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a saint in training: my life on Earth
Saturday, October 25, 2003
entry mood: lightheared~ then more serious.
Well, as I am enjoying myself posting with "invisible text", here is the second entry in the "series" ^^;;
{By the way, if you would like to learn how to do this, then ask me- you should do that by leaving a comment in the appropriate area of this blog.}
It's amazing how I can go on and on when I don't have anything of the utmost importance to say- not that I'm garrulous or anything -sigh- and I pray that I never become so... ****
Anyways, I am bothered by some things- I'm not irritated by them, or else I would have posted a RAWR (or something to that extent) ... -sigh-
Of course, I do have high hopes, and I will see them through- I'm just concerned for some people...
I'm concerned for myself that I won't change from the person I am, that I won't mature and become a saint. I'm concerned for my friend Cassandra- that she's taking a lot of hits, and that she won't be able to get past them and stand up for herself. (I believe that she can though, but she really needs to build up her faith so that she can endure anything- from what I have seen she has not the stamina yet~)
...and, I'm really concerned for a friend of mine.
He's like a brother to me. A special brother. As it is, I don't really have anyone in my family who is in my age group and understands me as he does.
He's cool like that- but, I'm concerned for his soul. (I don't mean to be overdramatic here, please understand...) -sigh-
Possibly, in time he will cultivate his spirit and grow; but...I don't see anything now, I'm almost worried, and I've become serious.
-sigh- ...
Pray for us...
Friday, October 24, 2003
Thanks...
I've gone through a lot of weird things lately and I've noticed that I haven't been saying what I need to; rather, I've been unable to say what is necessary. So, to break my various "blocks" (writer's block, artist's block, and what have you~) I am going to give thanks. {simplest to greatest-I think} Thank you everyone for stopping by and at least looking at my blog- I know it's not much, but it makes me so happy to know that other people have looked at something I've created. ^_^ Thank you for leaving comments (or at least trying to, if you are Cassandra or someone else who tried to reply to me and got an error message- yes, I'm talking to you too). Thank you for talking to me, and making me feel happy- I love it! (-even though feelings are somewhat superfluous ^^;;) Thank you for putting up with my weirdness (I wonder, if anyone else posts in spoiler code and gives all the readers a hard time finding the words of the entry and doesn't give much help? ^^;) ... More importantly, God I'm glad that you have smiled on me and given me people to care about and people who care for me. You have put up with me, in all my moods and such: when I act foolish, or silly, or hyper, or sad, or lowly, or like anything- you are there always. I have been so blessed. Thank you. ...and this is probably the part where my friend -enka-kun would throw up. ^^;; Since this post is so "mushy"- actually, I prefer shoujo- that would definately be the appropriate term...
now, I wonder why no one replied to my cosplaying post? o.o??
hidden (entry)
...since I like to use "spoiler code" so much. ^_^ *whispers*
Anyway, I finally have my webpage up (insert *cheers* here) and I will have the URL link somewhere inside of my blog's profile.
Yes, it is somewhat odd that I would go to such great lengths to hide it, but I feel that this is a good move for me- that way, I won't have to worry about trash in the guestbook or bandwith problems (at least, for now). Possibly, I will make this page more accessable to everyone in the future- if I get proper feedback of course! ^_^~
Yes, the place IS quite bare. I do have a life to lead.
...seriously.
's about it for now. ;)
Thursday, October 23, 2003
~rhyth`e...
(a word I made up just now-phonetically, it sounds like this: writhe- but different, breezier, and lighter if you will.) ah~ It's wonderful to be done with my A&P exam. I feel so much better now. ^_^ (I hope you don't mind, autumn is here and there seems to be this wind of creativity blowing...) (hence the fact that this entry is so "breesy" and sporadic, and the fact that my other entries have started to become so as well. ^^;;) Suddenly, it's as if I have a flood of new ideas coming into my head. It's somewhat distracting. (It really was during the test, I kept thinking of all sorts of things- and couldn't resist staring out the window o.o somewhat like spring fever, but...it's autumn!) -sigh- ... (can't put it all into being right now~) I guess now would be a good time to work on costume design...(^^;;; yes, I have a point; though this style of posting is quite confusing, I can and will get there~)since I will need time before the event. Which is... ^_^ to go to the final Lord of the Rings movie The Return of the Kingdressed as a citizen of Middle Earth. Yes, if everything goes according to (current) plan Daiko will actually be cosplaying. This sounds crazy, and I've been wondering about this myself- oddly enough, it was Ashley who came up with the idea. I hope nothing weird happens. ..... God help us all: seriously. o.o ......
to be more disciplined...
I have decided to put my blog project on the back burner somewhat. Seriously, I have been too "concerned" with it (so to speak), since I have not been putting forth as much effort as I could in other areas of my life (that's not exactly correct- but that's the best way I could put it -ugh~). -sigh- So from now on, I resolve to study first, and blog/do various other online activities second. Strangely enough, I am going to do as I had planned earlier and launch my website soon- but, I am not going to have much online yet. And really, it's nothing spectacular- just something of a "Daiko's Complications" or so. More news of this will be forthcoming. Still, despite the fact that I have various plans and such- I will do better to study first! :p It's really not good of me to spend my precious morning hours after breakfast on the computer when I have so many other things to do...-.-;;; ...it's time to salvage my productivity level~ In short: I am going to start regulating my time more efficiently, and possibly will undergo a format change for this blog (it's been so haphazard as of late, as if this blog wants to go in some direction I haven't intended!!) o.o ... pray for me~ ^^;;
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Victory!!
