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a saint in training: my life on Earth
Monday, January 12, 2004
third day of being twenty
... that's right, Daiko is now 20 years of age!! How does it feel? you ask... well, kinda scary and fun at the same time. ^_^;; Anyhow, since some of my readers have been so kind to pardon me from having a tight, and restrictive blogging schedual- I will most likely be blogging less, but that does not mean abandonment of this Daiko-project. Not at all- I really enjoy this very much (though I don't always have the time for it ^^;;) and so, thanks everyone bear with me please. Oh yeah, as a "treat" you guys who are reading this can find something of mine in the comment section of this entry (that is only if you follow the directions...) *laughs deviantly* ... pray for me. ^_^;; ...
Thursday, January 8, 2004
if you wonder where Daiko is and where she's going...
I'll tell you. -sigh- Yeah, I know that the posting schedual of the blog has changed somewhat- now it's every other day as well as the original "no blogging on Sunday" lineup. Which for me is not bad- I feel that this way, I can write better...well, it's not just that, and I'm still not sure how this is all going to work out [yes, this is due to the fact that I can't use my home computer anymore- it's going out for repairs since there's a virus inside it (or some other evil thing, it's got problems)- sad, isn't it?] ...and so, I'm going to try to have this blog be full of high quality entries as opposed to a high ammount of entries that I had posted last year. ... the fact that I no longer have a working computer at home- how do I feel about that? I don't really mind. It's nice not being online so much that way, I can appreciate my house and work on my life even more (I need to devote more energy to finding a good job anyways) so, things are pretty decent over here in my world ...just need to plan for the future and get things worked out -wait!! I forgot something really important!! ... I need to make sure that I pray well everyday for my readers as well as everyone else. -sigh- yes, that's a good resolution for me to keep this year. -and I will... pray for me.
Tuesday, January 6, 2004
a small space of time
in which one waits and learns then matures and grows to be able to love to be responsive to others and... to know God. -that's what life is in a nutshell, isn't it? ... I guess it's not really that strange, but life is always like this- I find that interesting in an odd way. Even when you're just waiting for a friend somewhere, sometime- one is still living and there is an opportunity for all of the things I have listed above... wow. ^^;; I'm not trying to make a mountain out of a molehill or anything, I just see these little details of life and I analyze them- sometimes, it scares me what I find, especially when I haven't meant to find it. ... So, what do I do in this small space of time? Whether I'm waiting for a few minutes for a friend to make their appearance, or for this life to come to it's natural end...what am I to do? ...in such a small space of time.
first quiz of the year...
as to accuracy [which I regularily would comment on after taking a quiz] I have no idea whether this is or not- I can't tell. ![greenhair](http://images.quizilla.com/R/Ruri-chan/1039891556_Agreen.JPG) Your anime hair color is green. What is your anime hair color? brought to you by Quizilla-still, this may look good on me if I was an anime character of course. ah~ how nice to be blogging again. ^_^ ... [I hope I'll be able to blog more, I still have several things to do...things require my focused attention and I don't know what's going to happen...]
Saturday, January 3, 2004
third day of this new year
and I end up disappearing (with regards to my blog ^^;) As usual, I didn't mean to- just that my computer is truly on the fritz and is going to be repaired quite soon. -sigh- that is so not fun. Well, something good happened today actually just a few minutes ago: I just got out of my first confession of the new year! -and so, I am free of sin... at least for a while. -sigh- You know, I mean to write so much here I have a lot of plans for the things that I want to do and the things that I want to say. ^^;; I still have quite a bit of backwork with regards to this place, and this isn't even a paid job (it would be interesting if this was though)- this is merely one of my personal projects. /me is so crazy. I want to write a reflection of last year -to highlight certain events in my life -to explain who I am to a further degree and especially, to try to pick up from where I last left off- ugh. Anyways, I'm glad that there's still time and opportuninties for me to accomplish all that- also, it's not as if those things are most important anyhow. It's living well and being a good child of God that is of the utmost importance. ... God help me. coming soon: Daiko adds reviews and basic blogging lessons on a [somewhat] regular basis! [-as well as other things...] keep on praying for me!
