let's get on with this...
okay, I think I can finally blog again
(emphasis on the word, "think")

...things have been kind of hard on me these past few days, my father has taken ill with some mysterious malady that no one seems to know the cause of (especially the doctors -sigh-) and I have found myself slacking as of late. Actually, I must be burnt out- I don't really desire to do constructive things -sigh- so lately, I've been solaced by reading comics, and drawing on various oekaki boards.

Anyhow, I need to shape up soon- I have classes to attend and things to finish. -sigh-

please pray for me~

paint chat and oekaki compendium
-I like the former, and I wish to create the latter... I've been online for a few hours now, and I should be in my anatomy & physiology class and taking my test...

-sigh-

I'll go do that now, and explain this later
>,
...bye.

help...
-I don't seem to be able to get much done lately, and that bothers me. -sigh- I know that I've had a lot going on recently, but I still want to get things accomplished- and I find myself doing nothing useful, and forgetting my tasks.

Okay, I see that I'm probably confusing my readers.

Well, pretty much I'm just posting today to let everyone know that I'm okay: I'm alive, and trying to get some work for school done (along with a lot of other things as well)

I really need lots of prayer that I will do well on my two tests coming up this Wednesday, and that I get my paper done for that date as well (it's almost done pretty much, I still need to finish it though)- I need lots of help for the test in anatomy and physiology- I have to remember most of the bones that make up the human skeleton.

God help me, I think I'm kinda worn out.

Please pray for me~

so much took place
over the course of a mere week, I'm kinda tired and I owe my readers a GOOD explanation of what's happened lately, I shall start with this:

strange things have occurred

-sorry, this is all for now
but please, pray for me

and especially: my father, and my Uncle Joe who passed away yesterday.

Thank you.

login problems, access problems, and other lovely things
yeah, that's the reason why I haven't been able to post until now this week- sorry everyone

anyhow, I'm going to take a break from my current posting schedual: and post something light

img src="http://www.christiananime.net/oekaki/pictures/184.png" alt="[a trait known as] sensitivity Copyright ? Daiko"

just a sketch from one of my favorite oekaki boards...

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EDIT: I just realized that I was using up tons of bandwidth from the CAA since I was directly linking the picture I had drawn. I will see about not doing this in the future and finding a good place to host my images, but for now: here's my picture

choices
essential to life, and at times hard to make.
Yes, very very hard indeed.

Anyway, I'd meant to write on one topic, but the situation I was in today makes me want to work on another- that said, I wanted to upload some images to Aspenth.com so that you guys would have some of my art to view that isn't on Deviant Art, but that didn't work out either.

(If you're wondering where I typed this from, I was at my lovely local library. :)

ah~ well, I'll get on with this.

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This weekend is the time when a certain convention is going to be held in Orlando. This particular one is familiar to me, and I thought I had wanted to go, but I find that what I want in reality is quite different . You see, what I'm talking about is: MegaCon. This is a time when people who like anime, comics, and a whole bunch of other things get together and buy stuff, watch anime and other media, meet people with shared interests, and meet people one wants to meet.

That said, I know that I wouldn't be able to buy anything since: I have very little money, and have promised that I would not buy anything that I don't need during Lent. (yay!)

So, I have one less reason to go.

Still, I had a great big motivating factor to want to attend this year: Fred Gallagher of MegaTokyo fame.

I wanted to meet him and get his autograph, but I realize that that pales in comparison to some other plans (albeit humble) that I have made.

I am going to stay home for my study date this Saturday with my friend Alicia.

...

strange, huh?

-I'd say more, but my time's run out now.

hope to see you good people of blogging land tommorow!! ^_^

pray for me~

updating and other things
Well, I'm not exactly sure of the place that I'm trying to go with this post; that is, I don't really feel like saying anything. Not that I'm wanting to take a vow of silence at the moment, I guess I'm just uninspired with regards to writing now. I do have a lot of things that I want to talk about, but there's some kind of obstacle which prevents me from expression. -sigh- I haven't written much in my journal to God today either.

Oh well, this is all part of being human, right?

Some days we'll wax eloquent and on others we are silent. -and so it is with me (at least for now).

pray for me~

quick snippet (yeah, not that much of an entry...)
as to where Daiko is...

concerning Lent, I feel that I haven't set my standards too high (I gave up even more last year :0 ^_^) and this really doesn't bother me too much.

