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a saint in training: my life on Earth
Thursday, October 30, 2003
effort to change...
I resolve to do better. I resolve not to whine and to sink to the depths of despair when I do stupid things. I resolve to put others first before my own desires and needs. I resolve to work hard and be God's child and warrior. ...and I know that all these resolutions mean nothing if I don't rely on God's strength. Pray that I succeed.
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
*work in progress*
Yay!! I've actually done more with my site, my plans are now coming into being (I had meant to say, "coming into fruition" or "full flower" but somehow, that just didn't sound right...) It is really nice seeing something come out of nothing or rather, to create. For me, having a website and doing the coding by hand is like magic. You use some arcanic language (in this case HTML) and voila! something appears. (Of course, I'm talking about magic in that whole "hey look, you can easily make stuff with strange powers" and all that- this has nothing to do with the practice of any kind of "real" magic ^^;; I wouldn't know anything about that- seriously.) It's fun. I can't wait to work on it some more. By the way, I've learned lots more HTML so expect lots of hidden tricks and such, like "almost impossible to find" secret links. ^_^Wai~ waii~!! Of course, it does get annoying when one makes mistakes in HTML- since when that happens, sometimes things that one meant to hide are now in plain sight! -sigh-... **** EDIT: ugh~ I fixed a typo of ommission in this entry and I just wanted to add another thought here: the HTML that Angelfire automatically inserts into the webpages that are hosted for free is ugly!! o.0 I'm going to see if I can design my site better so that the ad banners won't interfere with the layout and the set up. I could use some help please. I'm even posting the link to my site so if you would go check it out and leave me some feedback on what I should do to fix the place up- that would be great! I want to learn more HTML! ...I still need to make sure that I study and live my live well...God help me.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
cold, gray day
...it makes me want to regress into myself (or something like that) actually, I'd rather go into hiding for awhile, curl up, and hibernate~ ^_^ nah. Anyways, I got out of the exam in Anatomy and Physiology Lab some time ago- ouch. It was hard. [/big understatement] -sigh- I need to study more. **** Apart from that, I am pretty content. Somewhat cold, and in a little pain...but content.I've felt somewhat empty as of late though. ... I'd say more, but I'm out of words and out of time (I need to get to class!) -be back (soon, I hope). Pray for me.
Monday, October 27, 2003
just a few things today...
Daiko status: joyful (in simplicity~) Today, not much happened with me. It was nice this morning not missing Mass, recieving Holy Communion with my friends, having morning prayers, and singing to Our Lady of the Miraculous Medal. Today was wonderful. Not for the sake of any grandiose event, but for the sake of simplicity and the fact that things went well. Thank God. I studied, and studied- tommorow I will study even more. I hope that when I take the test at 3:30 I will be fully prepared and able to do well. ah~ ... Pray for me. Life is good. ^_^
Saturday, October 25, 2003
enough foolish-ness already!!
Well, I guess this would be about the time that a make a somewhat people friendly post, and with a certain person in mind... ^^;; Oh, please forgive me.
I am posting this horrible, weird thing so that I may possibly get all the stupidity out of my system; so know that you have been warned in advance! Here goes: (NOTE: there was a start to the conversation long beforehand) ... imiko: *me is so evil, tonight: [I] let you talk to my brother~
enka: *blocks*
imiko: ^^;; imiko: ...I don't like being evil, I'm going to stop imiko: -I think.
enka: Heh.
imiko: ... [turns evil here.] imiko: (*whispers* I kinda liked it, I had fun ^^;;-) imiko: RAWR! evil smiley~
enka: What? enka: The evil? enka: MEEP! enka: *runs*
imiko: *Daiko acts strangely* hn...you're acting so cute...~ [very scary]
enka: Am I?
imiko: *slits eyes* yes~ [uber scary...]
enka: No, I am not! [tries to summon powers] enka: FEAR ME! enka: BLUE MAGE!
imiko: ...no.- not scary.
enka: *casts Lv-?? Dispel Evil*
imiko: *failed* imiko: *grins*
enka: Run!
imiko: ?_? ... foolish, there's nowhere to run...
enka: *pounces on you! enka: THEN I SHALL DEFEAT YOU!
imiko: *takes a slice out of you* imiko: nope.
enka: *dies*
imiko: /me= "winnah!" imiko: *does victory dance* imiko: *laughs evily* imiko: (*burys -enka-kun*) imiko: ... imiko: *comes to senses* imiko: o.o... imiko: ...what have I done?!! imiko: *weeps* ...
And that everyone, is a prime example of when IMing and roleplaying get out of hand. Pray for me~ good night everyone, be well. **** EDIT: Big edit- the names have been changed!! Do not try to IM either one of us without getting to know us first! -NO solicitations or any unwanted business/conversations, that is all.
...self-depriciation (hidden)
^^;; I think I'm starting to go overboard with my whole hidden entry thing (by the way, this is the third in the series)-but it's fun, and I'm "learning" more about HTML in the process...
-okay, I will stop soon.
Today, I've learned that what I know is really not much at all- I have always been aware of the fact that there is a lot that I don't know, but trying to create something and put it into being- that's really showing me my limitations.
Of course, I don't like it- but shouldn't I be humble and accept this fact about myself? Should I be concerned and want to change from being so "ignorant"? It appears that I must find a happy medium between the two; a balance of some sort.
