in other words, what I've written in my journal (notebook) on that day (yesterday)
[Yes, this is how Daiko writes to God.
Yes, it is odd and everything isn't written out clearly- this is where freedom in inscribing comes in; translation: He doesn't mind if it's hard to read]
begin transcription:
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-sigh- My room is currently in a state of disarray- I have yet to fix it up... also, I forgot what it was that I wanted to say... that is bothersome to me.
Anyhow, my perceptions [of things...] don't matter greatly- You are the only one who sees everyone and everything completely and correctly- not me.
Still, I want to know what is best: to do the right thing, and to see things clearly- which, I can't do without You of course. -sigh-
Help me in my elimination of things that stand in the way of sanctification. For how can I truly be a holy person who is in tune with You if I am not spending my energies and time on Your will?
No, that must not be so.
I must live according to Your desires and not anyone else's if I want to be truly happy [as paradoxal as that may seem]
Somehow
somehow
somehow,
I will get over these slumps, and frights that are felt within my heart, and irritations of trivial things, and guilt of not doing more.
-for this will not help me.
It is all an obstacle in the way of my fully loving God, and are pains that do cause [unnecessary words omitted here] harm...
I prefer the steady firmness of Christ to these shaky, flimsy mental preoccupations anyway.
I'm not happy with the way things have been, nor am I glad about the [word omitted] discomfort I am causing myself right now.
-I will change this.
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transcription ended.
-as to the discomfort I had caused myself as well as the disarrray I found myself in...
I resolved that. ^_^
...this just goes to show how different my writing style is in opposition to my blogging
-I didn't think that this would be the case, since I'm the same person... ah well, this can be remedied.
pray for me~
praying for you.
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NOTE: I just noted that all the spaces that I'd originally typed in this post to mimic my style in journal writing didn't show up here... I'll let it slide for now.