the second online quiz
that the Daiko took:

I took the What Mythological Creature Are you? test by lj user peacefulchaos!

...and I'm not sure what this is...
anyone care to explain?

all this time
left un-blogged about...where does it go?

...

Okay, that was just silly.

-since you know, as I do
that I'm alive and well during that time
(though I am offline and therefore, out of reach to my friends and blog-readers ^^;;)

...ah, I'm sorry that I don't have much to say at the moment- but I am glad that everyone's putting up with me. Everyone has a period of dead air at times, even Mr. O' Riely of television fame.

would that mean that I'm in good company?

...I don't know.

-anyway, I'm going to pray for all of you now.
and possibly, I'm going to upload several pictures I've drawn with my new stuff I got for my birthday -it'll be at deviant ART of course.

pray for me~

(and thank you everyone for not minding my absence too much- I do though. ^^;;)

wondering what actions to take
yes, that's almost a hallmark of mine.

I always wonder what it is that I should be doing
-not only with regards to this blog and my life in general, but with everything

-I even wonder whether this action is in itself good or bad... upon further thought and reflection... I don't really know.

Anyways, what I'm pondering about now is the fact that the home computer now has been fixed up (rather nicely in fact) and I wonder if I should start blogging from there again. -that would be nice and convienient, but I really have become very fond of blogging from places that aren't my home (due to the wonderful gift of free internet access and all that)

I guess this has become a habit of mine.

-anyways, these are my brief musings for today
as I am at the college and about to drive home and eat dinner

be blogging later!!

-bye!

the very happy and thankful Daiko
(yes, I am quite grateful to God)

...

pray for me~

third day of being twenty
...

that's right, Daiko is now 20 years of age!!

How does it feel? you ask...
well, kinda scary and fun at the same time. ^_^;;

Anyhow, since some of my readers have been so kind to pardon me from having a tight, and restrictive blogging schedual- I will most likely be blogging less, but that does not mean abandonment of this Daiko-project. Not at all- I really enjoy this very much (though I don't always have the time for it ^^;;)

and so, thanks everyone
bear with me please.

Oh yeah, as a "treat"
you guys who are reading this can find something of mine in the comment section of this entry
(that is only if you follow the directions...)
*laughs deviantly*

...
pray for me.

^_^;; ...

if you wonder where Daiko is and where she's going...
I'll tell you.

-sigh- Yeah, I know that the posting schedual of the blog has changed somewhat- now it's every other day as well as the original "no blogging on Sunday" lineup. Which for me is not bad- I feel that this way, I can write better...well, it's not just that, and I'm still not sure how this is all going to work out [yes, this is due to the fact that I can't use my home computer anymore- it's going out for repairs since there's a virus inside it (or some other evil thing, it's got problems)- sad, isn't it?]

...and so, I'm going to try to have this blog be full of high quality entries as opposed to a high ammount of entries that I had posted last year.

...

the fact that I no longer have a working computer at home- how do I feel about that?

I don't really mind.
It's nice not being online so much
that way, I can appreciate my house and work on my life even more (I need to devote more energy to finding a good job anyways)

so, things are pretty decent over here in my world
...just need to plan for the future
and get things worked out

-wait!! I forgot
something really important!!

...

I need to make sure that I pray well everyday
for my readers
as well as everyone else.

-sigh- yes, that's a good resolution for me to keep this year.
-and I will...

pray for me.

a small space of time
in which one waits and learns
then matures
and grows to be able to love
to be responsive to others
and... to know God.

-that's what life is in a nutshell, isn't it?

...

I guess it's not really that strange, but life is always like this- I find that interesting in an odd way. Even when you're just waiting for a friend somewhere, sometime- one is still living and there is an opportunity for all of the things I have listed above... wow.

^^;; I'm not trying to make a mountain out of a molehill or anything, I just see these little details of life and I analyze them- sometimes, it scares me what I find, especially when I haven't meant to find it.

...

So, what do I do in this small space of time?

