Ya~sashii koto~u...
I'm seeing wonderful things as my life goes on. ^^ One of which is the sweet and delicate development of my friend's character- he's become so much more... ah~ human now. It's quite lovely.

Granted, the changes are quite subtle (they're really not overt at all-some wouldn't notice unless they were looking really hard) but they are there!!

*cheers*

Lord, I love it!!

(to everyone: ah~ don't you just love it when the author alludes to something and doesn't tell you all the details? -at least, I hope you do... o.o <-me is weird~ ^.^;;; )

I can see Mary in earthly mothers
...besides my whole dilemna of missing Confession by a few seconds every week or so, I've had other experiences today too.

^_^ Happily, this was a good one.

You see, early this morning- I had went to a friend's house to fufill a promise I had made the night before: to deliver his birthday present a day early, and to come when he was least expecting it. And...I did!! *wai~ Wai~!* heh. It seems that God decided to have mercy on silly little me: He caused me to rise early this morning so that I could do as I said (yay!).

Well, I got to my friend's house- right, then I was gently putting the wrapped package down on the bench near the front door when--I screamed!! -.-;; My friend's mom had come to the door- but she greeted me warmly and hugged me anyway. She's so kind- I was able to see Mary in her. That was nice.

*ha ha ha~* I'm so silly, it's just funny.

^_^ (...and that was how I started today.)

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EDIT: I kinda forgot to put something in here...an~ about mothers in general: they're nice, and through them one can see other aspects of their friends- I can learn lots more about my friends through their parents than they can ever tell me. It's so amazing- I love it!! *daisukii~~!*

-sigh- I...just want to go to confession... *is sad*
...I haven't committed any grave sins or anything like that, it's just that- well~ everytime the opportunity for me to recieve this Sacrament appears- I, I always seem to miss it!! *is sad*

Though my sins are light, I really want to confess them. I want to have the grace the Lord desires to give me- I desire to recieve and He desires to give: -sigh- my condition is so odd...

happy, happy, Happy me: a locked thread ^_^ (random-ish)
scary-ness (MT forums)

that is the linkie to the mistake I made earlier, I am so glad that my friend Charvac finally locked it. (The way he ended the thread is so cute *laughs some more* ...)

...? yes, confusing. Well, pretty much that's just a treat- it has to do with some online friends and forumites, so if you (the reader) is someone I know from the outside world I hope you aren't befuddled anymore. (I am though... 0.o)

oh my...

I feel like running away...
Lord, I'm not one worthy of speaking to you (much less asking silly questions) but, why is it that You have created me to be so timid? Why is it that when I make honest mistakes that I get so flustered and frightened that I want to run away.

...actually, I know that You, my God created me to be brave and strong and that I am not as You desire me to be- it's kind of sad. I have irrational fears, I am human- I don't like it. But, I can trust more in You my Lord and my God because of this frailty of mine. It's so paradoxal- I love and hate this earthly life of mine.

hah ha ha~~ ^^;; how easy it is for me to turn some molehills into mountains *laughs at self*

^_^ everybody, laugh now.

Litany of Humility
(this is a prayer I need to say everyday-at least, so that I may love myself less, and others more...)

LITANY OF HUMILITY
-as accustomed to be said after celebration of Mass, by Merry Cardinal del Val, secretary of state to Pope Saint Pius X
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O Jesus, meek and humble of heart,
Hear me.

From the desire of being esteemed,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the desire of being loved,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the desire of being extolled,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the desire of being honored,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the desire of being praised,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the desire of being preferred to others,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the desire of being consulted,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the desire of being approved,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

***
From the fear of being humiliated,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of being despised,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of suffering rebukes,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of being calumniated,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of being forgotten,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of being ridiculed,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of being wronged,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of being suspected,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

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That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be esteemed more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That, in the opinion of the world,
others may increase and I may decrease,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be chosen and I set aside,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be praised and I go unnoticed,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be preferred to me in everything,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may become holier than I,
provided that I may become as holy as I should,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

Amen!!

(...it's kinda scary how appropriate this prayer is for me today... o_0!! ...)

a lesson in humility...(my pride takes a fall)
-sigh- I had all these plans for how perfect *everything* I wanted to create was "supposed to be"- well, I didn't get my way. ^_^ It's odd, but I don't need to complain- it's good for me to suffer a bit and be mortified, that way I will remain humble.

God's giving me a lesson here.

...

It is a bit odd that I can get worked up over a few little things. I tend to think and plan out things in detail and do that for several days without getting anywhere; this happens whenever I start a project (or rather, imagine I'm starting a project).

But! I'm still alive and sane (I think...)

praise God.

^_^