traveling mercies (lots of them)
...it's about noon and this Daiko is now in Miami. o.o It feels kind of strange posting this from the bedroom of my little cousins, since I've only accessed my blog either at my college or at home-oh well. Also, it's odd being in their house and not seeing them-I wonder where everyone is? Obviously, they have gone out but where? 0.o ...

Anyway, about the trip here: it was quite nice, really refreshing for me. Changes of scenery are beautiful- I like traveling, I like seeing things and enjoying different places. ...silly me, as usual I can't seem to explain it properly. I have high hopes that I will change, in that failing of mine and in others, these flaws of mine can be resolved with prayer...
I spent some of the travel time in prayer- of course, I didn't spend enough time ^^;;; I got distracted every now and then by my family and by other things- do I have that short an attention span? o.o?? Despite that, the Lord was kind to me. It was nice to hear Him speak to me again. ah~ wonderful.

I prefer the speech of God to all other creatures
makes me wonder why I waste so much time coming up with foolish things to say to other people. -sigh- Lord, forgive me please! -.-;; since only then can my soul find peace.

And so, I am renewed and refreshed today.
Thanks be to God.

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NOTE: Sorry that this is so abrupt, I need to go eat lunch soon. ^^;;;

...quiz. (somewhat RAWR-ish sorry.)
I did another one.

Yes, I am tired.
Yes, I need more sleep, but this was at a friend's request


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Yes, it bothers me that I had to re-take the test several times so that I could post the results here.
Yes, I wish that Angelfire's blog service would work better at times (I couldn't get in here for about an hour or so...RAWR!!)

I think I was happier being Naruto.
(that was the other day~)

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NOTE: I posted this immediately after I typed it so I wouldn't lose it- I don't like doing that.

I'm going to pray and sleep soon.

Still, as an announcement- I am going to be in Miami tomorrow- so, I am not sure whether or not I will be able to post. I would like be able to, since my informal schedual (currently) is to post 6 days a week (and never on Sunday)- but one can't always have their wishes fufilled. And with that, I say good-night everyone, be well.

role strain~
I know God made me to be one person.
I'm learning about who that person God wants me to be. Problem is: this person is one weird girl. (Yes, I openly admit my idiosyncracies ^_^)

Case in point? (Well, there are several but I will use one for illustration purposes)

I want to journal about my life.
I want to journal about Christ.

Which comes first?
Christ of course, but as I write I'm getting all sorts of readers- and this is about me too so...what is it that I write?

o.0 ...this is my own blog and I don't know exactly what to do with it- not good.

Here's my proposed solution: for every silly post I make (God-related or not) I will make another more serious post. That should work, I think...

um, could I get a little help here?

I need prayer.

-sigh- every now and then...
I feel like RAWR-ing. So, due to this wish to speak on such "rawr-y" things (stuff that is somewhat bothersome) I will put up a RAWR note every now and then at the bottom of an entry.

If you don't like RAWR, then don't look at it.
(Personally, I don't like to complain or even mention that something bothers me, but I know that issues do need to be brought up from time to time -sigh-)

Yeah, I guess that the fact that I feel that way at times proves that I'm still human- prone to error, other kinds of foibles, and sin. Yuck.

Lord help us all.

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for the sake of the readers: if you were confused by what I just posted- here's the explanation the Daiko has to give... RAWR is a sound effect, much the same as the traditional "roar" but spelled differently. Actually, "rawr" is the phonetic spelling of "roar"- this is what the word "roar" sounds like in living English.

I tend to RAWR when I am stressed out, and in similarly irritated/tired/weary states.

that's about it- I need to go and help my family do chores now.

^_^ see you later, I hope!

I see the beauty of the saints...
...(too tired to post, almost).

today, ugh~ I think the weight of all my stupidity has caught up with me at last, and...it's so heavy.

Well, not exactly *.*;; ...

Anyhow, despite me and my little problems- today has been beautiful. Why?

Today, the world celebrated the twenty-fifth anniversary of Pope John Paul II- I listened to the ceremony myself and... to hear a man that weak in body, struggling to give the Mass and to continue on to serve his fellow men, it made me very tearful.

I mean, after listening to that and knowing who my spiritual father is- that he suffers greatly every day, that just makes my sufferings look like nothing in comparison. I realize my life is not yet truly holy. I have too much pride and fear. I am so young...

I've got a long ways to go still; yet, the good thing is, there are lots of wonderful things still to come, and marvelous companions who are guiding me, not to mention that the Lord of the Universe Himself is my very best friend.

-sigh- All is well. (-even though, I feel the opposite way...)

hn, I think I'll have another Naruto-related post some time in the near future- what do you say? hn? ... *^_^* ~Daiko now is a bit happier~ yay!

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NOTE: lately, Angelfire's been REALLY buggy: it's been having log in problems, posting problems, and so forth. Not good: RAWR!!

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EDIT: I have noticed something very disturbing in several of Angelfire's hosted journals/blogs- it appears that in many of them, one cannot leave a comment- I would like to know why...I think I will go take action and possibly, e-mail them, soon. -sigh- This could earn them yet another "RAWR" from me if this keeps up...

quiz!!
(...because, I'm really tired...ugh~)


Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

(Anyhow, I know that I can identify with Naruto-kun, but this much?! o.0;;; ...oh my.)

