is not the same as
the times where I have not felt motivated [to act]
though this feels quite similar
I think this is due to a difference in degree
rather than in kind actually...
Okay, as much as I like to wax poetic
I am aware that I may end up being rather cryptic to my readers, and so I shall explain
and try to do so in a way that is free of frills, so to speak.
I've felt something like being burnt out lately
(yes, I know there's something wrong with the sentence above, but I don't know what it is that I should do to remedy this awkwardness- bleck, I don't even know if I'm spelling things correctly either... @.@;; help!! ...)
something,
something I don't know how to explain
as efficiently
as effectively
...
as CLEARLY
as I'd like.
I love drawing
and I still have my abilities
as an artist
but, it's too hard for me to draw now
-maybe this is just some fleeting mood
but if it is, I fear that it's stayed with me for too long...
I could be wrong though. -sigh-
I am aloof and quiet
I don't know why
I don't seem to be able to say much or to respond
I've been so irritated lately
I am not sure of what it is that I should do.
I don't like this
at least, I know that.
ugh.
-now, I'm confusing myself...
oh well, even if it isn't clear now
it won't hurt me
I'll just be bothered for a bit,
but
I can get over this
...I'll be okay
God will help me,
and I have people who truly love me
I don't need anything.
-this storm will pass.
I think I feel better already.
-Daiko~