these are my sorrows
(and just a few of the reasons why I would much rather be in Heaven)

NOTE: Sorry guys if this seems somewhat "RAWR-ish" or like I'm ranting...I'm kind of tired, I'm sad to say.

my sorrows:
that my brother is letting himself fail English and other classes in his last year of high school due to the fact that he isn't even attempting to finish his work or start his assignments without my help

(because of this, I am quite concerned that he won't be able to finish 12th grade and graduate with his classmates this year)

that my computer refuses to give me online access at certain times of the day when I am at home

(there's a long and irritating story behind this dilemna)

that I can't finish all the good tasks that I schedual for myself

that I find myself lonely and irritated and misunderstood

that I wander away from God and from happiness

that I can't be the person who I want to be

that I don't give enough love to others- even though I want to

that I forget the beauty of all created things...

yes, these are my sorrows
I remember them today
since this is what I have experienced so far

and of all of them
currently the first troubles me the most

I pray that my brother will change.

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EDIT: Sorry to start off the week with such a sad blog entry; possibly, I'll be posting the other happier stuff [as well as some news] later on today- that is, after I do some important stuff! like...study, and clean house. ^_^;;