and what exactly does, "right as rain" mean?
-just curious.
Anyway, what I said for the title of this entry is true- and I don't exactly know why. I don't understand why I'm so irritated with the company of other people as of late, or even what's going on internally within myself (both physically, and emotionally- possibly also spiritually, but of that I am not sure).
I really don't "get" what this disquiet and unrest of mine is, my heart is restless as am I and I don't know what it is that I should do.
I just want to hide from people
-well, not really
I guess I don't want to deal with people
and I don't understand this
-at the moment, the fact that my younger brother is in the same room with me and making some innocent comments that have nothing to do with me, it is a bother and I am wishing to be left alone.
I wonder, does anyone else ever have times where they almost feel sick to be around others, or even just to hear their idle chatter? I mean, I know that I don't feel this way because I have some specific reason for being angry at someone... but why is this? -and what is this sensation
I have so many thoughts
and things that I'd like to do
but for the most part, I've not been able to do them
and I have been lacking something lately
I can't seem to write well either
I think that some of the things that I've gone through have caused me this sealing away of my heart from others- or may be not...
I really ...
don't know.