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
good-bye to this year...
and here it is, the last day of this 2003 solar year. I feel somewhat melancholy. I woke up this morning with high hopes for this time, to have the end of this be wonderful and full of joy- and yet, I've been disappointed. I know that my brothers don't find this day to be as special as I do, and that they don't feel the same need to finish everything up. To have one's affairs tied up and put in place, to be ordered and at peace; at least, that's how I feel from observing the Kabigon. -maybe, it's just in his nature to be easy-going, and yet I see how fleeting the day is- I lament all my wasted time. -sigh- I wish more to have no more regret for the rest of my life- I know that is quite unrealistic, but having regrets causes too much heartache. I would like a peaceful year. ...there's a lot that I would like actually. -it's been said that "want" is the cause of a lot of the troubles in this world, and while that may be true with regards to many things- wanting what is truly good is not a troublesome thing... I want things to be better. I'm so tired. I'm sorrowful. and still, I have high hopes in the Lord and still, I will trust Him with my joy and I will still smile even though I feel almost dead inside. help~ **** I don't know what to do, I feel like I've been discarded that within my family there is little love for the person that I am little patience with regards to my mistakes little mercy with regards to things I do not intend to do love that goes toward things (from other family members) rather than towards me or others I wish I could make this clear I wish I could make this stop. I will leave for now...
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
break the silence
then burn away darkness with firey zealand remember all the good things that have passed and that are yet to come the promises given for a vibrant future of renewal and kind regards of friends and peoples of passing beauties and lasting joys I celebrate these and the other blessings that God has given me, especially in the gift of my readers heh. I find it to be a very kind act that people who have not known me in the physical world actually feel something for me here and pray for me. That these same people take time out of their lives to read my entries, to care and to pray. Lord, I am thankful this in itself is a great present I have had such a rich Christmas because I've been given so much and been through the darkness which makes the light even sweeter and all the more beautiful having bad times reveals how wonderful things are when times are good- it makes me grateful, and clarifies my vision as to what is best. Thank you. **** NOTE: Yes, I am quite aware that this is an odd way to post (and no, I don't post like this that often) but I needed to get through my writers block, and these thoughts [are the ones that really] jumped out [at me]. ^_^;;
Saturday, December 27, 2003
Kabigon: a movie you can take your kids to see!!
these are the quiz results that my younger brother ( the Kabigon) got. ![](http://www.readingforresults.com/rating/g.jpg) My life is rated G. What is your life rated?[Kabi, remember to put this up on your site later.] **** EDIT: Kabi helped me to change the title of this entry to be more gramatically accurate. originally it was: Kabigon: a wonderful movie you can take your kids to go see!! the "go" wasn't necessary, it was quite awkward as well. ^^; (also, I just love the way that my blog acts up at times [/sarcasm])
Friday, December 26, 2003
Observed silence
during the passage of High Holy Days... or so I wish that was what I had been doing for two days. Actually, I had been away doing things during the Christ Mass and the day after the 25th of December. -sigh- So much activity, and yet I did so little, I don't like that feeling too well. I had wanted to post a little something before I attended Midnight Mass on Christmas eve; and here it is: Christmas is (not about)
hurt feelings and being angry with others (no matter how much they "deserve it")
and being upset and frustrated (with the way that people do things or with missed opportunities or anger at things not done well)
Christmas is Christ Mass.
It is about Jesus.
The one who even while he was dying slowly and painfully the one who was able to look down from the cross while steeped deeply in his own pain and say, "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do."
Humanity says Be angry, you've got every right to be!!
-but God says otherwise.
If I can put down my hurt feelings, pardon those who have incensed me, give mercy and be merciful despite what I feel
then, and only then will I be more like Jesus
and that is the best person that I should ever resemble.
Merry Christ Mass everyone even if you're not understood and don't feel loved and seem as if you have no hope
-it's not true.
Merry Christ Mass.
I'm praying for you~
Thankfully, most of the troubles that I went through during that time were resolved nicely- and for that, I am ever so grateful to God. -sigh- ...somehow, I can return to my regular blogging habits; still, I will do my best to live my life well first. I pray that you've all had a wonderful Christ Mass day, and I will keep praying thoughout the rest of this year... pray for me~ **** EDIT: -sigh- Well, as I've said before, this blog just doesn't seem to like certain types of HTML and will start acting "funny" at times- please do not let this bother you too much. Thank you.
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
...and all is somewhat darkened.
-at least with regards to some things, as in zeal. -sigh- ...I can't believe that it's almost Christ Mass- actually, that's not totally true, I guess it's just that I'm not "prepared"/"ready"? [I don't even know what word to use to describe what it is that I am going through this season...ugh.] Anyways, I do love this time of year but things are different now- I do my best to keep a light, child-like heart and...still, my heart is heavy with the wondering about things. I've been too inactive and quiet for so long now. Lord, I pray that I will get better as will my friends (I am hoping that you will be well iamchosen... I do understand apathy and what it feels like to not be hungry for the Word of God- you can get through it.) I really don't know what to say... but I said something anyway. hn. interesting. praying for you~
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