...lately, I've been having this "atmosphere" about myself that I call: earthly weariness. -sigh- It's something like this: when I feel almost apathetic and tired of everything, when I have no relief from anything (save from God) -and, it's suffering for me.
I don't know, I mean- I know that feeling this way is an integral part of the human experience. I know that is similar to ennui (boredom). I know there is a distinct difference between the two, with the former being more secular as in: "I'm bored, I think I'll go watch Fruits Basket or something..." and the latter being more spiritual: "God, when are You coming back, it's so awful here...and yet...I don't know if You really should return now..." but how one goes about getting rid of these two attacks-I'm not too sure. (One should do well to remember that these are indeed attacks they are demonic in nature, and intend to dishearten the target- in this case, I am the target.)
But...I do know the answer-to getting through these times even if I can't put them into words (earthly speech) I remember, and...I will fight!
I will remember that there is a difference between all the multiples of myself that have been created due to the fractioning power of the world. I will remember that the Earth (while beautiful) is not my home, and that all worldly fun things I experience here are merely passing joys- and that there is more there is truly beautiful things to come.
Because of this, I can be one whole person again. I will continue to seek God, and love my fellow man. I will remember, I will fight- I am overjoyed.
Overjoyed~
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yeah... *smiles*