...and so, my life goes on.
It's not the best in the world, nor is it noted by many
but it is still the gift that God gave me.
Even if I do not understand it
even if others do not understand it
it is still precious.
I need to learn how to thank God for this life
I need to learn how to live this life (even if I don't like it)
I need to learn how to live so that I will be able to reach others (even if I am hurt by them or even if they are hurt by me...)
I need to learn how to be thankful for this life
I need to learn how to not be afraid in this life
I need to learn how to love during this life
I need to learn how to understand during this life
I need to learn how to face scary things during this life.
I live because I've been called to live.
I live despite the fact that I haven't always wanted to live.
I live because I've been designed to live.
I live despite the fact that I haven't always been in touch with the One who wants me to live.
I live because I've been created by Someone who cares for me.
I live despite the fact that I haven't always understood my Creator.
I live because I've been made to interact with others and to help them to bear their burdens during their own lives.
I live despite the fact that I haven't always been able to bear my own burdens.
I live because I've been summoned to be a sentient creature that has some meaning.
I live despite the fact that I don't fully know what that meaning is.
I live- God made me.
And somehow, He'll get me through this
I don't know how or why
I don't know many of the details
I just know He will, somehow.
I need to live
I need to act
I need to be His.
And I wonder
with my strength that can wonder
about this person that I am
this one that God created
that sometimes
I don't know why
and I wonder why
like a curious child.
I need to be a trusting child.
Without worry, or fear
or apathy
or remorse
or regret
or anger
or anxiety
still, how do I do this?
I need to learn...