nervous wreck
in progress.

Actually, I'm just kidding about that title (I think) but lately, I have been hurting myself by being too fearful and making my stress levels rise considerably.

-that really isn't normal for me, I'm a peaceful, happy kind of person- I tend to think that people are generally kind and that good is more common than evil. No... that's not exactly right, I'm just an optimist pretty much, not naive.

Well, about me being scared:
it's just that at our house the family computer has been acting up something HORRIBLE and the way things are around here, if something's wrong with the computer my father tends to blame my younger brother and be very harsh with him. I don't like this state of affars at all.

In the first place, it's not truly Dave's fault- the computer is just something made by Microsoft and because of that it's got problems.

In the second place, there's better ways of dealing with things [that are far more effective and satisfactory] than being cruel to family members.

-sigh- this really doesn't explain everything, but this is enough, and I am tired.

pray for us~
(my family)

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Aside from this and other bad business, things have been pretty great with me. I finally turned in my paper (and did a nice job on it too) and recieved some very lovely presents from my wonderful friend Alicia (I didn't even do anything, and it's not a special day either) [she is so kind!]

and so, I am happy now.
[somewhat]

Thank you guys who've prayed [and who are still praying] for me and my family, I really appreciate it.

I want to do the same for all of you who are willing to share your prayer requests with me so please make use of my prayer and chat pages respectively.

I created those because I was thinking of the people who visited my site and wanted to get in touch with me but couldn't since I don't put out my e-mail address that often.

^_^ that said, good night and be well everyone.

arrrgh!! I could kick myself
it's less than a week into spring, and here I sit at the computer allowing myself to be held captive to the temporal wonders of the internet (especially oekaki) rather than be outside in the beautiful weather with the breezes blowing and the sun shining gently. I have work to finish, and my friends are outside enjoying Wild West Day here at the college- I want to be with them, I should be with them, for being outside and doing things is much healthier than this self-imposed imprisonment and inactivity of mine.

-sigh-

...waaah~

ugh.
Well, it's time for me to go home now and I still haven't finished what it is that I set out to do.

-sigh- I need to mail a few things and finish writing.

Still...
it is the third day of spring here
the weather is nice
my mood has picked up
my father is in decent health
my house now has DSL

and I'll be okay

even if things aren't going my way.

Thank you God.

-pray for me
that I get done what I need to
and that I will mature to be an excellent girl

maybe, by the time I post next I will have accomplished that which is important.

please DO pray for me then.

-Thank you.

"all you're doing is looking at oekaki!!"
well...Dave did say something similar to that yesterday, and it is true that I have been less constructive as I have been spending a great ammount of time looking at various oekaki boards online.

-sigh- foolish, foolish me.

Anyways, I plan to have two posts for today
-this is the first
pretty much, I am doing well aside from the problem I touched on briefly, and that's good.

I updated my website quite a bit today. (Yes, this is the same as the "Daiko land" link that I have in the orange sidebar to your right, down over there. ^^;; ...)

I added two new pages:
a page in which I have my chatterbox imbedded at this place, I have chat capability available to everyone
(of course, I am the moderator and I will not accept ANY trash- I will delete as I see fit)

and also,
my still unfinished Oekaki Compendium page
here I will have an oekaki directory of sorts, but this will take time and work on my part so it won't be complete any time soon.

-for now, that's about it

Still, I wonder if I should have signed up at Bravenet.com and gotten myself some nice web tools. Oh well. -it's time for class.

pray for me~
(I'll be back. ;)

things are looking up
sort of...

Well, I am very glad to say that my dad now appears to be normal and healthy again- yay!!

...aside from that, I was working on a rather large picture at this place: http://www.christiananime.net/oekaki
which was titled, "oh dear..." but now I seem to have lost it due to errors. o.0;; !!

-anyways, it's about time for me to leave for confession.

Thanks everyone, keep praying~

(yeah, this wasn't a decent post- more like a light update... sorry. ^_^;;)

let's get on with this...
okay, I think I can finally blog again
(emphasis on the word, "think")

...things have been kind of hard on me these past few days, my father has taken ill with some mysterious malady that no one seems to know the cause of (especially the doctors -sigh-) and I have found myself slacking as of late. Actually, I must be burnt out- I don't really desire to do constructive things -sigh- so lately, I've been solaced by reading comics, and drawing on various oekaki boards.

Anyhow, I need to shape up soon- I have classes to attend and things to finish. -sigh-

please pray for me~

paint chat and oekaki compendium
-I like the former, and I wish to create the latter... I've been online for a few hours now, and I should be in my anatomy & physiology class and taking my test...

-sigh-

I'll go do that now, and explain this later
>,
...bye.

help...
-I don't seem to be able to get much done lately, and that bothers me. -sigh- I know that I've had a lot going on recently, but I still want to get things accomplished- and I find myself doing nothing useful, and forgetting my tasks.

Okay, I see that I'm probably confusing my readers.

Well, pretty much I'm just posting today to let everyone know that I'm okay: I'm alive, and trying to get some work for school done (along with a lot of other things as well)

I really need lots of prayer that I will do well on my two tests coming up this Wednesday, and that I get my paper done for that date as well (it's almost done pretty much, I still need to finish it though)- I need lots of help for the test in anatomy and physiology- I have to remember most of the bones that make up the human skeleton.

God help me, I think I'm kinda worn out.

Please pray for me~

so much took place
over the course of a mere week, I'm kinda tired and I owe my readers a GOOD explanation of what's happened lately, I shall start with this:

strange things have occurred

-sorry, this is all for now
but please, pray for me

and especially: my father, and my Uncle Joe who passed away yesterday.

Thank you.

login problems, access problems, and other lovely things
yeah, that's the reason why I haven't been able to post until now this week- sorry everyone

anyhow, I'm going to take a break from my current posting schedual: and post something light

img src="http://www.christiananime.net/oekaki/pictures/184.png" alt="[a trait known as] sensitivity Copyright ? Daiko"

just a sketch from one of my favorite oekaki boards...

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EDIT: I just realized that I was using up tons of bandwidth from the CAA since I was directly linking the picture I had drawn. I will see about not doing this in the future and finding a good place to host my images, but for now: here's my picture