^_^...go take the quiz!! (I want to see who you are!)

misguided zeal, and other painful things
In my zeal to reach out to others I have been wounded. Still, wounds and scars are fine as long as the heart beneath is pure and whole. And thank God that I know the one who patches up all broken things. -sigh-

I wonder, God how exactly is it that you love someone as stupid as me? (I know that whenever I fall you always pick me up, even if it's my own fault that I fell in the first place...-sigh-) ...I see, you love me for who I am, even though I'm not yet the girl you want me to be. I want to be perfect, I don't want to make mistakes, I hate my humanity- but, but this is the gift you have given to me. This gift enables me to have compassion, to understand pain, to remember what suffering feels like- if I can be hurt, I can be healed. I can help to heal.

So, you put me to the test so that I may grow and so that I may win against the enemy. I fight so that I will continue to be yours and only yours. I love when I am hurt: the deeper the pain, the deeper my level of love and compassion.

Thank you God. I am human.

(It hurts so much though *cries*)

...please, I beg of you forgive me...forgive me for my sins, the follies I have committed...

I will stand and fight for my one and only true friend, my God and so I will suffer. Lord, please grant me the grace to bear my pains well- to sing and to bless, not to run and hide.

I love you Lord, and I love the people on this Earth.

I'm out of words...
Oddly enough there's someone else out there who feels the same way...

It's not as if I mean to add on to what someone else is saying but, yes that is similar to how I feel too- still, there is a difference. In describing things, language can fall short- it's not that language itself is faulty, just that it is quite limited. Seriously, if one stops to think, it's really amazing that people can communicate with each other and be understood at all- miraculous even. ^_^

Actally, we're limited by what we know. Since we don't know everything completely, we can't describe things as fully as we wish to at times.

This is the difference between earthly (or worldly) speech, and Heavenly speech.

So, we who dwell on Earth are stuck. ^_^ Still, there are ways to get around the boundaries and reach to boundless realms, but one has to be creative and innovative- and that's hard... ^^;;;

Could someone help me out here?

...well, there is prayer of course... ^_~

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EDIT: for the link in this entry, you should go down past the comic and the status bar and see what Piro had to say about this subject himself- and yes, it is interesting that we both had something to say...

and that blue bar is actually some text, how you read it- you should try to find out~ ^_^

(comment anyone?)

overload (and irritations...)
-tend to make one Daiko very weary. -.-;; ...

Yeah, today has been a strange mix: I've been up, down, and all over- emotional rollercoaster~

-sigh- So, what was it that taxed me so much? Well...

irritations:
at home, the family PC decides to be rebellious and not work for some unknown reason. I did not know that so I tried to go online and tend to some things and I couldn't- even after tweaking things and trying out different stuff for at least an hour- actually, it was at least two hours -.-;; that event made me feel like pulling out my hair, but God helped me to perservere (thank You Lord! ^_^); after that, I still had to take care of lunch and I hadn't cooked any food (due to the whole evil computer incident) so that meal was pretty much leftovers- it wasn't too good- I felt horrible... -sigh-

overload:
pretty much due to various irritations (some of which are not mentioned above ^^;; ...) and due to unfinished buisiness of mine, as in the fact that I hadn't done various things (i.e.: cook) -and so forth

*whew!!*

But...I'm not done yet.

^_^ Although, all those things happened I was still given the grace to have raised spirits- and not be concerned with much. ah~ I feel so much better.

For today, today was another lesson in surrender. I had a "refresher course" on how to give up everything to God.

God is amazing- He spoke to me, reminding me that He wanted everything I had to offer Him; actually, that all creation belongs to Him-even sufferings, even misery. So, I gave it to Him.

...and that's about it (time for Daiko to go to class, ^_~ but I'll post again soon~)

multiplicity~ (straining in battle)
...lately, I've been having this "atmosphere" about myself that I call: earthly weariness. -sigh- It's something like this: when I feel almost apathetic and tired of everything, when I have no relief from anything (save from God) -and, it's suffering for me.

I don't know, I mean- I know that feeling this way is an integral part of the human experience. I know that is similar to ennui (boredom). I know there is a distinct difference between the two, with the former being more secular as in: "I'm bored, I think I'll go watch Fruits Basket or something..." and the latter being more spiritual: "God, when are You coming back, it's so awful here...and yet...I don't know if You really should return now..." but how one goes about getting rid of these two attacks-I'm not too sure. (One should do well to remember that these are indeed attacks they are demonic in nature, and intend to dishearten the target- in this case, I am the target.)

But...I do know the answer-to getting through these times even if I can't put them into words (earthly speech) I remember, and...I will fight!

I will remember that there is a difference between all the multiples of myself that have been created due to the fractioning power of the world. I will remember that the Earth (while beautiful) is not my home, and that all worldly fun things I experience here are merely passing joys- and that there is more there is truly beautiful things to come.

Because of this, I can be one whole person again. I will continue to seek God, and love my fellow man. I will remember, I will fight- I am overjoyed.

Overjoyed~

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yeah... *smiles*