I need sleep...
I find myself going to bed at horribly late times- this is a recent occurrence, but I fear that this will become routine if I let this continue too long, and it's already been a few days now. -sigh-

I'll overcome this, but it will take time...

Anyway, I think I found out the problem with my oekaki board (note the fact that I said "think") from what I have observed, it appears that Mozilla users can't save their images when they use the board. I don't know why this is, but I do know that this is what I have seen.

I haven't edited the board yet or gotten into my account to do customizing, so maybe it's a good idea if people stay away from there for now.

Yes, that is the plan.
-for now, anyway...

-Daiko~
(I've had a slight headache all day, and I wonder why it hasn't left me- because of that and not feeling "chatty" I don't have much to say today.)

I am a happy Daiko
(and supposedly, this is my 200th journal entry- yay!)

I have an [oekaki board] of my own now.

(I'd say more, but I'm working on another paper at the moment- literally.)

yay~~~~~~~!!

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EDIT: Do not use the oekaki board YET, I've been trying it out and it seems that there is a problem with saving pictures, and I haven't found out/fixed that so far. I want to get this taken care of but that will have to wait so please be patient.

Thanks in advance.

my love of recording the events of my life
isn't enough for me to keep putting everything down before I forget it- or something like that, but it's not important that one remembers (or even knows) everything that they've been though.

-that reminds me of naiviety, when people are some what unaware of things that happen around them... as I think about it, I realize that I am like that at times- things go on and I'm not conscious of them. -that can be good, and that can be bad.

-but what about when life-changing things happen?
should I be alert with regards to them?
-what if they're not happening to me, but to someone I don't know very well...?

hmm...
I don't know.
I'm quite naive.

-Daiko~
(would say more, but should get to bed.)

-it's noisy ;_;
and I didn't post to my blog yesterday
-I guess I didn't have the mental energy to do it since I was able to (I was in front of a computer with internet access) it's just that I didn't say anything when I could have (is that good? ...nevermind).

bleh, and I don't know what to say now.
;_; ...oh well.

Anyways, today is my grandma's birthday
-she's 84 years old today.
(...I thought she was already that age?
-oooh, she's younger than I thought. ^_^
good.)

[hee hee hee... I am being watched! XD
-the kabi is waiting (impatiently) for his turn on the family computer...and I'm enjoying the wait.]

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-sigh-

-more seriously though, I'll post better when I can I'm sorry that I didn't do too well with this entry today and for the lack of a good one yesterday.
(I know that I have no obligation to do this, and that this isn't a job- but I love blogging. :love love:)

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before I go though, there's [a nice place to visit if you'd like to try out oekaki] -I hope that you will visit and see [what this oekaki thing is] that I like so much.
-have fun!

...

-Daiko~
(I'm so active on devTart XD
...and I'm going to let Kab have his turn~)

...events
there's a lot of them that I want to talk about
there's a lot that I've gone through the past few days, such as:
-my celebration of the 4th of July, the trip I took to Miami, and today's adventure to [Bible on the beach]

but it's late here now, so I won't.

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I was on [Deviant Art] some time earlier when I ran across this painting that caught my attention- I really loved [the colors] on this piece (not to mention, that I really enjoy abstract art). Needless to say, [since I said it many times in the comments for the picture ^_^;; ...] I really loved this painting.

-and I wonder if you liked it as well...
won't you tell me so?

-Daiko~
(I don't like the image because I know the artist,
I love the painting because I find it to be beautiful.)

quickie
(that's right! a very light-weight blog entry from Daiko because she has things that she is working on and wants to get finished today!)

[try to eat good things, okay?]

[not just a] placeholder
for possible future entry [anymore!]

-I would like to write in my blog today about the events that have taken place before now, and to clarify somethings and all, but I've got some work to finish for college so until I can get back here, I'll post some other things: [an article on flaws in Internet Explorer]- you should READ this if you use this browser!

if you think that Daiko has an emotional rollercoaster ride journal, take a look elsewhere- [the journal of Astrima on Deviant Art] -I think that I've got it pretty easy in comparison...(this girl is an awesome artist, I like her art and I wish her happiness- she could use LOTS and LOTS of prayer though).

-and, [Sweetmoon/Mangetsu] has moved her website to an [easier to remember web address]- nice, but I was a little confused at first.

-that's it for now.
(please pray for me...)

