy,” she grinned.

Cassie watched Dean as he put his pajamas back on after they made love that night. Cassidy had finally relented and spent the night in her own room.
“Gotta date?” she teased him knowing he was going to have ice cream with Deanna. “Yep, with a cute little thing,” he said with a grin as he left the room.
Dean wasn’t surprised to see Deanna sat with her teddy bear as she waited for him. “Miss Dee Dee,” he said with a big smile.
“Hi Daddy,” she grinned as he picked her up.
“We don’t want to wake everyone on the way to the kitchen,” he whispered as they went down the stairs.

Sam spent the night at the hospital with Sara and the babies. He watched Sara as she slept. Part of him was more than a bit nervous about his children being open to attack. The staff had consented to let them be in the room with them thanks to a little bit of pressure from his new mother-in-law. He wondered over to look in on his little boy who was in the incubator. He watched as the baby sucked his hand and squinted against the light. Isabelle was fast asleep in her special crib. She seemed peaceful.

Deanna and Dean sat the kitchen table as they had their treat. Deanna talked non-stop about Jason, Leigh and Marty and how naughty they were. Dean tried not to laugh but he grinned at her now and again. She reminded him so much of Cassie. Her smile, her sense of humor it was amazing.
“Dee Dee promise me you won’t ever again think I do not love you,” he insisted when she took a break from talking.
“I promise Daddy,” she said with a small smile with a sparkle in her hazel eyes.
“Good, because it will never happen. You are my sweet girl, forever, even after you get married and have your own kids.”
“No Daddy, I am staying here with you and mommy.”
“Good girl,” Dean said with a grin.
He would always remember this night. When his daughter wanted to stay at home forever, of course, he was certain in a few years her thoughts would change.

***
Four days later, Sam and Sara brought the twins home. It was a quiet affair no one wanted to stress out the new mother and father. John and Vickie had plans to visit in two days when they arrived back from their honeymoon. Missouri had taken Marty and Deanna, and Jason outside to play while Cassie packed to leave the next morning on vacation. Dean had gone to a meeting at his new place of employment and arrived home after the Young Winchesters.
“Hey,” he said to Cassie as she compared to outfits as she stood in the middle of the room.
“Hey, Baby.”
“What are you doing?”
“Trying to decide which one to take.”
She held an off the shoulder red lace blouse in one hand and a grey short sleeved wrapped blouse in the other.
“I choose the red,” Dean said as he walked in the closet to get out of his dress slacks and shirt.
“I see your idea of dressing this trip is going to be undressing,” Cassie teased him.
“Less is best when there is just the two of us,” he said as he grabbed her from behind, thankfully after she had put the clothes away.
“Saves time, right?” she laughed.
“Oh Yea,” he said before he kissed her.

Once they were at the airport the next day Dean began to have second thoughts. He was a bit green when Cassie looked over at him once they checked in at the gate.
“It will be fine, Sweetie,” she encouraged him as he looked crossly at her.
“We can drive to Mexico in a couple of days,” he said hopefully.
“And spend most of our time on the road, not a chance,” she replied.
He nodded, he knew she was right, but he still hated to fly. They sat down to wait and she held his hand. To everyone else it may have looked like affection when in reality it was to keep him in his seat. He tugged on the collar of his tee shirt as his fear began to rise to the surface.
“Relax, Dean, it will be fine,” she said in an effort to comfort him.
He licked his lips. This was crazy he could fight demons but he couldn’t fly in a plane, something people did every day. He took a deep breath as he tried to do as she asked, relax. Think of the time we are going to have together, alone at least. Okay that is working, he thought.

Cassie watched him with hopes that he would be okay. When they finally boarded the plane they sat near the front. Dean seemed to be calmer and more at ease by the time he had two beers. He even teased a bit about the Mile High Club. Cassie smiled before she leaned against the window and fell asleep. When she awoke a bit later, Dean wasn’t beside her. She looked around and found him near the back speaking to a flight attendant. He seemed to be having an animated conversation with her. For a moment, Cassie was jealous. Seems he is getting over his fear. When he saw that he was being watched by her he strolled back to their seat.

