test entry
-I've been trying hard to update this blog of mine since earlier this week on July 5th but I haven't seen my posts go through which is a bit perturbing to say the least.

Anyway, if this goes through then I'll see if I can also add the entry that I wanted to put here previously- it's no longer as timely, but this is where I originally wanted to put it so I will keep trying.


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life now: ah, as for myself... I'm pretty much going to be offline as I need to focus and get things done- also, it's summer where I am and it's best to spend that season having fun and being with people so I'm cutting down (out actually) a great deal of computer time (if not completely ;)


...so much has happened since April of this year...
I am so happy to have met Cheryl, and to have become part of the Home of the Mother- we have Catholic fellowship meetings once each week (lately, that's been every Wednesday...) and I feel that through these discussions that I've been learning and remembering a lot.

-thing is... I really REALLY wish that the other members of our group would add more to the discussion oftentimes, I feel that it's me mostly who puts a lot of words out and really wants to talk through whatever the topic is... the others seem so reluctant to share for fear that they won't be able to express their thoughts well in a way that we can understand- but while comprehension is important, it is moreso of importance [to me anyway] that they at least TRY! -things don't happen if one doesn't put forth enough effort and... I don't want to be "the speaker that everyone else listens to" I want to be just one of many who has words to say- I don't want to be the only one sharing my thoughts, I already know what it is that I think and I have a hard enough time getting it out of me as it is. *Daiko sad*

and well, besides that there are other things going on within the group that I am not happy to see but they aren't anything that I can't handle with God's help...

waah! I've let so many days go by un-chronicled... and yet, maybe I can write them out well now since a great deal of the passion of those days have gone by.

ah~ I am glad to be alive
I've been struck with small bouts of sadness and even had one yesterday, and still though those things do hurt me and I get taken down by them somewhat I can see now that that happens in response to my spiritual growth or rather, are even a part of my maturing- my emotions may be attacked, but I am to stand firm despite them and even grow and become stronger though others might be against me~

-life calls me, I'd love to continue this entry but this is meant to be a quick test- there's lunch to prepare and a floor to sleep SWEEP! (I wonder why I made that mistake -.-; ...) as well as LOADS of unfinished artwork that could use my hands so I am off going to get offline!


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EDIT: darn it... why did this entry post, but not the other one? -is it because I took so many online quizzes and wanted to post the results? *doesn't know*



-Daiko~
(pray for me)
(please be well- take care of yourself.)