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EDIT: technical- as one can see (if they've seen the previous version of this entry...) I have added some words in brackets that were not part of the original entry.

commentary- I tend to make these short, little entries thinking that they'd be sub-par or somehow "not good enough" but that doesn't seem to be right- I like this entry, enough so that I don't consider it as a mere "placeholder" anymore. I now consider this to be a decent stand alone entry (hey, at least it's not as bad as that two sentence entry-like thing I did some time ago... I can put up the link to it later.)

-Daiko~

some articles for my research
-this is something of a school-related thread [-I mean post... I think]
and it's kinda here to show people that I study (yes, even in the summer- that's not a bad thing, and I don't mind it that much- I'm the kind of person who enjoys school and all that...)

Basically, this is a reminder of some good places where I can get journal articles for psychology- I'm doing this so that I can do write ups, and be able to find these links again in the future.

the list:
"Encyclopedia of Pyschology"- amongst other things...
Behavior Analysis Publications- Encyclopedia of Psychology
some articles dealing with psychology and behavior

...
Psychology is an interesting and rich science, but somehow I enjoy philosophy so much more...

-Daiko~
(yay! -blog usage! ^-^)

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EDIT: Okay, I did some more searching and I found some links to articles that are more relevant to my lifespan development psych course:

stuff from APA.org

(yeah buddy! -now to write 1,000 words...)

another slight update:
-okay, I found more specific stuff that pertains to my course, but I don't know if this will be good enough:
MSN search for Erik Erikson
some results from Questia.com

Oro?
Well, here I am
online when I should be sleeping...
eep.

Anyways, I wanted to post about the trip I took over to Miami and all, but it is LATE
(arrgh! -it's now almost 1am!! o.0; !!)

so, hi and good-bye for now
-and don't worry guys, I'm GOOD.

-yes, REALLY...
I'm even going to be employed

God is good
(all the time)

-Daiko~

after the rain
(NOTE: this is a "re-try" for me today*
I made an entry and was about to send it, but I lost my original due to computer problems** over at my college library- I want to post it, and I'll try to but it's most likely that I won't be able to, and that's kinda sad.)

it's really nice and moist outside
somewhat like a very mild and gentle sauna
-which to me, is quite pleasant
(guess I've grown accustomed to the weather here in Florida...)

Anyway, I think this will probably be the last time I'll be able to blog this week as I will be away for some time...

I'm going to be out of town to attend a funeral for a family member- who I never really knew.

I have mixed feelings about this whole situation
and I wonder if I'm selfish for feeling like I've been interrupted- though, that's only a small sensation that I have in the back of my mind.

I don't know how to put this, or how to say what I feel, but I know that that's okay- one doesn't get perfection of expression, though one has the freedom to try...

(I wrote much better in my original entry, and I wonder why I wasn't able to send it- apart from the technical issues and all... -would it have been too personal? I wonder...)

-sigh-

it feels like it's been one thing after another
-wait, that's not right.
something seems to be lacking in me, but I know that it will come back -sigh-

I just want to have
expression of something I can't quite get...
it seems to be fleeing me
-ah well.

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Yesterday was hard for me.
dealing with internal struggles
and mental invasions
in the form of dark thoughts that I did not want to harbor
and old lies of being abandoned and without friends to give me their support and love

spiritual battles
normal battles
everyday battles
for the Christian as well as the non
although, the way we see things depends on where we stand in relation to God and how close we wish to be to Him

but

I had intense attacks
and fear
it didn't want to go away

it was like I was a little girl
left alone in the woods
with a storm of huge black birds (crows)
attacking me from all ends

but they went away...

I think I'll make an illustration when I can.

-sigh-

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I think that it takes me a bit too long to post these things, because by the time that I finally "nail down" these things- it's usually then that they are over and that they are part of the past

but it has been said
of these things
of life, "Anything not eternal, is eternally out of date"

I guess- no,
I see that that's true now.

Okay then.

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I have wanted to write an entry regarding the nature of this blog, should I get a separate one that I can have free of issues and full of the more "lighthearted" things that take my fancy like anime, or should I have all my entries together as I am now?

I made that question some time ago
and I answered it.

I am one whole person
I am not divided nor do
I wish to be
I will continue to post here

with levity and other things together
because...
that's me
that's who I am.

I'm glad.

(still, I'd love to hear what you have to say in response to this, but of course I'll be unavailable for a little while so please be patient)

Thanks, Father God.
I praise You.

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[*yes, so this is technically the second version of the aforementioned entry -sigh- (I don't like having to do things twice, especially if I've lost the first try and couldn't save it- how annoying.)

**the computer kept "freezing" and all; personally, I think that my school computers could use more RAM- but I don't think that the campus has the money...]