trepidation in my heart...
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: FEAR!! (in my own heart- for others)
Topic: wondering where I stand
I really really hate it.
-I do understand that fear is a natural reaction and emotion with regards to things, but I hate how unreasonable it can be, and how pervasive it is.

I also dislike how stupid people can be at times with regard to obedience- I know that it is hard to do things that someone else wants you to do at times, but it can be helpful and make life much more easier to go through- why cause unnecessary stress for yourself? I really don't understand...

from the above you may get the impression that appeasement appeals to me, but it does not. What I am against is the audacity that some individuals have in not fufilling reasonable requests.

-yes, this makes me very angry!
If your father calls for you, you should go to him- and if you disobey him, then he has the right to be upset- what need do we children have to unnecessarily upset our parents?! -they have enough stresses already...

this sort of thing happens to often around me, and it irritates and frightens me... very, very much.

...

Lord, save me from my fear
-it is the faith-killer
and I don't need my beliefs to die,
I don't want that at all.

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Okay, it seems that though I posted this much earlier this morning (Eastern time) I still haven't been able to view this entry in my blog all day and it has been set to a public viewing- I don't understand this, but I wonder... is it this way because someone doesn't wish to hear this from me? I don't really know, but I do know that I'm feeling a bit better now than when I first wrote this...

-I still need help though. -sigh-


-Daiko~
(pray for me please!)

...I missed my own anniversary! o.0!!
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Born and Bred
(this is where you can find information on the show that I have listed in my "Now Playing" line above: http://www.BBC.co.UK/drama)

...yes, I am two days late in remembering my first blog-o-versary- I had started this very blog (my first) last year on October 10th, it's wonderful that I've kept this journal up for more than a year... I'm happy about that. ~^_^~

...

*gets back to work*
(yeah, I've got things to do, but I'll be back to reminsisce and say more...)

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

continued pursuit
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: news downstairs on [public] tv
Topic: resources
(that is, the continued pursuit of many things in this life of mine- as well as the continuation of my "hunting down an excellent computer at a bargain price" theme.)

I am happy!
I've been finding so many things as of late:
(some nice deals on computers- mostly laptops)
CNET looks at laptops
some Netscape search results
-another reason why I love using Netscape instead of IE: elegant searching, and good results

interlude: intro to Table PCs
a look at prices of T-PCs at Tom's Hardware
some laptops (non-Tablet) at Tom's

T-PCs at the save eagle store
the save eagle store itself

[http://tomshardware.bizrate.com/marketplace/
product_info/overview/index__cat_id--462,prod_id--7588172.html my dear Lord, this is a beautiful miracle!]


(other sites that aren't necessarily having to do with the above)
CNET's review of the eMac
my happy search on Google: freeware
excellent: New Tricks for an old PC

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-and while this is nice, I won't be able to buy any computer at at (not even one under $300!) until I find some sort of paid work I can do... -sigh-

I am a student with the capability of doing freelance Commercial Artwork and I am able to make use of Graphic Design but I have no business... anyone care to commission me?

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

ack! The British are Coming!!
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: British comedy
Topic: bits and pieces

(dedicated to Kab, my younger brother...)
[edit- for the "Now Playing" line- it's not "As Time Goes By", but it is actually, "Thin Blue Line"- there, that should fix things somewhat.

and the original title was to be Dead Daiko Day until Kab inspired me with the idea for the current one. ^-^;; ...]

-actually, that title has to do with the odd fact that I tend to pick up a bit of an accent when I watch (or at least, am around) television shows- more specifically, British comedy.

ack! -I don't like it how I don't seem to have any control of this either- ick!

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Anyways, I'm glad to say that I've returned to getting myself to write properly in my physical journal again- I may post a copy to this blog, or not- as of now, I am not exactly sure.

****
-for today... normal life I mean,
it was pretty unadventurous, I went out with my brother to the library to get some work done and it looks like we've both made much progress with regards to our schoolwork- and I'm quite happy about that ^_^

(uh, that's not all though...)

[****
oh yeah, the episode is "Alternative Culture"
-it's funny, yet odd. ...]

good night.

-Daiko~
(pray for us
and I wish to pray for you~)

more of the same (cheap laptop searching)
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: ...
Topic: resources
Google search on laptop RAM
Laptop memory- specification analysis
the one I want at Computershow.com
some refurbished laptops I found at Nextag.com
CNET reviews of laptops
another Google search
Laptop closeout.com
Laptops guide.com
help on this from WebStat
Laptop Kings
results from Search.com
liqidation station.com
Powernotebooks.com


Beautiful Toshiba, I'd love to own you~

Mac-pro.com







Currency calculator
Affordable computers.com


Refurb depot.com





Zyon Shop.com

(Slackers Comic.com)

[/unfinished entry]

-Daiko~

quick look (brought to you by Ashley)
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: *sounds of college library in the morning*
Topic: resources
a good friend of mine had some free time this morning
and we both decided to hop online to look at some inexpensive
refurbished laptops for our[poor college student]selves

I was happy to note that there are several wonderful places to find such computers ^_^

[ah, and I found this other interesting place as well: How stuff works.com]

http://store.yahoo.com/refurbdeals/ibm-thinkpads.html
results of a Google search for refurbished laptops
Bob Johnson's Computer store
http://www.usanotebook.com/
http://www.joeant.com/DIR/info/get/282/30149

[I'm looking around for Tablet PCs though...
http://www.pcworld.com/howto/article/0,aid,114955,00.asp
refurbished inexpensive Tablet PCs out there?
http://www.tabletpcbuzz.com/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=17266]

-well, that's all for now, I'll work on this entry after class- I have work to do.