Still, I have found one problem with my plan:
I'm having a hard time with my idea of sticking to less than two hours of online time per day.

I am going to nix this- and I'm not trying to cheat or anything, it's just that this will be changed since it's not working too well. -.-;;

Why? Well, I'll explain later... I've got some coding and such to do.

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EDIT: Okay, I've returned- I'm out of class, and I've finished making a few minor fixes and additions to my humble little site. I'm happy to announce that my prayer page is now working again! This time around, it's more of a scratch pad; which means, you can post your request (take as long as you want) without having to put down a name. I hope that this will help and that I'll be recieving many more requests this time around.

About me not doing the "two hour limit" thing:
Well, as I said earlier
this isn't about me wanting to cheat or make Lent easier on myself (it's supposed to be hard) it's just that that wouldn't work... you see, I can't use my home computer so I'm literally relying on libraies (and if some nice person let's me use their computer with internet access- generally, I don't have this happen to me unless I'm in a library) and sometimes can't get online for days. So, that's it- pretty much.

I hope that you and God don't mind.

pray for me.

This day of ashes
I have returned, and am now going to devote more energy to this blog and to my webpage.

For it is Lent, and I am going to spend this time defining who I am and getting things accomplished rather than being wasteful of resources.

---Lately, I've found myself quite reticient...
bluntly, I've been unwilling to talk and to reach out to others. I've had a lot of intertia with regards to movement... it's troubled me, and I don't know how to explain it fully. Still, this will do.

Today, I wasn't bothered to much by this condition
I got some things done that I needed to
I even cleaned my room (I'd been putting off this task since I had been overwhelmed by how messy it had become)

so, I'm glad of that.

More importantly, I woke up around six fifty this morning and made my way to the 7:30 Mass for Ash Wednesday [the first day of Lent] with very little trouble. (If you know me, then you are aware that this is a miracle; since I find it hard to wake up for the 8 o' clock morning Mass and have been getting out of bed around nine lately.)

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"Lent? What is this thing that Daiko keeps referring to?" you may be asking a similar question of yourself right now.

For those of you who don't know or are at least, unfamiliar with this penitential season, I will see about posting an entry on this subject some time in the future. With regards to those who do know, and would like to know what it is that Daiko is doing for this time, refer to this list:

Daiko will

-attend Mass every day
-pray the Rosary every day
-pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet every day
-be truthful as to the state of myself, and act in a loving matter (moreso than usual; and yes, this is an area that Daiko needs improvement in)

-reach out to others and love them no matter where they are at in their life

-spend less than two hours online each day
-pray for others with a good will (send me your prayer requests I will take them, and read them and conciously meditate on what it is that you need!!)

-work on my website and up date my blog as to where I am in relation to God and in my life on Earth (this means that I won't be having silly filler quizzes in here during the duration of Lent and yes, I have more details forthcoming)

Daiko will not

-drink soda
-eat candy
-eat cookies, cakes, pies, brownies, granola bars, donuts, and the like

-play video games (this one is almost too easy for me to give up- or so I think now...)

-read non-Christian webcomics online [as well as not visiting any forums or fan-sites related to these comics i.e.: the MegaTokyo forums] (yay more free time for me to put to good use)

-use the home computer
-visit [or login to] Deviant Art
-willfully sit down to watch television (which means, I will avoid it if I can, but if I must be in a room where television is being watched to not do so myself)

-make new purchases (unless necessary)
-willfully participate in wasteful, foolish conversation (yes, I really need to learn how to observe my speech...)

and finally,
-[when at church,] stay in the pews rather than standing at the altar

that's the end of the list for now.

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whew. So, why am I posting such a long and hard to read entry now? and why didn't I post on Monday as I usually do?

Well, I'll answer both questions; you see, the college was having internet connection problems all over campus and I had a very hard time getting online. I then did not want to post to my blog as I had had much troubles occur, and so... this long entry for today. Sorry everyone, I'll get better... or at least try to.

...

pray for me.
(I really need your prayers so that I will stay on track with everything that I have planned.)

arrgh, still driving myself crazy
well, that's what it feels like anyway.

-sigh- at the moment, I'm supposed to be at home (Daiko is at the college library at the time of this typing)...grr- I just now finished an important paper that I should have done last week.

at least it's done now, but if I had been good and had done this instead of wasting my time online and not getting proper things done I wouldn't have put myself through so much suffering.

When will I ever learn?

-looks like now is a good time to start.

-sigh- pray for me.