Whether I'm waiting for a few minutes for a friend to make their appearance, or for this life to come to it's natural end...what am I to do?

...in such a small space of time.

first quiz of the year...
as to accuracy [which I regularily would comment on after taking a quiz] I have no idea whether this is or not- I can't tell.


Your anime hair color is green.


What is your anime hair color?
brought to you by Quizilla

-still, this may look good on me
if I was an anime character of course.

ah~ how nice to be blogging again.

^_^ ...

[I hope I'll be able to blog more, I still have several things to do...things require my focused attention and I don't know what's going to happen...]

third day of this new year
and I end up disappearing (with regards to my blog ^^;)

As usual, I didn't mean to- just that my computer is truly on the fritz and is going to be repaired quite soon. -sigh- that is so not fun.

Well, something good happened today
actually just a few minutes ago:
I just got out of my first confession of the new year!
-and so, I am free of sin...
at least for a while.
-sigh-

You know, I mean to write so much here
I have a lot of plans for the things that I want to do and the things that I want to say.

^^;; I still have quite a bit of backwork with regards to this place, and this isn't even a paid job (it would be interesting if this was though)- this is merely one of my personal projects.

/me is so crazy.

I want to write a reflection of last year
-to highlight certain events in my life
-to explain who I am to a further degree
and especially, to try to pick up from where I last left off- ugh.

Anyways, I'm glad that there's still time and opportuninties for me to accomplish all that- also, it's not as if those things are most important anyhow.

It's living well and being a good child of God
that is of the utmost importance.

...

God help me.

coming soon:
Daiko adds reviews and basic blogging lessons on a [somewhat] regular basis!
[-as well as other things...]

keep on praying for me!

good-bye to this year...
and here it is, the last day of this 2003 solar year. I feel somewhat melancholy. I woke up this morning with high hopes for this time, to have the end of this be wonderful and full of joy- and yet, I've been disappointed.

I know that my brothers don't find this day to be as special as I do, and that they don't feel the same need to finish everything up. To have one's affairs tied up and put in place, to be ordered and at peace; at least, that's how I feel from observing the Kabigon. -maybe, it's just in his nature to be easy-going, and yet I see how fleeting the day is- I lament all my wasted time.

-sigh-

I wish more to have no more regret for the rest of my life- I know that is quite unrealistic, but having regrets causes too much heartache.

I would like a peaceful year.

...there's a lot that I would like actually.

-it's been said that "want" is the cause of a lot of the troubles in this world, and while that may be true with regards to many things- wanting what is truly good is not a troublesome thing...

I want things to be better.

I'm so tired.
I'm sorrowful.

and still, I have high hopes in the Lord
and still, I will trust Him with my joy
and I will still smile

even though I feel almost dead inside.

help~

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I don't know what to do,
I feel like I've been discarded
that within my family
there is little love for the person that I am

little patience with regards to my mistakes
little mercy with regards to things I do not intend to do

love that goes toward things (from other family members) rather than towards me or others

I wish I could make this clear
I wish I could make this stop.

I will leave for now...

break the silence
then burn away darkness with firey zeal

and remember all the good things that have passed
and that are yet to come
the promises given for a vibrant future
of renewal and kind regards

of friends and peoples
of passing beauties and lasting joys

I celebrate these and the other blessings that God has given me, especially in the gift of my readers

heh. I find it to be a very kind act that people who have not known me in the physical world actually feel something for me here and pray for me. That these same people take time out of their lives to read my entries, to care and to pray.

Lord, I am thankful
this in itself is a great present
I have had such a rich Christmas
because I've been given so much

and been through the darkness
which makes the light even sweeter
and all the more beautiful

having bad times reveals how wonderful things are when times are good- it makes me grateful, and clarifies my vision as to what is best.

Thank you.

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NOTE: Yes, I am quite aware that this is an odd way to post (and no, I don't post like this that often) but I needed to get through my writers block, and these thoughts [are the ones that really] jumped out [at me]. ^_^;;