I feel it appropriate to quote a few lines from Psalm 12: "Now will I arise," says the Lord, "because the poor are oppressed, because of the groans of the needy; I will set him in safety and in the salvation for which he pants."Two battles have been won: *the battle to ban partial birth abortion *the battle to save Terry's life Thank God, thank God -that more children may live, that Terry lives ...I'm so happy, I just don't know what to say (I had meant to give a speech though ^^;;;) Thank you Lord for your kind and loving mercy. Thank you for victory...at long last. Lord, continue to strenghten your people, for there is still a war to fight- may we continue until we reach total victory. *battle cry* Yea~! NOTE: I don't have my Bible with me at the moment, so I used an online Bible service: Bible Gateway. Since it is quite handy, I will add their link to my list soon.
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
a nice (random-ish) story...
(be forewarned: as I said before, I am low on resources and tired- when that happens, sometimes I come up with non-sensical ideas and such. Now, carry on. ^_^) *story mode* ...about a "boy" I met one day.
He reminded me of the tales of the Laputians. He had dark blue hair, with pale sky colored eyes. He was odd.
"You there!"
"...are you talking to me? ...sir?"
"Yes?!"
"okay..."
"-get to work!"
o.o?? "work? You have noticed that I am already at labor, haven't you, sir?"
"You are? I wouldn't know- I never do such things."
That was how we met. It was strange conversing in such a way. Apparently, this person was foreign. Very much so.
And quite odd. So odd, that for awhile we couldn't really communicate with each other even though we were able to comprehend each other's speech...
I found out (in time) that the person (after I spoke to him, I wasn't sure whether he was a boy or a man- I still do not know really) was from an odd and lonely isle that is of itself, and floats in the air carrying a fantastic populace who do not work as we on Earth do but live in a most abnormal manner...
"uh..."
"Yes?" I politely replied.
"So, that's what you meant by "work"?"
"Yes."
"..."
"What is it?"
"Well...it's just that...my people never do such things."
o.o! "What?"
"Like you said, "work". We have other people do that stuff."
And so, I became enlightened with regards to the people Swift wrote about- though these were not truly Laputeans.
These beings were quite similar though. ...*end story mode* -and that was the beginning of an odd idea I had earlier today. **** EDIT: I have considered making this into some type of short story project-possibly like a doujinshi, or something similar. Give me some feedback, okay?
time limit!!
sorry everyone, due to time constraints- this bare snippet of an entry might be all you get out of me today. @.@ ... Actually, it's just that my Daiko resources are low. (-sigh- Sometimes, it's like I'm only running on half a brain- ugh~!) So...please, pray for me... I'll see about posting and fixing up some projects in the near future. NOTE: tommorow is "all college day" for me and many other happy college students in Florida- that means...no classes!! Thank you Jesus!! ^_^ **** EDIT: as in "low in resources" it's not that I'm out of good things to write about- just that for some odd reasons, I can't. Writer's block- that's it. -sigh- ...
Monday, October 20, 2003
falling down, getting up, trying to live...
that's been my life lately. Also, apart from what I have previously mentioned, I have seen how different my life has become since I first recieved the Lord in Holy Communion. -whew!!- ... It's kind of strange, I find myself bothered by the very things that I once loved when I was younger- not that I have become an un-appreciative old lady* or anything like that, it's just...I've grown. Amazing...I never knew the day would come when I would find myself loving prayer, and God more than video games and anime. ^_^ But, it's true- and while, if you had asked me when I was younger if I did love those things more than God- I never would have said such a thing, yet I did live that way. *sighs* Lord, forgive me. Not that those things are intrinsically evil or anything like that- it's merely entertainment. Still, if one wants to grow and be an excellent person- it is necessary to be deeply involved with the reality we were born to exist in, not to escape from it. Sanctity, holiness, virute- these come from living a good life full of struggles, suffering, and pain. Holiness occurs when the wisdom of God is applied and lived out daily, when life itself is given as a gift, in sacrifice- for God, and for man. This is why I turn my back on temporal things. As nice and as beautiful as all these Earthly things are, I have something better- and I won't turn away. -pretty much, that's what I have to say about my trip: yeah- this is the lesson that Daiko learned. ^_^ *is happy* **** NOTE: *I am only nineteen. this is pretty much a reflection of times past in non-Earthly terms, I will see about giving a more "people friendly" report of my "sabbatical" (for lack of a better word ^^;;;) some time today- I really need to study for my Anatomy and Physiology I Lab exam today though... ah well, I'm praying for you!! Please pray for me! ^_^ life is good.
Saturday, October 18, 2003
traveling mercies (lots of them)
...it's about noon and this Daiko is now in Miami. o.o It feels kind of strange posting this from the bedroom of my little cousins, since I've only accessed my blog either at my college or at home-oh well. Also, it's odd being in their house and not seeing them-I wonder where everyone is? Obviously, they have gone out but where? 0.o ... Anyway, about the trip here: it was quite nice, really refreshing for me. Changes of scenery are beautiful- I like traveling, I like seeing things and enjoying different places. ...silly me, as usual I can't seem to explain it properly. I have high hopes that I will change, in that failing of mine and in others, these flaws of mine can be resolved with prayer...I spent some of the travel time in prayer- of course, I didn't spend enough time ^^;;; I got distracted every now and then by my family and by other things- do I have that short an attention span? o.o?? Despite that, the Lord was kind to me. It was nice to hear Him speak to me again. ah~ wonderful. I prefer the speech of God to all other creatures makes me wonder why I waste so much time coming up with foolish things to say to other people. -sigh- Lord, forgive me please! -.-;; since only then can my soul find peace. And so, I am renewed and refreshed today. Thanks be to God. **** NOTE: Sorry that this is so abrupt, I need to go eat lunch soon. ^^;;;
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