I pray that I find it soon.
Also...^^;; this is nothing new- as to the situations this Daiko can get into but, today just a few moments ago, I missed Confession. ;_; ...
Lord, help me. -.-;;;
I also missed Mass as well.
I'm so foolish, but wow! I'm still loved so there's some hope for me yet... it will take lots more time for me to grow, improve, and mature.
ah~ thank you, Lord.
^_^
NOTE: I will be continuing the "teach these souls how to blog~" lessons quite soon, as well as the strange story idea I had earlier- I just have a tendency not to finish my projects as fast as I am able to. :( -sigh- And...I really need to learn more so that I can do well on my exams and be able to finish my projects and such. Pray for me!!
entry mood: lightheared~ then more serious.
Well, as I am enjoying myself posting with "invisible text", here is the second entry in the "series" ^^;;
{By the way, if you would like to learn how to do this, then ask me- you should do that by leaving a comment in the appropriate area of this blog.}
It's amazing how I can go on and on when I don't have anything of the utmost importance to say- not that I'm garrulous or anything -sigh- and I pray that I never become so... ****
Anyways, I am bothered by some things- I'm not irritated by them, or else I would have posted a RAWR (or something to that extent) ... -sigh-
Of course, I do have high hopes, and I will see them through- I'm just concerned for some people...
I'm concerned for myself that I won't change from the person I am, that I won't mature and become a saint. I'm concerned for my friend Cassandra- that she's taking a lot of hits, and that she won't be able to get past them and stand up for herself. (I believe that she can though, but she really needs to build up her faith so that she can endure anything- from what I have seen she has not the stamina yet~)
...and, I'm really concerned for a friend of mine.
He's like a brother to me. A special brother. As it is, I don't really have anyone in my family who is in my age group and understands me as he does.
He's cool like that- but, I'm concerned for his soul. (I don't mean to be overdramatic here, please understand...) -sigh-
Possibly, in time he will cultivate his spirit and grow; but...I don't see anything now, I'm almost worried, and I've become serious.
-sigh- ...
Pray for us...
Friday, October 24, 2003
Thanks...
I've gone through a lot of weird things lately and I've noticed that I haven't been saying what I need to; rather, I've been unable to say what is necessary. So, to break my various "blocks" (writer's block, artist's block, and what have you~) I am going to give thanks. {simplest to greatest-I think} Thank you everyone for stopping by and at least looking at my blog- I know it's not much, but it makes me so happy to know that other people have looked at something I've created. ^_^ Thank you for leaving comments (or at least trying to, if you are Cassandra or someone else who tried to reply to me and got an error message- yes, I'm talking to you too). Thank you for talking to me, and making me feel happy- I love it! (-even though feelings are somewhat superfluous ^^;;) Thank you for putting up with my weirdness (I wonder, if anyone else posts in spoiler code and gives all the readers a hard time finding the words of the entry and doesn't give much help? ^^;) ... More importantly, God I'm glad that you have smiled on me and given me people to care about and people who care for me. You have put up with me, in all my moods and such: when I act foolish, or silly, or hyper, or sad, or lowly, or like anything- you are there always. I have been so blessed. Thank you. ...and this is probably the part where my friend -enka-kun would throw up. ^^;; Since this post is so "mushy"- actually, I prefer shoujo- that would definately be the appropriate term...
now, I wonder why no one replied to my cosplaying post? o.o??
hidden (entry)
...since I like to use "spoiler code" so much. ^_^ *whispers*
Anyway, I finally have my webpage up (insert *cheers* here) and I will have the URL link somewhere inside of my blog's profile.
Yes, it is somewhat odd that I would go to such great lengths to hide it, but I feel that this is a good move for me- that way, I won't have to worry about trash in the guestbook or bandwith problems (at least, for now). Possibly, I will make this page more accessable to everyone in the future- if I get proper feedback of course! ^_^~
Yes, the place IS quite bare. I do have a life to lead.
...seriously.
's about it for now. ;)
Thursday, October 23, 2003
~rhyth`e...
(a word I made up just now-phonetically, it sounds like this: writhe- but different, breezier, and lighter if you will.) ah~ It's wonderful to be done with my A&P exam. I feel so much better now. ^_^ (I hope you don't mind, autumn is here and there seems to be this wind of creativity blowing...) (hence the fact that this entry is so "breesy" and sporadic, and the fact that my other entries have started to become so as well. ^^;;) Suddenly, it's as if I have a flood of new ideas coming into my head. It's somewhat distracting. (It really was during the test, I kept thinking of all sorts of things- and couldn't resist staring out the window o.o somewhat like spring fever, but...it's autumn!) -sigh- ... (can't put it all into being right now~) I guess now would be a good time to work on costume design...(^^;;; yes, I have a point; though this style of posting is quite confusing, I can and will get there~)since I will need time before the event. Which is... ^_^ to go to the final Lord of the Rings movie The Return of the Kingdressed as a citizen of Middle Earth. Yes, if everything goes according to (current) plan Daiko will actually be cosplaying. This sounds crazy, and I've been wondering about this myself- oddly enough, it was Ashley who came up with the idea. I hope nothing weird happens. ..... God help us all: seriously. o.o ......
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