In my zeal to reach out to others I have been wounded. Still, wounds and scars are fine as long as the heart beneath is pure and whole. And thank God that I know the one who patches up all broken things. -sigh-
I wonder, God how exactly is it that you love someone as stupid as me? (I know that whenever I fall you always pick me up, even if it's my own fault that I fell in the first place...-sigh-) ...I see, you love me for who I am, even though I'm not yet the girl you want me to be. I want to be perfect, I don't want to make mistakes, I hate my humanity- but, but this is the gift you have given to me. This gift enables me to have compassion, to understand pain, to remember what suffering feels like- if I can be hurt, I can be healed. I can help to heal.
So, you put me to the test so that I may grow and so that I may win against the enemy. I fight so that I will continue to be yours and only yours. I love when I am hurt: the deeper the pain, the deeper my level of love and compassion.
Thank you God. I am human.
(It hurts so much though *cries*)
...please, I beg of you forgive me...forgive me for my sins, the follies I have committed...
I will stand and fight for my one and only true friend, my God and so I will suffer. Lord, please grant me the grace to bear my pains well- to sing and to bless, not to run and hide.
I love you Lord, and I love the people on this Earth.
Posted by Daiko
at 5:44 PM EDT
Updated: Wednesday, October 15, 2003 5:48 PM EDT
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