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a saint in training: my life on Earth
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
I Celebrate the Day
a song by Relient K from their recent Christmas album And with this Christmas wish is missed the point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You?ve touched my life
Because here is where You?re finding me in the exact same place as New Year?s eve
And from a lack of my persistency We?re less than half as close as I want to be
chorus And the first time that You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior?
With the first breath that left Your lips did You know that it would change this world forever?
second verse And so this Christmas I?ll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear that You have come to meet me here
*sound of sleigh bells*
**To look back and think that this baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did that you were born so I might really live
[sing ** again]
And I I celebrate the day that You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life
pray for You to save my life pray for You to save...my life~ lyrics found here: http://www.letssingit.com/ (under Relient K) -I have corrected them somewhat, and I will see about revising the lyrics there as I am registered at that place. NOTE: this still doesn't seem a totally accurate rendering of this song as to what I have heard played on the radio... -I decided to post this song since I needed to remember Christ Mass, and how wonderful it truly is though my heart is heavy with regret and other things... pray for me please.
'tis the season of my ill unrest...
-I am tired...apathetic almost. It's been rough on me for several days (actually weeks) this month. I know that it is Advent, and I am waiting (almost impatiently) for the Christ child, but it isn't a joyful time for me. I'm tired of my courses, and I wish that things had gone better- I didn't do well in my A&P lab class, and I don't know what it is that I am going to do now. I hope that my father will be more merciful to me...I'm not sure that he will though. I wonder, what it is that I should do (and should have done earlier) and where it is that I should go. I am suffering though I am not in physical pain, my mind is wearied and I am not able to understand and appreciate this beautiful world that lies before me. -sigh- Even the fact that The Return of the King will be playing tommorow in theaters in my area- even this wonderful thing does not cheer me. I don't like this...
Saturday, December 13, 2003
I can't just let you drown, can I?
This entry is for you, my beloved younger brother. I do understand that you have an extremely hard time getting your work done if you do not have "help" or at least, someone to watch over you when you are working. I had hoped that since you had become older that you wouldn't need such aid from me anymore. You are in the twelfth grade, aren't you? I do love giving help, and of course- I love you (you are my only little brother). Believing you to make use of your own intellegence and feeling that you had matured, I have left you to keep up your grades all by yourself. You are failing. My heart hurts. I never see you studying, and I know that you neglect your assignments. Why? I fear that question is far too complex for you to explain to me fully, and I do understand that. What I do not understand is why you are letting this happen to yourself. You know how to do things. You know that you should do things, and when you keep track of the time and of your various assignments you know when you should be doing things...despite all this, you don't do your assignments. To me, this is like watching someone drown. Even worse watching someone drown who won't even swim to save himself- I don't know if I am able to rescue you. I don't think I can, nor is it my true responsibility- your grades. -sigh- Lord help me. Please my readers, pray for me. -thank you. ( Brian? I can't seem to find you, but if you are still around- I need your bloghogger URL)
"help! ...I don't feel so good~"
ugh. As I have written, I was ill with a virus last week. -sigh- I thank God that I have gotten over that illness...still, I've got new pains to deal with. -I was feeling horrible earlier, and I had wanted to write about that...but I got better. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. ^^;; I'm so crazyAside from that, last night I had a weird sort of adventure...which involved having me blindfolded (with a very large white sock tied around my head); pantyhose with one orange stuck at the foot of a leg- tied around my waist; and bad directions that were given. It was fun. Okay, before any of you start getting confused- I'll explain (somewhat). This was for the Filipino Nurses' Association Christmas party that went on last night. I had taken part of an odd game- and yes, the wrong directions had been given out. Supposedly, the blindfolded person with the orange-stocking tail was meant to put their orange into a cup that was behind them- of course, this was to be done swiftly so prizes could be awarded. I won the prize. I did make a fool of myself in the process especially since I was attending to the wrong directions You're supposed to knock down the cup behind you with your "tail"!- and I thought she was telling me the right thing too... What a fun game. ^_^;; ( Brian, are you still around? One day I went to look at your Some Thoughts blog and it was gone!)
Friday, December 12, 2003
lovely things, both beautiful and sad...
(NOTE: I will be posting this link in all my entries until I recieve a response from Brian. Where are you, my blogging friend?) I love books. I love how they take my mind to faraway places (as long as those places are ones that I don't mind going to- and as long as while I'm away there, I am not hurt severely) and teach me things that I usually would not have learned of. ...I just finished reading all of The Lord of the Rings for the third time [I think...I'm not too sure about that since every time I read it, it's like the first time...] and now that I've grown, I really can appreciate it much more. -sigh- Tolkien, he wrote some really great stuff. I have him to thank for this... It's nice to know that he was a friend of C. S. Lewis, for their work is quite similar and they both had many things in common. The Chronicles of Narnia are akin to what was written in the last tales of Middle Earth, I love both books dearly. Still, LotR makes me meloncholy in a way that I have never been after reading any other text. It's amazing...
