let me write seriously and fully even after emotional highs have passed...
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: singing downstairs~
Last night, I finally got the book Deliverance from Evil Spirits a Practical Manual by Francis MacNutt
-it was well worth my two month wait and honestly, I DO recommend it strongly to all serious Christians.

The book covers quite a few subjects
from the existence of evil in demonic form
to levels of infestation
and levels of demons according to hierarchy

it also confronts the pervasive Western beliefs of Peleganism and Secularism

and after reading it...
though I don't identify myself as secular (nor conciously wish to do so) I find that I do fall into Western schools of thought -especially Pelegansim.

Now that I think about it, that is extremely foolish of me- especially since I have had the honor of encountering an angel... foolish that one who has actually seen an angel would come to believe or rather live as if she could save herself merely by being good... -sigh- it's a very common human belief though.

...I also see that there is quite a bit to myself that I was blind about earlier- and I will put a stop to all my curiosity about dark ungodly things- because that isn't anything that I want to be involved with -sigh-

I remember that I have a book on palm reading that I got from a book fair at school some years back- in High school actually, I remember reading it and looking into it and being interested in it

I didn't want to know the future, I just wanted to know about the thing itself and how it worked- I might have been innocent enough about that, but I renounce that now- I don't need that sort of information, and what is the use for me to pursue knowledge if it is not from God? I could end up lying to myself or hurting myself in other ways

so... when I find that old book of mine, I will burn it.

...I hope that I'll be able to help grandma get rid of all her strange objects- I know that she's old and that she doesn't understand things as well as she used to, but that's not an excuse for her to get caught up in occult things- and I want to protect her... I think letting her find out for herself by reading the book would be the best course of action

and so, I find that it is time to renew and purify myself again (and maybe after I do so, I will be able to feel more of the Joy of Advent...)

Lord, I want to come home to You- won't you help me more and more?

(let's go home together for Advent...??)

...

-Daiko~
(pray for me)
(please be well~)