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okay, more things I found:

Living with a tablet PC
http://www.pcworld.com/reviews/article/0,aid,114509,00.asp
http://www.wugnet.com/affiliates/archives/pcworld-db.asp
http://www.priorityelectronics.com/
http://www.onthegopc.com/
Laptops at tigerdirect.com
http://www.off-leasecomputers.com/70andhi.html
http://www.gateway.com/reman/hm_notebook_matrix.shtml
http://www.cdw.com/default.asp
http://www.bizrate.com/buy/browse__cat_id--462.html
http://www.refurbdepot.com/results2.cfm
http://shopper.cnet.com/Notebooks/2001-3121_9-0.html?part=google1-cnet&tag=glnav
http://www.desktoppipeline.com/pcs/48800355
http://exideas.com/ME/tablet/
http://www.refurbished-laptop-store.com/
http://search.yahoo.com/search?fr=fp-pull-web-t&p=refurbished+inexpensive+laptops
http://www.inexpensive-laptops.com/
http://www.all-cheap-laptops.com/
http://www.compgeeks.com/products.asp?cat=NBB
http://www.compusa.com/
http://www.skyexlaptopstore.com/index.php
New wave instruments.com
http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/browse/-/896918/102-5600003-9115320
http://www.looseinternational.com/refurbished_laptops
http://www.baber.com/used/used_laptops.htm
Zuvio.com- a place to shop.
http://www.worldwebmall.com/laptop/refurbished-laptops.htm
http://www.howtowriteachildrensbook.com/refurbished_computers.html
Computer-show.com stuffs
http://www.locators.com/dir/laptops

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okay, now for some nice art-related things:
http://www.walterfoster.com/
http://www.paintbygrids.com/transfersheets/
http://www.rubylane.com/
http://www.mcgillswarehouse.com/ItemDetails.aspx?ItemID=133110274
woo! nice lineart to color!

****
a search on MLA format

-Daiko~

don't be surprised if I'm silent
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: *sounds of younger brother*
Topic: hiatus?

at least, for a little while.

I think that I'll be going on hiatus for a small period of time- it's not that I don't have anything further to say, it's just that I have not been posting lately and I've been finding it harder to do so.

so, don't be too surprised.

-strangely, typing this entry does make me want to take up regular blogging again, interesting isn't it? -yet, I still need to get back on track with regards to other things, especially with keeping up with my responsibilities and helping out my beloved younger brother, and I so miss writing to God in my primary [physical] journal. ;_;

anyways, pray for me
I will be praying for you [more so, because I want to] in the future.

-Daiko~
(pray for my brother too,
he says that he needs aid in having self-control.)

I am a hurricane? (yay!? boo?) and other things~
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: people typing in the library.
Topic: bits and pieces

What Natural Disaster are you? Take the quiz!

yeah, right... (silly online quizzes!)

****
Anyways, I tried to sign up for Netrulon a few seconds ago, but I ran into some problems (which are my own fault)*- I think I'll be fine though, and once I get hosted, I can review the service and talk about it- yay? more free webhosting! [the free server.com]

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^_^ ...ah, happy things!

Today at my college, there was a festival (which lasted only a few hours: 10:00a-1:00p) it was pretty nice! -I enjoyed having some delicious free ethnic foods with my friends, and with my little brother too~ (hmm, I'd talk about the rest of the experience, but I don't know how I should go about that- I think that this is a decent start for now...)

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(yes, I know this journal entry is a bit nonsensical, but this is in the topic "bits and pieces" because I've placed my thoughts in here in a bit of a jumble)

I found something quite interesting: a news article on the possiblity of watching TV on your mobile phone and so, I wonder what this will do for people... my first thought is that people will start to use their phones more and more (and I am hoping that they'll start to stay away from the big tv in the family/living room in general and move about more... that could be good and bad though... hmm~)

(oh yay. -more phone annoyance. I can just imagine someone watching football on their phone in the middle of a crowded area... or something similar to that. o.o! )

-any thoughts on this?

----
*I hit the back button on my browser during sign up since I had made an error with my subdomain name- I had wanted to fix that but I didn't know that that would be a problem. o.0;; ...I e-mailed support about that so I think that this will be rectified soon, and if not, I'll try e-mailing the other address for support.

-Daiko~
(pray for me)
(I think this entry is finished...)
(DA journal)

yay! (more stuff...)
Mood:  cool
Topic: webmaster things
I love finding stuff online~
so I've made yet another entry that has to do with this stuff again today. ^_^;; ...yeah.

[Color Pad]

[Color Pic 3]

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and, even more hosting places (these are for paid services though- but these look very promising):
Surf speedy.com
Neureal.com
http://www.1t3.com/index.html?site=google_paypal
http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&ie=UTF-8&q=free+web+hosting+mySQL+PHP&btnG=Google+Search

****
some watercolors I found:
Shinhan watercolor paints

****
hooray everyone! [Netrulon.com] now seems to be working! -go get good hosting that lets you use 500mb now!!

other webhosting stuff to check out:
http://www.realfreehost.com/
http://www.xoopiter.com/

[/unfinished entry]

-Daiko~

woo hoo! (stuff for an oekaki poteto board.)
Mood:  happy
Topic: webmaster things

yes! I found the threads over at suteki.nu that have the information I want for my oekaki board (it's a lot of coding though... ^_^;;)

anyways, here's the specific threads for adding upload function and Shi-painter to an OP board:

upload inages: [the specific tech support thread]

avatar-related: [the tech support thread]

add that applet: [thread-y]

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yay! I'll be adding these to an OP board in the future. :heart!:

-Daiko~
(pray for me)