Thursday, December 11, 2003
This is bad.
(Usually, I would definately not have an entry of this sort- since this is hard for others to understand...and something one may consider "unimportant" -sigh- but what else can one do when they have lost a fellow blogging friend?) I can no longer find Brian/Slim of the blogs Some Thoughts or bloghogger fame. The link that I have to the right for his Angelfire-based blog leads me to nothingness- and usually, I travel through there to get to his other blog. Since I can't go to a place that does not exist [for it appears that he has deleted his blog- and I'm not sure why] I can't find him. I've tried search engines and looked to see if other blogs posted links to his- nothing, I got nothing. And so, my friend if you read this please respond you know what to do: leave me a comment [in this entry] I meant to find you so that I could give you this URL to haloscan.com so that you could have a better feedback system. When you get back to me on this, I will update the obsolete link that I have in my right sidebar. I pray nothing bad has happened to you. -Daiko
There is a Saint Nicholas
and Santa Claus too? Now where did this all come from, I wonder? Well, St. Nicholas was a young man (yes, human not elvish as some have said) who was born during the third century A.D. and a Bishop who was exiled and imprisoned during the rule of the Roman Emperor Diocletian. He died December 6, 343 and was buried at his cathedral church. Strangely, within his grave formed a relic: manna* which is a liquid reported to have great healing properties. Of course, St. Nicholas has several stories and legends concerning him. Unfortunately, in America (as well as other places) he is no longer remembered in the fashion I have stated above. Somehow, he is supposedly "Santa Claus"** -and if you're not exactly sure if he ever existed...Anyhow, I'm sorry I'm late with this [I really wanted to post this earlier, but had trouble doing so] and I want to wish you all a happy St. Nicholas' Day- even though, this is rather belated. Happy December the sixth!!information source: http://www.stnicholascenter.org/Brix?pageID=23[I wanted to do more on this subject, since I feel so strongly and to go to many sites for information but this is all due to my time constraints] you can just type: www.stnicholascenter.org as this will still take you there~ ------------------------------------ concerning the asteriked parts: *now isn't that interesting? (I don't like saying this, but that reminds me of various video games...^^;; forgive me St. Nicholas!!) **which is quite bothersome to me, the person who was a devout Christian while on Earth and is now a holy saint in Heaven; that he has been turned into a stuffed figure-head of materialism...I find that so sad.
oooh~ (...is this true? I wonder....)
Okay, I was out wandering the internet and looking at blogs of friends when I stumbled upon this [within the confines of bringerofdoom's live journal] ![You represent... kindness.](http://images.quizilla.com/R/Ruri-chan/1056289761_Akindness.JPG) You represent... kindness. You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual. You truly care about people and are generally well-liked. Though sometimes you may be perceived as weak, you truly have a strong heart and a good desire to help others. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla[went in and fixed a few spelling errors I found in this though...still, not too bad]
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
teach these souls how to blog: the finer point of commenting
I've noticed that many people who I have sent here [as well as various others such as: visitors who arrive here out of curiosity] aren't too familiar with the whole blog concept. Chiefly with the fact that one can leave comments at the bottom of entries. By commenting, one can respond to what was said by the one who posts in the blog; also, one can leave a message [yes, it can be off topic...somewhat] for the author to read. In this particular blog, you can access this interactive feature by clicking the orange link that has the word "comment". If no one has left a comment, the link will read no comments if someone has left a message in that section the link will have a number and then the word comment or comments. For the latter situation, it would look something like this: 7 comments. I hope that this helps!! (-if it did, you should know where to go and what to do- yes, leave me a comment! ^_^)
Well, well, well...
today I was given a lovely surprise as I checked my comment tagboard[which lies within the profile of this blog ^_~] and what do you know...I found a comment from Gene of ApEX fame. to which I reacted like this: oooOOOOOooooh~~!!as you can see, this made me happy. ...of course, I'm probably speaking to a large number of people who have no idea of who or what this ApEX thing is that I speak of; and to remedy that, here is their FAQ's section of their websiteThat should clear things up nicely. -Anyways, it's time for class so this Daiko is off! I will be back afterwards; since I didn't post yesterday, I feel almost as if this is necessary and I've gotten over my temporary speechless-ness. ^_^
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