trepidation in my heart...
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: FEAR!! (in my own heart- for others)
Topic: wondering where I stand
I really really hate it.
-I do understand that fear is a natural reaction and emotion with regards to things, but I hate how unreasonable it can be, and how pervasive it is.

I also dislike how stupid people can be at times with regard to obedience- I know that it is hard to do things that someone else wants you to do at times, but it can be helpful and make life much more easier to go through- why cause unnecessary stress for yourself? I really don't understand...

from the above you may get the impression that appeasement appeals to me, but it does not. What I am against is the audacity that some individuals have in not fufilling reasonable requests.

-yes, this makes me very angry!
If your father calls for you, you should go to him- and if you disobey him, then he has the right to be upset- what need do we children have to unnecessarily upset our parents?! -they have enough stresses already...

this sort of thing happens to often around me, and it irritates and frightens me... very, very much.

...

Lord, save me from my fear
-it is the faith-killer
and I don't need my beliefs to die,
I don't want that at all.

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Okay, it seems that though I posted this much earlier this morning (Eastern time) I still haven't been able to view this entry in my blog all day and it has been set to a public viewing- I don't understand this, but I wonder... is it this way because someone doesn't wish to hear this from me? I don't really know, but I do know that I'm feeling a bit better now than when I first wrote this...

-I still need help though. -sigh-


-Daiko~
(pray for me please!)