“Hey, sleepyhead.”
“Hey yourself,” she said as she tried to smile.
“What’s wrong?” he asked with concern.
“Nothing,” she said as she looked out the window.
“I thought you would be happy that I relaxed enough to walk around a bit.”
“I am,” she said as she tried the smile again though it didn’t reach her eyes.
“Tell me you aren’t jealous.”
“Do I have a reason to be?” she asked as she looked in her husband’s eyes.
“No.”
He pulled her hand into his before he kissed it.
“Never, Sweetie,” he said as he leaned over to kiss her lips.
“Then I am not.”
Dean wasn’t convinced but he let it drop, maybe a bit of jealousy wasn’t all bad for the marriage. Though it had not been his goal and he had not gone to find someone to “chat up.”

As soon as they were in the hotel room, Dean dropped the bags on the floor. Cassie was barely in the room before he pushed her against the door and lifted her dress. He was surprised to find she wore no panties. He grinned against her neck as he caressed her soft behind.
“Oh, you had the same thing in mind,” he said as he picked her up to lay her on the bed. She smiled as she watched him undress in front of her.
“You said less is better, right?”
She raised her legs before he straddled her body. She was more than ready after all the time without her underwear, which had been the purpose to begin with. They made love slow and without interruption.

Later, that night they finally left the room to go out to eat.
“So far so good,” he said.
“You mean no urgent calls from Deanna?”
“Exactly,” he grinned.
“I think Missouri can handle them she said for us to just enjoy ourselves.” They walked hand in hand as they went into the hotel restaurant. It was modern and clean; not many people were about at nine o’clock at night. Most had headed off to the clubs by that time but they just wanted to have a meal and enjoy the peace.

Once they had ordered they stared into one another’s eyes. Cassie wore a light weight olive dress with a deeply veed front that hit her mid thigh. Dean had his jeans and a polo shirt of navy that Cassie had picked out.
“This is nice.”
“Yes, it is. Remember our honeymoon?” she asked.
“I do, then we didn’t leave the room for the first two days,” he laughed.
“Well, we have grown a bit since then. Now we know we can pace ourselves,” she said.
Dean smiled, they had come a long way since they married. He had been unsure of how they would work out despite the fact that they were in love. Cassie’s stubbornness had stalled them more than once. Many days he had been afraid he would come home to find his wife and daughter gone. Cassie had the same fears about Dean in the beginning, she had always felt relief when he walked in the door those first couple of years.

“Dean, earlier, I was jealous. I…”
“It’s okay just know that its you I want.”
“I do know that, it was stupid.”
He reached across the table to hold her hand.
“Cas, when I thought you were going to die, I knew my life would not be the same without you. I have feel that way everyday, you do not have any reason to worry.”
“I don’t know if I will ever feel that confident, though I believe you.”
“Why?”
She shrugged.
“People change, Dean, I just ask that if you do decide to walk away that you will tell me first.”
“I am not going anywhere, but if it ever came down to walking away you will know in advance,” he insisted.
“Thank you.”
He knew there was no way to convince her except to do what he promised. Maybe she was right people do change, maybe she is just protecting herself by having a bit of doubt. Though he had no desire to ever desert his wife and children.

Sam and Sara settled in with the children easily.
“Well if all they do is sleep, eat and poop the first few months, this will be a breeze,” Sam told Sara on the third night after the kids came home from the hospital.
She grinned as she looked down at the two cribs. They were both sound asleep though Izzie tended to wake up before he brother. Sam pulled Sara into his arms as he stood over her and the babies.
“Thank you for this beauties,” he said.
“You are welcome, Mr. Winchester,” she said as she turned into his embrace.

TBC


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